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Post by X factor on Mar 17, 2014 22:17:45 GMT -5
Today was one of those days where I just felt like a tool. A tool that others used to serve their purpose. Like body for rent for others to use. (no, not in that way) Like as far as work, or doing a favor after work, or being somewhere, waiting in lobby (take a number). Today just felt grey. No color.  And no, I did not forget...Happy St Patrick's day! |
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Post by X factor on Mar 18, 2014 16:19:04 GMT -5
How come it seems the only person some types are ever able to make fall for them are those they're not really attracted to? It's a weird dynamic... But it's different, kind of, depending on gender. For instance, some guys, males, always seem to strike out with females who look 'gorgeous' to them, but yet same type attracts females whom don't do much for them physically. And same with some females, seems most gorgeous females always seem to attract males whom they don't really desire physically, and the males they do desire aren't interested in them. It's rare to actually find two '10's' actually attracted to one another. Seems one is always a butch, while the others a butterfly. And seems beautiful woman always settle for males who look like plumbers...  In the end, I think people like 'contrast', in the end, as stuck up as attractive women treat others, they always seem to settle for big hairy plumber sized male, or some other scrub type, and I think it's cause they like the 'contrast'. It almost seems if you're an ugly, rough, unkept male, your more likely to end up marrying a beauty queen, But if your a 'metrosoxual' type male, kept, groomed, intelligent, seems you're more likely to stay single, or or...attract a 'butch' type female, or closet or open gay men, odd....  Butch type females or gay males seem to be attracted to 'cute' males, or handsome males. And cute females seem to be attracted to, end up marrying hairy plumber or truck driver types, with rotting teeth and beards. I think 'The beauty' is more inclined to marry the beast. If you look ugly, or homely as a male, it's as if females think your more likely to love them, and not ever leave (cause where are you going to go). And less than attractive females, tend to have vibrant, grounded personalities, cause they've always had to depend on personality to get by, and not looks. Whatever the phycology behind it all, outside of college or high school, you rarely ever see an attractive male and female paired off...one is always the beast, and the other is the beauty, at least on the surface. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 21, 2014 21:21:15 GMT -5
I think it's hard for some to relax right now cause some feel the tremendous amount of Evil in the air. And no, when I say evil, I'm not referring to self serving political type of evil, where one simply labels their political opponent as 'evil' simply do to party affiliation. Or sports team rivalries, or celeb stuff, none of that. When I say evil, I'm referring to the dark nature which immolates within all living beings, the type of evil and nature that causes people to even 'hurt' those they love, family, friends, co-workers, the type of evil that puts self interest above the needs of others and so on. The type of evil that causes love of Money to make people act in ways they wouldn't if money were not 'god'.One of the most evil things about man, is no one thinks they're capable of it, it's always 'those' people or them or him or her ect. It's never 'me'...'maybe I'm apart of the evil vein that is flowing'. And because no one ever looks at own attitude, and how behavior effects others, the problem just keeps getting bigger and bigger. Like millions of infected people who don't want to admit their infected.  So what do infected people in denial do?, they always team up and go after those who aren't infected yet, or at least not to their degree. It's why the nicest person in the room always gets picked on, the person who smiles the most is always called a 'dork' and so on. The infected always go after the non infected, until they can 'sower' the souls of those who are clean. This can be at a microcosm level, or go all the way up to nature of Governments, and those who run them, regardless of party or nation or ideology. If one cell is inherently evil, building an image or nation State or Government ran by these cells, will make it evil also, regardless of scale. A good person, non infected person, can see how money, power, wealth, position, can make horns grow out of some ones head, totally change their personality ect. Most of the people we hurt, lie on, try to defeat, are those we know, work around, or share families with. It's as if 80% or more of people alive have sold their souls just to be able to step on the person next to them, regardless of relationship. People will under cut you for business, and rather than feel guilty about it, will simply justify it. Again, it's never 'our' fault, it's always the next persons fault, and is why evil just continues to grow and grow and grow, cause no one thinks their bad or apart of the problem of evil. So as such, the infected populations just keeps growing, and instead of changing, seeking help, simply want to infect or effect others with their slanted behavior. It's sad what is occurring all over. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 22, 2014 8:31:21 GMT -5
Sometimes I think most peoples retirement plans will simply be to commit a crime, in old age, and go to jail or prison, where they'll be given own bed, and food.  No bills, a TV, heck even a pet, all while in Prison. Maybe this will become the new trend for those who find themselves broke at 65...just commit a crime in some state like Nebraska or Wyoming, and let the penal system be their retirement plan.. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 23, 2014 3:17:50 GMT -5
 Looking at this image makes me a bit upset, cause to me it's a near perfect visual of what others can do to you when they use you, while suppressing your potential, they leave you in the basement to rot. And throw you down just enough food, compliments to sustain you just a bit longer, for their own purpose, just enough to keep you going, while slowly starving your spirit. This photo so sums up visually what many feel on the inside about their circumstances. It makes me angry, and makes me realize no one or person or business or employer has your best interest, if they're holding you back for their own interest while slowly killing your spirit and future. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 25, 2014 9:36:53 GMT -5
 Shopping Malls I've been reading, hearing, lately of their demise, a new shopping Mall hasn't been built since 2006. Times are changing, people are changing, and technology and social media, Internet, are all but turning Malls obsolete. I was really surprised to find out how far back shoppings malls have been around, like Mid 60's. The town I was raised in was so small that our first Mall didn't come till late, as such I thought they were a new phenomena. Shopping malls seem to have come about during a totally different era and mood in this nation. Nuclear families were the norm, not exception back then. Malls came about when much of the populace dressed up, before going out, Dad put on suit or nice sweater, Mom wore dress, with well dressed hobbits in tow, back when going to a Mall felt more like an event. Then as that generation aged, their hobbits grew up, became teenagers, and Malls became the place to socialize and hang out. Malls were the social media of the 80's and 90's.The Malls are where people went to socialize, meet others, and if in larger area, it's where people from different areas of city could go to gawk over each other and check out trends. Events took place at malls, like bands, break dancing contests, and whatever else was trending at the time.  Malls were still hot trendy places to go all throughout the 80's and late 90's. But once again, that generation of Mall occupiers grew up to, and as their hobbits became of age, the world drastically changed. Internet, online buying, over all social climate begin to alter. Things shifted from Hair band rock to grunge or garage rock, a counter culter begin to emerge, alternative places to hang out sprang up ect. Why go to public arcades when now you could play on PC and connect with others from own PC. And to an older person, going to the mall will remind you of the fact your not in the 10th grade anymore, and will often make you feel like a Dinosaur.  Also many neighborhoods where Malls were built near by, economically collopsed during the mid 80's during drug infestation, families torn apart do to drugs, in cities, and hi divorce rates, elsewhere. Malls suddenly became hang outs for parentless inner city 'toughs' or gangs, or duggies ect. Malls begin loosing the wholesome safe enviornment feel, where Mom, Dad, and hobbits would go to shop, gawk, and have fun. Instead they became places where shady people begin hanging out. And also less than reputable shops replaced national names, brands, most were comfortable with. Some malls became nothing more than urban farmers markets, where bootleg and imitation products were sold. I personally think Malls can still work in many communities if vendors had the confidence to re-open shops. Everythings circular, and as people start becoming more weary of online fraud, there'll once again be a desire to 'go shopping'... And no, not at Walmart, but at a multi-level Mall with different name brand items.  This Mall here is from 1956, I myself had no idea they went back that far. Kind of hard for many to imagine grandparents, or great grandparents, hanging out at a Mall in the 50's and 60's. Continued on next post. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 25, 2014 23:12:58 GMT -5
What happened to men like this?
What has happened to this society?
Back when men, males, were strong, tough, yet kind...if that makes sense...kind and mannerable.
Talk radio hosts are scum cowards, the way they hide behind their microphones.
I miss the days when men were blue collar, worked hard, had decent values, a bit playful at night and on the weekends, yet solid.
Unlike todays bitter filled cowardly talk radio host types.
America use to be such a fun country to live in, politics and political talk shows are undermining the unity all Americans, and people who came here use to have.
I love this video, cause it reminds me of a time when all people use to party together, hang out together, and just have fun, until evil politicians and their talk radio host set to divide everyone.
Cheers to the good ole days when Americans, and even the world, was united, and everyone just wanted to prosper and do well without blaming others for their losses or failures.
Back when men, all men, had manners, yet were stern.
A bi-gone era that I doubt will ever come back, but that can be seen and experienced in this video....
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Post by X factor on Mar 26, 2014 8:28:24 GMT -5
Nothing inspiring in the news or media this morning (if ever). AM radio channels are saturated with angry P-Obama bashing talk radio hosts, and Sports shows, hosts, who have their own zaney personalities, and lots of Hispanic music, can also be found on AM radio channels, and of course radio church broadcasts, from inner city gospel shows, choirs, to blue grass orientated Christian broadcasts. And FM radio just feels plastic to me. I've never been a FM type, all the DJ's sound glossy and music played rarely matches current mood. I have cable now, but rarely watch that either, I've been without TV for years, and now that I have it again, if anything it seems to slow me down, not use to just sitting and watching characters on screen unless it's compelling. Even with DVD's I pause often, to do other things, or never finish whole movie in one sitting. Real life is so different that radio or tv. And the morning 'ride to work' AM news shows are so repetitive 'weather and traffic updates every 10 minutes here on WBOR'... And 'Breaking News' is always some over night homicide or other tragedy. It's why I just stay in at night now, I never, or rarely, go to corner stores at night I'm unfarmiluar with. Or where lots of people inside standing in line. Sometimes it seems the past is the only place I can go for inspiration, and even then only fragmented parts of the past. Church was like a drug, when I use to go long ago, cause you always focused on the 'future', and the better world God was going to usher in, so you always glowed in your own bubble of belief that 'Jesus' was going to make everything alright and come back and save you.  |
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Post by X factor on Mar 28, 2014 10:20:55 GMT -5
Not much going on at the moment. Sometimes the best way to get the thoughts rolling is to write. Right now I'm not looking forward, not really planning anything. I've just given myself about a week off or so, from forward financial thinking. Like a miniature Sabbatical. In todays low income, high stressed world, you're often robbed of the ability to just enjoy what you have, while you have it, do to the uncertainty of loosing it all at any minute if you slip up. And this idea that you can't really slow down, and enjoy things, until you're practically dead of old age, really sucks. It's a stressful system, so much so it has created a whole criminal class. I mean why do people steal?, so they can aquire stuff, and the stuff they aquire they then trade for money. And what do thieves use that money for?, they use it to pay rent, to buy a car, to pay for medical bills, to buy food ect. Thieves use the money they aquire to buy the exact same things everyone else does. (with the exception of drug addicts)(who simply use stolen money or goods to feed drug addiction). I mean once a criminal pretty much always a criminal...cause once you get a record who's going to hire you? Expecially in this day and age of extensive background checks, just to get hired at McDonalds. So once you have a record, who's going to hire you?, yet you still have to eat, or take care of family if you have one. Still have to pay rent ect. So now the penal system releases all these people with 'records' back into society, who can't get jobs, can't get apartment, house, so what does society expect them to do? And the very people who say or yell 'Get a job', themselves would never hire the very people they yell that too. This rush to incarcerate everyone, and charge everyone with a crime or misdermeanor (however it's spelled) has created lots of issues in cities, and even rural areas. Inner city police love to arrest every black male they see walking, and then wonder why a few years later same black males can't find work. I mean now days even getting a traffic ticket disqualifies you from many jobs. With computers now deciding who gets hired for what, if you don't have perfect civic record, good luck getting hired anywhere, at least anywhere meaningful. Which again, leads people to 'lie'. This system produces many thieves and liars, and many do so in order to survive the absurdity of it all. I mean to me if you want a job, that should be reason enough to get it, instead applying for jobs can be one of the most humiliating processes you go through. People who don't feel your immediate needs or urgency sitting on their butts telling you 'We'll call you in two weeks'...not realizing that two weeks to you is the difference between life or death. It's brutal, the system is brutal when on the outside trying to get in. But through it all, many still do manage to stay clean and honest, and as a result often get tore up, abused, and taken advantage of by extreme criminals, and extreme bureaucracies. Honest clean people are caught in the middle, and taken advantage of, stomped on, by all and both sides, always only a week or two ahead of totally destruction and financial ruin, but told by the system 'Way to go boy/gal, keep up the good work'... The honest are exploited by both the criminals, the dishonest, and the bureaucracy they, we, live in. We're expected to be the sacrificial lamb of both sides.  Sacrifice our labor, time, joy, happiness, simply to feed others. Until old and withered, useless to everyone, even useless to self. When you're old and withered, then people want to hear your story...it's just sick how that works. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 1, 2014 10:58:14 GMT -5
Why do some people, particularly maybe older relatives, seem to only call or inform you on things when 'some things wrong with someone else'...
But when some things wrong with you, it's as if you and your issues don't exist.
Life don't work like that.
You can't ignore someone for years, not be concerned with them, and then just call up one day and participate in a normal conversation with them.
It just don' work that way.
As if you're obligated to care and be concerned abut others, but no one could care the less about you.
And the only time they might call is when they need you to 'fix' an issue.
And no matter what you say, they're going to disagree anyhow, so what's the point?
I was pretty much raised separate and apart from all but a few of my relatives, all but a few.
The older aging types never reached out to me years ago, so what makes them think I owe them anything?
Loyalty has to be cultivated...it's not something that's automatic.
I can't look back and say this person or that person helped me...I just can't.
It's just not there.
People leaving money to these people to those people....than dm*t, it's the people you leave money with are the ones you need to call and burden, not me.
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Post by X factor on Apr 3, 2014 0:03:32 GMT -5
Nothing of interest on the radio, nothing of interest on TV, everything seems plastic to me right now. All commercials seem fake, the people in them seem fake, TV smiles and personalities just don't seem to exist in the real world. All the 'awkward' moments that would occur in real life are simply edited out of TV shows and commercials, unless put in for humor. Movies are a bit different in that movies, at least good ones, do try to mimic real life, and the ugly moods most encounter. Right now, as I sit here, I'm unmotivated, it's still, it's quiet, and that's really all I want, like being retired I suppose, but I'm no where near that time period. And that's what is gloomy about just working regular jobs, the idea of having to work at a place you don't like, don't get enjoyment from for decades, or until you die, just seems gloomy. People who have wonderful careers are very fortunate, or investor types who make their living trading stock ect. After a while, there just is nothing fun about waking up everyday knowing you're laboring just enough to barely be above broke, after all bills are paid. It's just not inspiring, unless you have other things to distract you, like a loving family, wife, Ducklings, hobbies, sport competitions, anything to keep your mind off of work, until you get there. And I think that's what gets most people by, is the 'other' stuff they got going on, fishing, hunting, camping, dating, whatever it may be. But when you have nothing else going on, yuk...  |
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Post by X factor on Apr 5, 2014 18:35:31 GMT -5
 I really have no more use for TV anymore. I've gone years without it, and only got cable to lower bill, but now that I have it again, it's a waste of my time...here's why. 1. All the shows, movies, I want to view I'm not subscribed to channels. 2. Half the channels I do get are nothing more than infomercials. 3. The movies they play on channels I get are years old, sometimes decades old, I've just gotten use to going to store, pawn shops, or ordering DVD movies, series, I want to see, and enjoy that much better than waiting for random movie you may or may not like to appear on cable channels. And when I out right buy older movies, series, no commercials...that's the best part of it, and I can pause, clip out frames ect. 4. People on screen, local news channels, no longer impress me, they just remind me of the ordinary people I work around or see every day, simply with more make up on. When I was younger, if anyone appeared on TV they were 'special' to me, magic, different, not anymore. Now to me they're just average people earning a living like everyone else. People who will never ever help you at anything. People who will let you starve, die ect. People on TV just no longer impress me. Now every now and then a good themed movie or series will, where they deal with real life issues, and have actors good enough to pull it off...but the people themselves don't impress me at all. TV is slow and boring to me now...I do still like the older programming, but can't really get on my service, so I find it more fulfilling to simply order whole series on line on DVD, where you can order all of year 1 or 2 of whatever series you're into, without all the BS distractions of cable programming, like commercials, where everyone acts so fake. Television programing is just not for me anymore. If I want old classics like 'Leave it to Beaver' or 'Brady Bunch' or 'Twilight Zone', or 'Sanford and Son' or 'Sopranos' or any other TV series, I can just order the DVD's and have the whole collection in my place, to watch anytime I feel like it. Cable TV is over rated just like health Insurance is. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 6, 2014 18:05:23 GMT -5
Nothing to pressing going on, just got down running around rec area park. I was getting restless and bored about certain things. I need a action job, position, where being physically fit is an asset to job. Like rescue worker or something.  A job based on performance, acuteness and physical drive. A job, career, where you don't even worry about your pay, cause you're having so much fun with it. Where you're working around, living around, the best of the best, people whom are motivated, have drive. Or even being an athlete would be fun. Where I stay right now, sometimes when driving around, the people I see all look so 'shot', burned out, over weight, disabled, old and frail, or young and dumb (ghetto) with blank, empty, ghetto street look on face. Society really is segregated amongst high performers, and those who are just alive. From a 1-10 the general quality of people I stay around is about a 4. I throw education in there, ethics, morals, health, church, family and marriage. Lump it all together, shake it up and I get a 4. Just not a very inspiring environment. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 8, 2014 8:47:01 GMT -5
Some of us are still inherently tribal in that we don't want to know everything, in that we still enjoy the mysteries of life, and even the weather, in that when we wake up to the sound of rain, don't like turning on radio and being told 'when rains going to end', when it will heat up. Even how we're allowed to think is controlled in the modern environment. Some one in the media always telling you that what you believe isn't true, doesn't exist, constantly trying to strip the mind of it's spiritual nature and turn us into nothing but societal droids who's only purpose is to buy and consume things from the market. Where all our amazement is suppose to come from mans endeavors instead of natures wonders. The ultimate nightmarish product of such a society is what occurs to people living in totally urbanized public housing... A totally reconditioning of the mind, sense of self, and purpose. Of all peoples on the planet, native Africans were amongst the closest to the land, their land, herbal remedies, ancient traditions, could cook, family orientated, patriarch in nature. Now you look at what comes out of the projects, and all you see is a generic culture, programmed to be 'nothing'. To embrace all and everything artificial in nature. A people once so close to the land, would now be lost and helpless on same land if swept out into the wilderness. And now the powers that be are inadvertently trying to create the rest of society in that image of nothing. The people who live in urban public housing are but an extreme, but I see it elsewhere too. I see it amongst the privileged class, people, women, who only get by cause of what money is able to buy, and not do to personal wit. Having lots of money allows you to get by while being totally stupid. People don't realize it but this is not a very healthy society, we just pretend to be. It's actually hard to find any healthy society anymore, anywhere around the world, where all societies have given into the money god. Massive pools of wealth, and massive pools of poverty can all be attributed to the money god. And the most violent societies are those where you have the extreme rich and extreme poor living together. Even the leader of North Korean is in power, holds power, do to the money god, cause it's his wealth that allows him, that family, to buy arms, pay for security forces, to bribe people to stay loyal to him so that he can then turn around and deny people under him the right to be or think free. If Kim Jung Ill went broke tomorrow, ran out of money, his power would be gone within weeks. Without money everyone is equal, literally. Cause without money you can't buy loyalty, can't by 'barriers' to separate you from others. Without money, all you have is your character...and that is key to this whole post. The money god has substituted 'character' with 'cash'. You don't need character anymore, all you need is 'cash', and you can see this mindset taking over with each subsequent generation being born into the money god era. Again, the extreme of this can be seen in urban housing, but has now spread elsewhere. In the past, ones personality was kind of their currency, now days not so. Now days you can have a personality as ugly as a warthog, and as long as you have cash, still get what you want. And is why so many who worship money, totally lack personality, whether in urban housing or living behind affluent gated community, it's the same result. The money god has turned many people into ugly goblins and it's only getting worse, until one day nature resets itself. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 9, 2014 7:55:52 GMT -5
Sometimes I think there is no hope anymore, instead there's only a constant need for Money. |
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