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Post by X factor on Nov 27, 2013 20:14:35 GMT -5
 I did some flying yesterday... For most of the flight (2 separate flights)...all you could see was grey clouds...seconds after take off...nothing but clouds...clouds and more clouds...layers and layers of clouds, mounds and mounds of more clouds...you could not see the ground, you could not see the sky, all you could see, out the window, was white, greyish nothing... The clouds were so thick..there was nothing to measure your speed by...no reference to how fast you were going. Nothing but wet, greyish, white clouds for virtually the whole trip...and that was a bummer...cause I was looking forward to looking down at the ground and just taking photos, videos...but nope...all I saw were clouds, fog, nothingness... Except for the last few moments before landing when aircraft dropped below cloud line...and that's when I took the above video... That was the only time you got a sense of speed, and direction...when you could tell you were actually in the air...and not on some Disney land right. I wonder how geese and ducks and other migratory birds, navigate through the clouds? Anyways...the flight stuff was just the first part of me journey for the day...which did not end until some 20 hours later or so... Started in the air, ended with me driving on the ground...and I much prefer the quick air travel... The drive back home was very dark and lonely, and not something I want to do again...it was dark, lonely, and the weather was wet...and I had no idea if I'd make it back. Many people have no idea how remote certain sections of States are, and are only aware of that when driving alone at night, asking yourself 'What if mechanical failure occurs at 2am in the morning, miles away from anything, nothing, just a black sky and terrain'... City people have no idea how dark it can get in the country, expecially on a cloudy, wet night, where all light is buried...as soon as you turn off headlights, it's like being buried in black nothingness... Some find that soothing...just depends on if you live in the area or just passing through... Anyways...I'm back home now...with new set of issues to deal with. |
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Post by X factor on Nov 28, 2013 19:19:21 GMT -5
 Happy Thanksgiving...of course I didn't forget... I'm somewhat of a 'Peanuts' type person...the old comic strip, cartoons...Snoopy and Woodstock always made the best of odd situations... They really never complained...they just always managed to outsmart their environment. One of the best duo's in the history of television is Snoopy and Woodstock. Anyways...like Snoopy and Woodstock...I compromised today...had a delicious meal...but didn't gorge. Turkey legs...only ate one...'cowboy beans'...yum...potato salad, cranberry sauce (just a smiggen)...and instant stuffing...you can't have a Thanksgiving meal without stuffing... And no desert...I'm not a desert person anymore...I can't eat a lot of sweats. What am I thankful for the most today? My health...and the fact that I still know right from wrong. I'm thankful that I still hold strong to principles...that I don't steal, or lie to people or any other stuff on the 10 commandments... Well maybe the Sabbath I don't keep like I should...and the 'idol thing'... And I struggle with 'faith' at times...faith that things will be ok... I think I need to give more thanks and praise to God. On another tip...  Detroit won today, for the first time in 9 years while playing on Thanksgiving Thursday... Cool...if Detroit won the Super bowl I would not be upset...I'd be overjoyed to see a team that has been down for so long, win. Here's a list of certain teams I don't root for, but if they won the Super bowl I'd be glad... 1. Seattle Seahawks 2. Detroit Lions 3. Cowboys 4. Carolina 5. Cardinals 6. Jets 7. Raiders 8. Kansas 9. Tampa 10.Patriots... If any of these teams won...I'd be happy for them. Anyways...just thought I'd say hello on this once a year holiday...they come and go so quick... I think it's time for seconds...and a movie...later... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 1, 2013 16:03:57 GMT -5
Hello... How do I feel today? Very 'blab'... It's not the funnest Sunday I've had lately, that's for sure...I just feel 'blab'... Like waiting for the doom and gloom for tomorrow to arrive...ye I know I know...the day is what you make it. But I really don't need tomorrow to come... I wish man would back off...his deadlines, bills, this whole economic machine, that requires money and labor from you constantly, just gobbles you up if you pause or hesitate for to long. The system demands all your time and attention, energy and resources...and is ruthless if you run out of any of those... The system will steam roll right over you, leave you desolate, if you mess up...  ... There is no love or sympathy in the system...just straight bills, money, and deadlines. Banks are cold, heartless entities...all revenue collectors are. Industry simply harvests the labor class...harvests and then discards. Industry, feeding share holders, the whole system has become like a 'god' or 'The beast'... A fairly new system in mans history. It only makes sense...if, according to scripture, we're living in 'end times'...than it would only make sense that this new world wide economic system is somehow apart of end day prophecy. It's almost like serving a King or something...and the minute you stop you're destroyed. The only break you get, at least some, is the weekends, Sunday...Saturday...when the beast sleeps. It sleeps, but awaits you on Monday... When clocks start ticking again...cold heartless collectors call, fines levied, people punished for being behind on payments, utilities shut off, sentences handed out...all for the sake of money...the new God... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 2, 2013 14:21:09 GMT -5
Hello... my life, schedual, is about to start speeding up again...  Sometimes I'm tempted to open a page up on here...just for visitors to leave comments... But that might knock me off of my game...I am what I am cause I operate in a vacuum, which many have become accustomed to. Not sure if allowing outside influence on this forum would add or take away from it's special feel. But sometimes I'm tempted to...maybe I'll start a poll...where I allow visitors to vote on whether I should open forum up to other influences... I don't know...very hard decision...or just start separate site...but this forum site here just kind of has a unique feel of it's own that you won't find any other place. All that aside...life is about to speed up again for me...maybe...we shall see. Staying busy and active does make you feel better...we need that. Regardless, life is short...life on this earth is short...and buy the time most of us working class poor figure things out...we get sick, old and die off. When you finally learn from all your mistakes, now you're to sick to do anything about it...so all you can do is pass your wisdom along... Don't worry, I'm not at that point yet...but like a ghost or spirit I project my thoughts into the future and past...it's not always about 'now'. Read the bible, or any other 'holy' book...very rarely is it about 'now'. But one thing is for sure...the older I get...the less I realize I am...the older I get, the smaller I feel. The older I get, the more vunerable I feel. The older I get, I start to realize how frail and inadequate I am. And if there's a God or spirit out there...that loves me, us, enough to die on a cross, rise from the dead, and resurrect the repentant righteous one day...who am I to reject that? If God loves me...who am I to reject that love? Man certainly doesn't love me. Man loves my money...man loves my ability to spend money or pay taxes...but aside from spending money, paying taxes, man has very little use for me. If goats could pay taxes and buy things...goats would be elevated to high status in this new world order. So if God loves me...than I guess I love God for loving me...I guess...I don't know. It amazes me how slaves...who were so abused, mistreated, spat on, were still able to believe that God loved them...  People who were mistreated, abused, seemed to have more faith is God back then than those born in luxury today. Black slaves, for 400 years of the most brutal treatment, had more faith in God, Jesus, than someone living in a penthouse today. If they, those slaves from way back then, could get through their hell...I guess I can get through mine... I don't know...everything is relative. And having a strong family structure goes a long way in helping you get through tough times. Today, many don't have that structure... Anyways...let me end this post before I start drifting into other concepts... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 2, 2013 21:56:14 GMT -5
Some people are so beautiful to me...and they don't even know it...
They're just cute, soft and beautiful...not just in looks, but behavior...
And you run into these people randomly in the store, or see them in adds, or on TV or even work with them...
Sometimes the most adoring, most beautiful people don't even realize that they are...
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Post by X factor on Dec 3, 2013 13:29:24 GMT -5
I feel stumped right now...  I'm not smart enough to always make the right decisions. You never know the out come of a decision until you make it. You can make the right decision, and things go wrong, or you can make a bad decision, and things end up going right. There's so many variables...it's almost as if you just gotta be favored by the 'Gods' in order for life to go well for you in this world or realm. Others play with our life and time like their tokens...  Years, health and vitality, are like tokens...we only have so many in us...and when the tokens run out, so do we. The wealthy can accomplish in one day, what might take a poorer person to earn, save up, and buy in 5 years...that's time you never get back, tokens of health and vitality used up. One day you can walk, the next day you can't, do to accident... The labor class has to physically earn every cent of their money...one breaking bone minute at a time. But it takes health and vitality to do that, which everyone has a limited amount of. The investor class, or those who inherited wealth without back breaking work to do so...just have no idea how fortunate they are. They'll blow through $40,000's on a auction to buy some painting, not realizing it takes others a whole lifetime to save $40,000. The Government demands so much of you...taxes, fees, registrations ect...fees are attached to all this stuff. Money you spent back breaking hours trying to earn gobbled up in seconds, swallowed up in seconds, by the Government....gulp! Gone, just like that. When you earn millions, inherit millions, you just don't feel it...but when you're poor, trying to rise up...you feel it hard like led bricks hitting your head.  You feel it big time...the pain, the dangers of laborious work...the hours ect. And told by folks like Limbaugh that you should just labor 18 hours a day to earn your keep...but he couldn't do it. And sorry, but sitting on a stool, while talking into a mic, is not a laborious job. People have back pain, knee issues, labored breathing ect...but told by talk radio hosts 'Oh just go labor for 18 hours a day, and your dreams will come true'... In reality, your dreams, the money you earn, gets gobbled up by the Government and big business. They're one in the same to me...can't separate the two...people who do are dense. Gov and big business are one and the same...appointees from both sides flow back and forth seamlessly. Talk radio hosts, who keep their listeners in the dark, would have you believe big Gov and big Business are two totally separate entities... Talk radio hosts are paid good money to keep their listeners dense. Nursery rhyme type of 'news and information'... Anyhow...life moves on...and money is the 'god' we all serve now. Lets see how it all turns out... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 3, 2013 15:36:15 GMT -5
What is class?  Class is knowing how to act and behave, even when 1 cent away from being broke... Class is not making yourself a burden on others, even when in dire straits... Class is saying 'excuse me' in a grocery store or other public place, if and when you brush to close to someone else. Class is being aware of who's behind you and opening the door for either a male or female... Class is not always whining and complaining about every unfair thing in life, or blaming others for our own fate. Class is wearing a nice pair of shoes to a ball game... Class is still dressing up when you travel...  Class is allowing the elderly or physically disadvantaged to board before you... Class is Jazz... Class is not always having to be right, or get the last word in... Class is being able to sit through an event, for someone elses benefit, even though you don't really want to be there... Class is honoring and respecting elected leaders, even if you did not vote for them or agree with their policies... Class is allowing other cars to merge in front of you without riding their bumper... Class is still respecting people older than yourself...and referencing them as Ma'am or Sir, when appropriate... And finally, at least for this list, class is the ability to be nice and kind to people, induvisuals, that others in society may not think deserve it... The classier you are...the more you will like yourself...later... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 4, 2013 20:33:50 GMT -5
 Today was kind of a sad day for me...it just felt sad...for reasons I'd rather not even write about. But like the self portrait picture above...I just felt all chopped up, spread to thin...overwhelmed by the financial realities of life. Doing things, making decisions, not cause I want to, but cause I have to too survive. Like choosing to stand in a room full of wasps or a room full of scorpions...either way it's painful.  It's the kind of day you just wish a giant comment would strike the earth, and disrupt everything...actually save some people from this prison...this economic prison...where 1-4% are the wardens, and everyone else are prisoners... No one is really born free anymore, not even in America...the minute you're born your tagged...and expected to embrace whatever nation you happen to be born into...no choice. So many are getting tired of Governments...any Government...and just want to be free...not sure if that will ever be possible on earth, as long as man is in charge... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 9, 2013 16:23:24 GMT -5
Hello...this will be a mixed bag post...lot's of little things I want to comment on... First on my mind...and you may find this odd...but is how Ohio State got blown out by Michigan St Spartans...  Coach Urban Meyers worked so hard to get his team to this point...24 straight victories...Ohio State had never lost a game under Urban Meyers...until yesterday...until it mattered. They went 12-0 first year, but do to penalties, Ohio State was ineligible for a bowl appearance... They seemed invincible...to some... But others questioned their schedual...toughness of schedual...accusing them of not playing very tough teams. All that aside...2 years....2 years of winning, no loss...but the one game they had to win...they got destroyed, demolished by the Michigan Spartans...  Michigan St destroyed, ripped apart, Ohio States dreams of a national title...all in one game... 2 years of anticipation, destroyed by the Michigan Spartans in one single hour. Lesson Ohio State needs to learn...schedual tougher teams...step up and play tougher teams on your schedual...like Alabama, Miami of Florida, USC Trojans, Oregon Ducks, Boise State, Wisconsin, Texas...and so on... Quit playing powder puff teams...OK... Anyways...let's move on now... These last few days have been very emotionally up and down...we're not 'Gods'...as such we can't see what the outcome of our efforts are on anything...all we can do is hope our efforts yield good results, hope that nothing major goes wrong to disrupt our efforts...but beyond that all it is is hope. 'Faith' is what takes worrying away... People who have strong faith either in self, or God divine, don't tend to stress as much over outcome. They have faith that the outcome will be as they want it to be, either because God divine loves and cares for them, and wouldn't have it any other way, or they have faith in their own ability to endure, prosper, and shape their future. People who don't have faith in anything tend to worry about everything...and I kind of fell into that trap this past week... I just lost faith in all, and anything, to make anything good happen, as such I expected the worst. I didn't have faith in God, fate, or those around me...as such I was a mess... I have to be honest about this stuff incase others go through same thing, and can maybe learn, or realize they're not alone. But sometimes you just loose faith in everything...and just expect the worst to occur no matter what. Maybe do to past let downs, or maybe do to never counting your blessings and how far you've really come. I know 'God' takes a lot of abuse from people, in their minds...God is always the first being, people lash out at, inside their minds, when things go wrong. Like an imaginary god like, made up, blame everything on, punching bag in our own minds. God and the devil, are probably the two most dramatized characters within our own minds at time. Anyways...let me post this now...my writing mood has kind of changed after phone call from someone...back soon. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 9, 2013 20:58:37 GMT -5
Sometimes just close your eyes...and pretend you're somewhere you really want to be...
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Post by X factor on Dec 11, 2013 18:37:44 GMT -5
That 'relax after you get home zone'... That door way you must walk through, to separate yourself from the busy work day, and enter into your own domain of peace and silence or whatever it is you do that is separate and aside from the grind of work and commerce.  Some use beer or wine to usher in that door way... Some use music, or a shower, or reading scripture, or receiving, giving hugs to family, or hugging pet or pets, or turning on the TV, or writing, watering plants, working on project vehicle, working out and so on. But the door way has to be entered to escape the dry, bland, industrial environment of previous 8-12 hours. Maybe some take a nap, then wake up in the 'OK, I'm off now spirit'. Or play an instrument. Long bath. Some, sadly, come home so tense from work that they can't relax for hours. But in order to get good rest, that separation is necessary. And it may involve several steps, or doorways...or a combo of the above, including eating a good meal. Hopefully it doesn't involve going to a second job. I did that once...worked a part time fast food job after getting off from main job...worst feeling in the world. Being owned twice in the same day just isn't a good feeling. Anyways...now it's my turn to find that doorway to relaxation. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 13, 2013 19:50:31 GMT -5
 Hey, hoa...it's Friday the 13th! Be careful out there tonight... Whether in Montana, or Oregon, Utah or Kansas or Florida or Nevada...enjoy the night, and cuddle up next to someone you love... Ahh go ahead and watch a few horror movies while you're at it...'Severed' is an older forgot zombie movie that is amongst one of the best...but for some reason it's just forgotten...think it was released in 2002. It's worth watching though...if you can buy it, rent it or order it on Netflix... I had it in my stash of movies...and forgot I did. Watched it...and was surprised at how good it was... It's just one of those under the radar, under rated zombie movies you never hear nothing about...and you can see some '28 days later' plot in it...this movie came out first. Anyways...happy Friday the 13th...stay warm, stay safe and stay special...later... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 14, 2013 21:57:24 GMT -5
 I'm so sorry I haven't been more in the holiday spirit...here it is weeks from Christmas...and I haven't decorated any posts with Christmas decals...my bag... Yes...it's the holiday season...and for those who can enjoy and embrace it, please do so...do so for my sake, and others...who maybe cannot. This is a wonderful time of the year...family, gifts, snow, sledding... Cuddle up tonight and be warm. back soon... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 19, 2013 18:51:39 GMT -5
In reference to what that 'Duck Dynasty' guy said on A&E, that got him suspended... I've never watched the show...don't even know how the guy looks like, don't care...we're all entitled to our opinions I suppose. But people gotta realize, business, is not Government. A business can make a decision on who to hire, or fire, soley based on fiscal principle. If a business thinks a persons comment will hurt their bottom line, than that business is free to deal with that person as they see fit. Businesses are ran more like dictatorships. And that's that. Now, as far as this guy from Duck Dynasty quoting scripture about gay men and women not being allowed into the kingdom of heaven...well... I guess if you take the bible literally, than you have no choice but to believe that...and if you trust that the men who wrote the bible were talking, or speaking for, the 'God' who decides those matters. One has to have faith, that those men, of so long ago, who wrote the bible, were indeed speaking for God divine.  At one time, the Klan claimed, and still does claim to speak for, and be a reflection of God, so do Jihadist muslims, so do certain phycopath killers, so does Louis Farrikan (nation of Islam)... History does prove that humans often graft their own biases into the divine. I just don't know...not smart enough to know... I do know and observe that many who are hostile to same sox people, themselves practice and live lifestyles just as offensive to God divine (of the bible). I've seen, heard, observed, people who curse, drink, do drugs, steal, rob, lie, cheat, fornicate, condemn homosoxuality, and quote scripture, yet seem to excuse their own errant ways... Even people who kill other people, murderers...will condemn homosoxuality, yet some how pardon their own misdeeds... Example: 'Well ye, I killed 5 people, but at least I'm not gay'.... Or 'I'm a drug lord kingpin, sell heroin, but at least I'm not gay, even though my drug dealing destroys 100's of lives'... Or 'I lie, cheat, and steal every day, I have dark hate in my heart...but at least I'm not gay'... All the above leads me, at times, to believe people are simply deifying their own biases towards same sox people. It's like one unholy person condemning another unholy person. "Well I steal and rob, and fornicate, but oh my gosh...those gay people...I tell ya'... So I'm led to believe people react to gays or same sox people, more out of their own insecurities and fears, than they do out of genuine divine love and concern...that I do know and observe. Many who condemn homosoxuality, aren't even themselves, 'born again Christians'...so it seems to be a reaction or jolt, that is stirred from another source, other than genuine divine love and concern. A man will condemn homosoxuality, while fornicating all night long with women.... If the man were truly speaking from divine love and concern, why would he then turn around and see nothing wrong with sleeping around with 12 women whom not married to? In other words, many who condemn homosoxualty, are far from saints themselves...and indulge in other sins the 'bible' finds equally as offensive. Which tells me their reaction to homosoxuality is not spiritually based, rather flesh based. Also...Foot fetish...people who are attracted to other peoples feet...where does that come from? No one asks to be born with any fetish...either you have it or you don't... Foot fetish and being gay...is there a connection?As above link says...is there a connection between foot fetish, or other fetishes, and being gay? If one can't help what type of fetish they have, who's to say one can't help what type of person they're attracted to? Again...I don't know...it's up to you to decide and think on your own... Later... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 22, 2013 11:23:53 GMT -5
I have a new opinion about the Duck Dynasty guy, Phil Robertson. After watching this video of him speaking, before he became TV star, my opinion has changed a bit. I listened to video, and could find nothing to be offended about.. But the way the story headline read was as this (link in red) "Duck Dynasty star Phil Robertson anit-gay video emerges..."I listened to his sermon, and found nothing 'anti-gay' about it...no more, no less, than you'll find at any other church on Sunday/Sabbath morning giving a sermon. I actually liked the video, like him as a speaker...he delivers the word of God in an entertaining way. If he is, or was, a part time Pastor, than he's suppose to quote from scripture, that's what religious leaders do. I did here him giving very broad condemnation of immorality...and that's his right. He reminds me more of a old time wise grandfather speaking to you at the dinner table. His sermon, thoughts, lecture, was not cruel or mean...in fact he was far more politically correct, toned down, than publicly aired Rush Limbaugh or Savage or Bortz or Hannity, or any talk radio host. Phil did not politicize his beliefs, the way talk show hosts do. He was neutral in his condemnation of immorality. What I don't like is how now political jackals like Glenn Beck, and Sarah Palin, and Hannity ect, are trying to align themselves with this guy...that's what I don't like. Once Phil Robertson is seen as being apart of the political right, with a political agenda, then his mass appeal will quickly fade. That's what I find tragic, is how now Hannity and Beck will try to politicize Phil, and make it seem like a right vs left type issue...cause that's what talk show hosts do... Talk show hosts aren't in radio for God, or to help anyone, they're in radio to generate ratings and to always paint political pictures over everything under the sun. All that aside...I have no issues with Phil speaking his mind about anything, as long as he doesn't start trying to politicize his view points... |
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