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Sept 20, 2023 4:02:02 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 20, 2023 4:02:02 GMT -5
I'm really not confident about my abilities, going forward in this world, I'm just not fit to be an adult, it's like I'm still living as if a teenager.
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Sept 20, 2023 4:32:07 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 20, 2023 4:32:07 GMT -5
When I can't sleep, I end up creating portrait art like this I mainly use myself in portrait art, why not, I mean I need to live on some way and somehow after I'm gone. Why not use your own body as sculpture.
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Jan 20, 2024 5:09:52 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jan 20, 2024 5:09:52 GMT -5
Came home last night, after work, ate, then fell into like a deep (body speaking = 'We need you to sleep, so can get you out of the way, so we can try to heal') type of sleep.
My medical card expired for my job, and so can't go back to work till get it renewed, which means I'll have about 5 days off...good, if I had a lot of money, not so good when falling behind, but maybe it's happening for a reason?
So many illnesses floating around out there and ect. Either fate is working on our side or against it.
Heck, just watched video of how many Nazis fled to Argentina after WW2, many went on to live better lives than I'm living now, so was fate looking out for Nazis? (or at least some)
The more you learn about the world, and how evil those in power really are, the more you begin to question the whole Western 'good vs evil' biblical narrative.
Heck, even learning how the Roman Catholic church helped shelter and hide many of the Nazi war criminals after the war ended...hmm
My life is so insignificant compared to the life of others...history has zero reasons to remember me.
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Jan 20, 2024 5:14:54 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jan 20, 2024 5:14:54 GMT -5
I'm really not confident about my abilities, going forward in this world, I'm just not fit to be an adult, it's like I'm still living as if a teenager. Ye, with me, seems the further back I go, the more promise my life had. My future was brighter 20 years ago, and further, than it is now...wow
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