X factors blog and journal...

Love this song...these older, soft soul songs from the 80's.

Males back then still had class..

Love those in your life while you can, call your parents, say something nice, that's all God asks of you.

You, we, can't control much else outside of that...all we can really control is our own behavior and how we treat others.

Rich or poor, every one still has the ability to Love.

In the end we'll all be judged on our own behavior, not others.

So go love and be kind to someone today, and let the chips fall where they may.

How odd is this, Rhino and Hippo flirting with one another, to different species flirting...

The TV Show 'In the Heat of the Night', is quickly becoming my favorite TV show.

I love it actually, but when it aired live, I detested it, but now that it plays in re-runs, I love it.

I think it's one of the best Cop TV shows ever, it's smooth like jazz.

I think it took me a while to get over Carrol O'Conners former role as Archie Bunker, but now I think his role as Police Chief in 'The heat of the night' is almost more defining.

I just don't like a few of the cast, that seem 'forced'..

Like the young, square, dull looking blck cop, could they not have found someone better looking, with more 'character' to their face.

I find his presence on the screen to be very annoying, same with the younger AA female they 'forced' into that role.
It just seems forced...the lady only stood like 5 feet, and didn't seem like a cop...it's as if they forced her character onto the show.

She seemed more like a security guard than a cop.

But other than those two annoying cast members I'm really enjoying this TV show.

Now the AA detective guy, I like him, he fits his role very well. So it's not about color to me, it's about 'fit', and the two younger AA officers just don't 'fit' that role very well, at least not to me.

Not do to their ethnicity, but other traits.

I've been around real cops, and they just don't act or behave like the two AA officers in the TV show...they seem more like geeks, like the guy should of been a Winn-Dixie manager instead or something.

One thing I don't like about the movie is how they cast AA's...the women they cast are always of that old south, 'OX', maid type of appearance.

Other than the detectives wife, who was very light skinned and 'soxy'.

But the other black women they cast in the TV show are always older ladies who look as though they spent their lives eating lard.
Heavy set and slow.

And it's sad that all the major stars of that movie are deceased.

What a great show though, each episode was very well written.

I was watching various artist on youtube, some passed away, a few are still here.

But like ones who past away in their prime, full of so much energy and pazzaz like Tupac, and certain other Comedians...(the big guy from 'Black Sheep' the movie.

I sometimes wonder if they were still alive, years past their prime, would they still have that passion?

I think if you're successful, the passion is always there, as evident with artist who are still performing in their 70's like 'The Rolling Stones'.

So I think as long as you're successful at what you do, the passion stays with you, cause if you're successful that means you're doing what you love and what you're good at.

I think the passion for life, the zeal, the believe that you matter, can make a difference, goes away when you get bogged down in mundane day to day life, work, that totally takes you in another direction than you wanted to go, or where your talents truly lie.

You've got to be very careful whenever you get into a Hair cutting mood.

I mean very very careful.

It takes months, even years, for hair to grow out long, but only takes 30 seconds or less to chop it all off, do to erratic mood swing.

You can cut away, off, hair growth that took years to grow, in seconds...get temporary satisfaction, and then an hour later regret it.

Also, the older you get the slower hair grows. Cutting hair at 15 isn't the same as cutting off hair at 35 or 55.

Right after you cut hair off, it always feels liberating and you feel clean, like you just shed a bunch of burden away.

But then when your real personality comes back, and you want to hide behind your hair, you can't, instead you need a hat.

One thing I like about hair is it helps you to 'hide' in a way.

When you're bald, or have very short hair, you can't hide.

Lots of hair kind of serves the same purpose as shades, it helps you to kind of hide.

I think I'd rather have hair, and not want it, than want it, and not have it.

Hair can be like a toy, when you have lots of it, you can play with it, do different things with it, give yourself different looks.

But without it you're just kind of plain and 'as is'...which is fine for many, and maybe most...who make up for short hair by having other features that stand out, like a nice body, or good job, or high social status or nice car ect.

Most people get that urge to cut hair off during the summer heat.



Expecially if you live in humid area, with heat and humidity, a lot of hair can seem like wearing mop on head that doesn't want to co-operate.

And it can be easy to get in mood that makes you just want to chop it all off, and start all over again.

Me, myself, I have mixed feelings about it.

My hair represents rebellion to me, non conformity.

Sometimes I cut the sides, then sometimes want to keep going to aquire that Mohawk look.

But then days or weeks later you start messing with hair again until eventually it's all either off, or you have self looking like normal geek again.

And then you're like 'Good heavens, what have I done?'

Then it seems like for 3 months or longer, hair doesn't grow at all, like super reverse slow motion or something.

The longer some ones hair, the more mysterious they seem to me.

But long beards turn me off...I do not understand beards at all.

To me you grow a long beard when old and about to die or something.

Anyways...be careful with those clippers, and that mood.

Don't cut off what will take years to grow back, unless you really want to make a life change.

Dear Lord, I'm no politician, but I do pray that these immigrant hobbits being tossed around from nation to nation, abandoned by parents, rejected by new land, I do hope that you'll take care of them, give them strength to over come this period of their life.

I use to find a lot more comfort in writing and blogging than I do now, at least as of lately.

It's not as much of an escape as it use to be.

Not as 'magical' as it once was or felt.

Writing use to help me to keep things in perspective.

Almost like being you're own phycologist.

But now, as of lately, it just feels like writing hard thoughts down on a bland piece of paper.

That, and maybe the bland environment I'm apart of has made me a bit more dull than I use to be.

There's really no interesting people to write about in my immediate environment.

They are some of the most dull, needy, corrupt, people I've ever been around in my life for this long a period.

For my own mental health and outlook, I need to thrust myself in a healthier environment soon.
But that's always easier said than done.

And seems with all the world connected by media now, no matter where you go conflicts, perceptions, are already there before you arrive.

In a way, social media, including TV, are a curse, and help spread bad stuff, as well as good stuff.

Hateful people can now spread their messages to the most remote places on Earth or in a nation.

Now youth can copy trends that they'd other wise never know about.

Now you have people in small towns trying to act, dress, behave all 'gangsta' cause it's what trends on videos and social media.

Bad habits and ways are being copycatted every where now.

As such it's getting harder and harder to find places to go where people there are just 'nice', and don't prejudge you based on images or trends in the media, be it social or poltical or visual.

Anyways, time to get up and out for a bit.

Change will come sooner or later, for the better or worse, either way I look forward to being able to write about it.