Can be having a decent day, and all it takes is one errant or stray thought to hurl you into a depressive state of mind.
Or just hearing something on the news, or getting or even not getting a phone call, whatever it may be, the balance between happy and sad can be ever so thin at times, is why so have to guard ones thoughts as best as one can.
A very depressing day for me, very much so, but I think it's more of a post alcohol fueled type of depression.
Drinking after work, then getting emotionally charged about stuff, real life stuff, social media stuff, it just all added up, to much at once I guess, that whole 'peak' thing, then next day feels like fell off a emotional cliff.
Who hasn't had that effect, but today's effect or 'down', just feels extra deep.
Been lulling around all day, it's cold out, I feel 'stuck', like I haven't the power to effect change in my own life anymore. It's like I just don't have the energy, the drive, to effect positive change, or to move.
When younger, moving wasn't so scary to me, now it's terrifying.
In the past you could start fresh, now days everything follows you around do to internet, last job, and so forth.
And pay is still low in many fields, yet inflation driving the price of everything up, including rent.
I just don't know what to do anymore, don't have the 'love' in my life to motivate me to 'fight' for anything anymore.
I just feel like crap right now, what a waste of a perfectly good day, do to my poor mood, do to how my body feels after drinking yesterday.
Not in pain or anything, rather just feel like spirit, inner spirit, has been sucked out.