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Post by X factor on Sept 12, 2014 6:14:22 GMT -5
I don't like weather reports I don't like weather reports, I don't like always having every square inch of life mapped out ahead of time. The best years of my life were when mystery was abound. The less mystery, the more dry and mundane life seems to become. Nor do I need or want generic 'scientist' always explaining things to me, as if I can't figure stuff out on my own. More and more the roles of common people seems to simply be that of consumer, and nothing else. The media tells you want to think about, what to worry about, what stories you should be concerned with. Yet when you dream at night, your own thoughts have nothing to do with what you hear on news radio or TV. It's all so controlled. I prefer mystery and folklore over this new We control what you think and see' societal reality.
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Post by X factor on Sept 12, 2014 22:29:55 GMT -5
Watching 'The Shining' right now.  One of the best horror movies ever. And oddly reflects real life better than the news. Most people are phyco...and abuse those they love. Funny how when you're declared a 'script writer', you can write about very dark realities all in the name of 'screen plays' ect ect. But if you, as an individual share such thoughts, red flags go up. Life on earth is very inconsistent... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 14, 2014 2:29:39 GMT -5
I just had to turn off all media, radio, TV, all I kept seeing were commercials.  Buy this, buy that, this sales pitch, that sales pitch, radio adds, TV adds, the adds were airing longer than the radio show I was listening to. None of it was feeding me anything helpful...just adds, and more adds, as if my only role in life is to buy products. There's something hideous behind it all that I'm not properly able to relay here. Something creepy about it all. There is no more wisdom, just adds. It all feels so empty, no food for thought anymore, just adds, buy this, wouldn't you look good driving this, or wearing that, or eating these. A steady diet of electronic nothing. |
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Post by X factor on Sept 16, 2014 20:03:24 GMT -5
Tonight is really dragging on, in my mind it feels 3 hours later than it really is.
If I lay down now, I know I'll wake up at around 2-3 am and just role and think in the dark, reflect on dreams.
Speaking of dreams.
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Post by X factor on Sept 17, 2014 19:12:13 GMT -5
I want to learn Spanish
I want to learn Spanish...I really do, so many people I work around speak Spanish, and I feel like a dunce for not understanding what they're saying to me.
And I'm sorry, but the new world reality is that you need to at least know 2 languages in order to get buy and create new opportunities for self.
This is something I should of done long ago.
This is a language I must learn, as painful as it may be at first.
But like I said, it just seems more and more of my co-workers are becoming Spanish...and they like me, but I have a hard time understanding them.
Some people know and can speak 3-7 languages, so I know it can be done, not to mention the excitement of just meeting someone new, an instructor willing to come to you and teach you their lesson plan, force you to speak their language.
I need this, I need new stimulation.
I need new energy, new life.
Last year during new years eve...I made a list of things I would do...and I've barely lived up to any of them.
Life only continues to be exiting if you're willing to grow and adapt to new challenges, and I must.
For if you do not, the brain becomes small and petrified, stiff, and kind of useless to new fresh things and concepts.
Anyways, we're going to meet first, me and instructor, to see if their plan even fits what I want.
If it does...I'll dedicate myself to this new class until I can speak, and understand Spanish, South American Spanish, not Spain Spanish.
Most in America speak South American Spanish, not European Spanish from Spain.
Funny how many forget that Spanish is originally a 'white' European language.
Anyways...all that aside...I hope I'm up to this new challenge, I think it will do wonders for me, my confidence, and my social outreach... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 18, 2014 23:32:21 GMT -5
Why some villains are appealing and others are notI notice in more and more movies, I find myself questioning who is actually better, the hero or the villain. And secretly find myself wanting the so called villain to prevail. I think some times hero's have come to represent 'The system' to many. Hero's, as portrayed in movies and TV, always seem to be those totally loyal to the system, no matter how corrupt or flawed. And it's usually the villain that has a different vision in mind, that's always stopped by the so called hero. Usually villain's people don't like don't look like humans, or aren't human at all, as in bacteria ect. Some villains I myself did not like in movies were 'Invasion of the Body' snatchers, do to the deceptive way they took over our bodies. In other words the villain or villains in Invasion of the body snatchers could not be reasoned with, had no personalities, and seemed to invade your own personal body. That's a villain I think most probably would not like.  And they cloned you while you slept, during most vunerable time. And they indiscriminately went after everyone, regardless of color or age or gender or orientation or culture. So in this film, it's hard to feel the 'villain' is speaking for you, when clearly you mean nothing to them accept another body to invade. That type of villain works. I want to continue on with this topic at a later date, why some villains are appealing and others are not.
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Post by X factor on Sept 20, 2014 5:38:09 GMT -5
Following own advice can be the hardest and scariest thing to do at timesIt's so easy to give advice, good advice, tough advice, but following own advice can be scary at times, especially when money, time and risks are involved. Anything that requires money is a risk, cause money is really the only life line we have in this world, other than physical health. As far as the world is concerned, when you're broke, you may as well be dead.  When you're broke it's as if you're dead to others, and dead to self, and all means of helping self are gone. As such money is a significant life line, so anything that involves lots of money (which is a relative term), can be scary, whether advice is sound or not. Giving other people advice involves no risk, giving self advice does. And do to elevated status of money in this current configuration of the world, it encourages scrupulous behavior in many. It makes venders, sales people, people who work at shops, try to convince you need stuff, items, service, that you may not need. People without a conscious have the ability to drain you of your resources, and they won't feel bad about it at all. And the 'moment' can be very scary also. Doing something 'now' that will possible benefit you down the road can be scary, when it involves money. Cause 'later down the road' isn't here yet, there's no garuntee you'll earn the money back, lot's of things could occur that could prevent that. And it's that fear, that uncertainty of tomorrow, that makes many hold onto money tightly, and also what prevents some from moving forward. No classes, no repairs, no additions to home, no investment in personal business ect. Feeling safe 'now' is a very good feelingThe world indeed is a scary very uncertain place.
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Post by X factor on Sept 22, 2014 6:52:51 GMT -5
Odd, but last night, and this early morning I feel so comforted by the dark.
As I lay in bed, under coverings, I felt safe and shielded from 'today', as long as it remained dark, still and quiet.
'The day' has become synonymous with industry, slave wages, bills, just the whole system of expanding energy yet not really getting nowhere.
Man has managed to turn the day into a conveyor belt of mindless labor and consumerism.
As long as it remained dark, I felt safe, all was so still and quiet, with the fan blowing in the background.
Now that today is here...I just don't know.
Don't feel so comforted and safe anymore.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2014 18:51:47 GMT -5
Drag me to HellWhat a classic horror movie, and probably one I've watched more than any other ever in life.  The movie, the way it's written, produced and directed, just captures like 4 generations of horror movies all put into one. From Innocent yet goofy victim, which could be any of us, to Maliekal intruding villain spirit which seeks to wreak havoc on your life do to one moral mistake made in the past. Obviously there's far worse people on this planet that these spirits could of gone after, but instead they choose a blonde haired loan officer at a bank simply cause a gypsy lady she upset set a curse on her. For some reason this movie is totally relatable to myself and or others in that it seems some of us are persecuted our whole lives do to one tiny mistake or error made in the past. Anyways...love this movie for many reasons. I've yet to see part 2, which I hear they've come out with many years ago, but something tells me it in no way lives up to the cult appeal of the first.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2014 19:21:52 GMT -5
Now for some reason I've stumbled upon the movie 'Big Mamma part 2'...interesting... FBI agent who dresses up as female made...kind of funny.  |
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Post by X factor on Sept 27, 2014 12:29:27 GMT -5
This is the Twylightzone Mansion.  when you come here, you turn into a ghost, who roams the vast halls here, and help keep it alive. |
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Post by X factor on Sept 27, 2014 15:46:31 GMT -5
Roseanne Show 1988-1997 For some reason, this is yet another older TV show I'm suddenly getting into, and finding meaning in, but during it's hey day I hated it, would always instantly turn channel, yet now I like it and see how brilliant of a show it was at dealing with certain middle American family themes. Now, for some reason, I can totally relate to it, the hardships, the working hard and getting no where theme, the working hard, being poor, yet still sticking by values theme. I suppose I missed out on a lot of good shows back in the day, but back then I was different, thought I was clever or something, and saw no value in ordinary mundane life or people I thought were such, now I see those people as being the total backbone and brace of all nations. Ordinary, mundane, yet moral people are what allow countries, nations, to exist.
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Post by X factor on Sept 28, 2014 9:07:18 GMT -5
Hello
The Zone sometimes does have to operate in a vacuum in order to create it's own atmosphere and reading environment.
Like a quiet library of thought.
Back when libraries were grand, and museum like, and where volumes and volumes of books and information was stored, back when people dressed up to go to libraries, when they indeed were special places to visit.
Well the Zone is kind of like that now.
It's quiet and still, yet full of all sorts of information, emotions, thoughts, ideas, and opinions.
And it works cause there is no conflict.
No conflict, just flow.
It's fueled by your own thoughts, passions and emotions...yes you.
You have energy and presence, like a ghost, or electricity, which can be felt and read and then expressed in words.
The Zone or Twylightzone, is like no other place on the web.
It's small, quiet, and less than .000001% of worlds population knows about it.
Which is good.
Only a few select souls are led here, and will ever grace it's corridors.
Life is energy, and if you have energy you can be read.
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Post by X factor on Sept 30, 2014 17:05:16 GMT -5
I've deliberately stopped tuning in the news lately, just get so tired of same news stories, and a over saturation of ISIS coverage, and such. On right leaning radio it's always the same 'Obama baaaad baaaad baaaad', and on CNN and other channels it's always 'ISSIS is baaaad, baaad baaad baaad'...yawn. It's just like a carousel of the same news stories repeated over and over again.  Everyone in the media being paid to do what they do, and that is get you interested in their topics, programming by hyper inflating it's value or impact to you....in other words exaggerate.It's all actually kind of like a circus when you think of it. Where certain people behind dark curtain, side shows, profit off of other peoples fears. My life is better when I just shut it all off and concentrate on the beauty and joy right in front of me, my own porch, the river, the trees, the birds. I don't need CNN or Fox or bloated TALK RADIO HOSTS telling me what to fear, and whom to like or not like. They're all multi millionaires, yet profit by keeping their listeners in a constant state of anger and depression. When you step back you see how evil it all is, but if seduced by it, you won't see it at all. Anyways...later, time to chill and just enjoy place and view. |
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Post by X factor on Oct 1, 2014 8:31:52 GMT -5
 Happy October! October has always been my favorite month. I don't and can't experience it like I use to, or would like to, but it's still my favorite month of the year. Where I stay now, people don't really get into festivities of the Month. The people are bland here, dull minds, very colonial, primitive and basic. Nothing but filthy urban rap, outside of that no imagination, creativity, festivity, as if just stuck in basic survival mode. That mentality grosses me out, and I'm glad I wasn't raised in area like this where most folks are stripped down to basic animalistic survival mode. All that aside, where I come from October was a much celebrated Month, Halloween and all, the fall, the cool weather moving in, the feeling of wanting to get cozy inside with someone. The feeling of mystery, monsters, ghosts, I loved it all and still do.  |
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