X factors blog and journal...

Having a cabbage weekend, went out an brought some green and red or purple cabbage and now eating..yum.

Cabbage has never tasted so good to me until now.



Cabbage holds flavor really well.

Also watching and just bought 'Paranormal Activity 3'...one of the best in the series, in my opinion.

Not sure why celebrities, people on TV and cops are worshipped at death, funerals, yet other common, yet impactful citizens are not.

Anyways...wanna watch this movie, may review it later.

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Those who have read this blog for a while know that 'Drag me to Hell' use to be the most watched scary movie on here.
And tonight, after not watching it for a few months, well, watching it again, just can't seem to get enough of this movie, and the ladies bad luck that seems to plague many.

A common good lady who unfortunately makes a gypsy lady mad, then gypsy lady places curse on lady.

At times, when own life examined, seems like many have had curses placed on life.

Good decent people, yet bad things always seem to occur.

Anyways, back to movie.

I remember how exciting the internet was when it first came out, or at least when social media began taking off, long before twitter and face book.

I remember how thrilled people were to interact instantly with someone from across country or world, or even across town or city.

You had all kinds of cheaply put together forums, some even allowed you to interact with 'voice'.

I remember you'd record what you wanted to say, then hit 'send', but these were like live stream type of forums which were open and vunerabe to all kinds of attacks.

Now that thrill is about all but gone for most.

Now it's as if most want privacy again, and or that early crowd of users has matured greatly since then.

And now celeb worship has taken over social sites, and brand name products.

At first what made social media so fun for many was that you were talking or exchanging ideas with common people like yourself, but then somewhere along the way sites begin to make money by pitching adds, allowing add banners, which paid more to webmaster the more hits site got or members, which then made some places start creating fake members to justify add fees.

And it gets much more complicated than that.

Bottom line(in this meaningless post)

Bottom line is that once profit became the main motive of social media, that was the beginning of the end of the personal interaction era of the web.

I can even remember back when you could sign up to any site or news comment section, without leaving your email...now that's a must.

Now it's as if FB and twitter and other such places are all locked in together.

It's why they often say 'sign in with your facebook account' ect.

I tried FB a few times, but it seemed meaningless to me and is why I prefer this place.

I mean it may seem lonely here, but it's really not in that I get to share all I would on FB, without all the 3rd party intrusion.

On FB you're linked in with a whole lot of people you may not want to be linked in with...like billions.

Like an open phone line or something, and in this day and age I would never be comfortable with that.

It's like building a home 50 feet above the ground in a crowd verses building a home 200 feet below ground, as in this place here.

And besides in order for those other sites to really work for you, you have to be very socially active, have lots of friends who actually care about what you say and think and share.

Those social sites are useless if you like have no friends, no one to interact with, then all you have is a big fancy home page.

It scares me to think that at one time I actually wanted to be popular online, and the things I'd do to get views ect.

I look back and am like 'What the h=ll was I thinking?'...

But none the less it was a phase I went through, wanting to be seen in all my artistic capabilities.

I use to share colorful portraits of self all the time, now I hardly do anymore at all.

I realize now that looking good, being soxy, cute, attractive, whatever, is basically a meaningless gesture when being that way or appearing that way to strangers.

I also realized it's not how soxy and or attractive you think you are that gets you ahead, rather it's being soxy and attractive around the right person or people with power to promote your talent, is what gets you ahead, is what gives you those breaks you need, is what creates those opportunities for you.

Being soxy and attractive in a room full of old hairy cheating on their wives type of men/closet gays/gawkers, won't get you far, but being soxy and attractive around someone or people connected with theatrical productions, or who knows producers at major studio, well now you're being soxy and attractive around types that can actually market your abilities in a productive manner.

But being soxy and attractive online, with no recognizable identity is like putting on a show for a bunch of drunks and degenerate types in a back alley.



Theatrically or metaphorically dancing in front of pigs and hogs won't ever get you very far.

And if and when a you do get the attention of a pig or hog, when they discover you, all they'll want to do is cover you in mud, both before and after biting you.

Anyways, had no idea would end up writing this much in post, kind of got more interesting towards the end.

Suffering from night after going out, in down mood.

I had lots of fun last night, quirky as it was, it was fun, just being out around others and talking in a club like setting.

For an evening, or just a few hours to just step out of usual role, and walk into another of your making, can be a wonderful experience.

I hardly ever go out anymore, but probably should.

Gotta be careful though these days not to wear out your welcome at any one place.

So now I sit here, really can't sleep, keep thinking about yesterday night, and what a contrast today and this evening have been.

If I were wealthy and rich, I think I'd throw ball room sized parties all the time, just to not feel lonely I suppose, like what Gatsby did in that movie, always throwing parties in that big elaborate mansion of his, to fill a hole I guess.

And I like going out alone cause it forces you to mingle with others.

Not only that, but where I'm at now, don't know anyone cool enough worth going out with, socially normal enough.

And most are married, in relationship, have hobbits ect, so their idea of going out is different than mine.

Anyways I had fun last night, I go out alone and always come home alone...I go out to just socially mingle and that's it.

Now the mundaneness of the week is starting to set in on my mood.

Yesterday night I had dozens of people I could and did talk with while listening to music, tonight just the opposite, just silence.

I like silence, but also like feeling loved and appreciated like most others.

And some can be real sour no matter what setting they're in, avoid types like that.

Not sure when I'm going out again, need to get one of those 'event' flyers and see what's going on around town, the city, and just randomly pick some place to go to.

Not really into concerts are going places where celebrities are the main attraction....don't like being made to feel small like that.
I go out to mingle with common people whom I find way more interesting than celebrities who will never ever be there for you, and whom you can never become friends with, you just see them for one evening, then they're gone forever from your life.

Celebrities aren't interested in calling you, seeing if you're alright, or going camping, they just want your money, and they're gone.

Anyways I had fun last night, glad I went out.

Nothing to get the heart pumping like a giant mad acting moth flying around in kitchen.

Got it bottled now and will release outside here soon...

The gears of life just keep moving on, forward



The gears of life just keep moving on and forward, that can be good when trying to get away from a negative or embarrassing situation, and it can be bad if in a moment or place that is very pleasant, and do to time, that moment and or place eventually erodes.

The forward movement of time eventually erodes everything, time is like a mouth, it eventually eats all, consumes everything.

Yep, it's that day, for those it effects.

But sadly many relate to Valentines day more like this...



The day simply comes and goes, like any other for many.