I never thought the day would come where I know longer want to be popular.
Like the opening theme to one of 'Boy George's' songs said 'Popularity breeds contempt'.
They were right in that humans are very emotionally flawed, and being 'popular' or known simply exposes you to more of other peoples flaws.
Humans are cruel, among other things as well.
And no matter what you do, say, or how you present yourself, a few will always take offense.
Out of every 20 people who know you, there's always be about 2-3 in that number that hate you or see you as a threat, for their own made up insecure reasons.
Being popular really is no good unless have a wall of money to hide behind.
And also, if popular, one has to be very singular in identity, the same all the time.
Most aren't the same all the time though, and that's where 'issues' come up in that one set of people may know a side of you that the other set doesn't.
The more popular you become the less secrets one can keep about themselves, as such kind of forced to become one singular generic bland person to please everyone or to save self from harrassment.
Myself personally, I can't be one person all the time to everyone in that my moods change, and so does often my style of expression, but mainly online.
Online is an escape.
I think being popular is for those who are 'whole' on the inside and comfortable just playing one role in life.
And in being popular, it's not strangers you have to worry about, it's those who 'think' they know you, closest to you, be it family, former friends, co-workers, are the ones that can cause the most grievence..
Yes, the basement, there's no better place I'd like to be right now than right here in the basement, a place of rest, quite and thought.
The older I get the less impressed I am with mans modernization, roads, traffic, cities, urban clutter, the older I get the more useless its all becoming to me.
Some marvel at mans industrialized progress, I see it as slavery, slavery to the system, slavery to always needing a check to barely make it.
People forced to labor their whole lives just to still basically die broke.
Stuff, things, I guess when at the economic bottom, just becomes meaningless, but power brokers need their stuff and things and products moved and shipped, thus employment.
Millions of peoples low wage labor helps to allow a few to prosper...so I guess the key is to become one of those who prosper, if can stay motivated long enough to do so.
But after a while one can begin realizing that that's more to life than laboring all the time, just to feel responsible ect...
Some just want to be left alone, the way a roving animal is in nature, but in today's world, it's near impossible to be left alone, all land is zoned or owned. And it's not like the olden days where one could be like Grizzly Adams and just live off the land.
And just being homeless is not the same, in that when homeless on the streets, can't hunt, can't just light a fire anywhere or pitch a tent anywhere or drink fresh water from streams, they're all polluted now...so when homeless now, basically still forced to live within system and to depend on the system for food, or food banks, shelters, ect...
I"m basically sick of it all.
Think if Columbus had never ran into America, think if America were still a vast untamed territory (Sadly though, if not Columbus eventually another old world nation would of found it)
The only real escape anymore for many is when you go to sleep at night and dream.
Why can't a hero come alone and rescue me, like on TV, but since I have zero values to others, I'm just left a lone to rot...but if I'm gonna rot, can I at least rot in peace without all the odd noises tonight?