You go through many phases when you stop drinking, or trying to.
The first week is basically meaningless, whether you drink or not, nothing matters until you carry it into the second week.
But once the second week, and the highs and lows of the first week have ended, and you've proven that you're serious about stop drinking, that's when the real challenges begin, with self.
And self is everything, for when self is gone, nothing exists, so while self is alive, self is everything.
How you handle the second week totally depends on why you started drinking to begin with, this will vary for every one.
For whatever you were trying to dodge when started drinking, is usually there, or whatever emotions trying to avoid.
Fear, depression, let down, ect.
All this and more will come back once totally sober again for a few weeks, and now you'll have to face it this time or make the choice to plunge back into drinking.
Drinking, like all drugs, is used as a shield, helps shield people from reality that many aren't coped to deal with.
But when sober, that reality is still staring you, us, right in the face, but now you have to do something about that reality that's not pleasant, have to change it, walk around it, through it, hop over it, something.
Life won't seem as exiting, projects, moods, attitudes spurned on by drinking, being drunk, will all suddenly end, if alcohol was the sole reason behind it.
You'll have to find new fuel to push forward, you'll have to go back to a time in life when woke up happy and optimistic without needing a drink.
If years ago, that can be difficult, especially if trying to do it while alone, with no support.
And sometimes doing it alone can be best, if people around are still into drinking ect.
Hard to go sober if everyone around you is still drinking.
No easy path to sobriety, in the end you have to want to do it for self, self preservation to one degree or another.
So you stop drinking, and the 'thrill' of stop drinking has wore off, now what?
Did you really have a passion for all 'those things', or was it all fueled by alcohol?
Being sober can be very sobering, in that you really go through an adjustment level, a reality check a mood and enthusiasm for life check.
And being sober often reminds you why you preferred to be drunk all the time, at least it gave you a sense of anticipation, even though in reality nothing to anticipate.
Then the people you could barely tolerate while drunk, you can't tolerate at all when sober, and want nothing to do with them.
When sober, it seems sometimes you see with to much clarity, nothing can fake you out, nor do you want to be faked out.
Your senses come back, and that's good if in a position, environment to capitalize on those senses, but if in drabby environment, it can almost become more hellish when being sober just reminds you you're in a type of hell.
When sober, things that irritate you can no longer be laughed at or away, now it's just there in your face.
If America is such a happy fulfilling place, than why are so many hooked on drugs, or alcohol, opiods and more?
What are folks so unhappy about later in the land of dreams?
A lot of people on these drugs have families, lovers, wives, 'Love' in their lives, and more, all the things I do not, as such don't get why people with seemingly good lives take such a narrow spiral downward.
1. Tired of only utilizing 30-40% of my 'off time' do to drinking, cause when you drink to get drunk, you only care about what you're doing while peaking, and then peaked, but after that, sleep or bed as sickly feeling begins to set in, and not interested in anything else until feel 'whole' again just so can start process over again.
2. Drinking no longer serves me, in that I don't go out anymore, so whom or what am I getting 'lose' for? Myself?
3. Tired of post drinking feeling of feeling sickly, and unhealthy, that whole hang over feeling, I mean what's the point of that anymore at my age?
4. And just general health, cause sooner or later something is bound to give.
5. Economic savings, I mean even if just buy 4 pack a day, at minimum that's 28 x 4 = $112.00 a month, minimum in savings, but actually more like $150 or more in savings.
And could give a few more reasons, but I'm just tired of being a hostage to alcohol.
I was about to go buy some beer, and more, than paused on porch, sunny out, nice day, and I was like 'why?', I was like why am I eager to go make self or buy stuff that will simply make me feel sick again?
What's the point?, I asked myself, and for whatever reason I finally kind of answered and said 'You know what, you're right, there is no point to this madness'.
Will it last?, who knows, but either way we all need this juncture in order to kind of 'wake up'.
Not saying being sober all the time is the cure to what ails my or our lives, but it's a start, a productive start.
And if sober, don't have to worry about embarrassing self all the time when drunk, while talking to people over the phone and making stupid, outlandish claims about myself or abilities.
Just tired of this whole circular process of sober, drunk, sober, drunk BS, it's not benefiting me anymore in any way shape or form.
The first night is always the hardest, sort of (not really, it's usually the second night or 3rd)
But the first night is still very hard, in that it's easy to repent when still in 'Jail', per say, also it's easy to say 'never again', while still under the effects of your last drinking bout, as in 'hang over'.
It's not until all signs of hang over are gone, will true test come about.