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Post by X factor on Apr 29, 2015 19:28:34 GMT -5
 Off switch I just turned all media off, as in TV and radio. Just felt I had to for a while. There's a lot going on out there, or so the media would like for you to believe. Actually nothings going on, but media blows up a few stories and makes it seem as if 1 or 2 events effect everyone, when it really doesn't. Go to some small farm town in Nebraska right now and what do you think is going on there?  Absolutely nothing. Everything is still, the way it should be, was meant to be, before industrialization took over the nation and world. And the above photo of small town and tracks is how I want to feel on the inside right now, and so I shut the media off for a while. When media starts training you what to focus on, that's a form of control. Focusing on negative media driven hype is good for whom? Not me, that's for sure, all it does is take up valuable time and energy worrying, getting worked up over stuff most have no control over. I use to want to change the world, now I just want to retreat from it.Yep, now I just want to retreat from it all, for real. But sadly in todays world environment even that's tricky. The Government, any Government, really just doesn't want people retreating from society anymore, the Government needs 'you' as a resource, to generate taxes, pay fines, fees, and any other way your life health and energy can be used for it's gain. But me, myself and I, just want to be left a lone now, I've really seen enough, and unless destined by fate, there's really no one or nothing to impress anymore. God, or the God of fate, really has to place you in the right spot, right event, at the exact right time for it to be 'your time', if not the wheels just spin and you go nowhere, regardless of efforts.  I know that's counter to what most say, believe. I use to think energy and effort alone were enough to propel you to 'great' status, or make your dreams come true. But it's really not without a host of other things being in place. It's as if fate has already decided what it wants to do with you or us. So sometimes I'm content and just retreat into own little world, retreat within walls where I can control what happens. And that's when I just turn everything off, and pretend I'm the only one left on the planet. When I do that I really don't feel like I'm missing out on anything, and feel more like a gerbil in a cage, totally content with what's right there in front of me.  |
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Post by X factor on Apr 30, 2015 18:49:56 GMT -5
Once again media switch off tonight It worked last night, in that I found a bit of peace by just turning all the media hype off. The media focuses on the worst of human behavior for ratings sake, not cause they care, but for ratings, money, revenue. The media focuses on the most negative aspects of life in order to lure viewers in.  Once the media lures viewers in, then they begin to control viewers mood, and then begin to alter viewers perspective of reality, the world around them. It's a trap that I don't feel like falling for right now. I know what's important and what matters and don't need the media leading me this way or that way simply for ratings. The media includes all FCC broadcasts whether radio or TV news or commentary hosts...it's all the same. Let them all scream at each other, I want no part of it right now. Right now I just want to be that Gerbil in the cage, content with what's right in front of me.  Like the Gerbil in the cage, I have my own life to manage, let alone 30 million other lives and souls to manage. Tonight, like last night, I'm a Gerbil in own habitat, happy and content.
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Post by X factor on May 2, 2015 13:03:38 GMT -5
Sometimes one needs to 'wake up' from dormant work week activitiesWhen most think of waking up, they think of waking up from a dream, but sometimes one can wake up from a out of sync reality as well. And that's what weekends can be for many. (or any block of time away from work or other mundane activity) Some jobs really do turn one into a mindless bio bot, where same orders, activities, are followed over and over again to where one looses own sense of self, and instead become like a mindless worker ant.  To work like this really requires one to loose self and go into a different level on consciousness in order to counter act the natural creative side of being a human. And if stuffed inside some production warehouse or factory or any other job where you're not allowed any input, a part of your creative side, a part of 'self' has to become dormant in order to endure it...otherwise you'd escape. It's the natural inclination of all life to want to be free. Jobs, low paying repetitive jobs, which allow no creative outlet, basically put you to sleep, and it is only when one escapes such an environment do they begin to wake up again.
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Post by X factor on May 3, 2015 23:59:20 GMT -5
 This is what Monday feels like to me right now, an approaching ghoul. Or better yet Monday represents the whole graveyard to me, and the ghoul represents negative energies tomorrow will bring, that could be anything. The ghouls could represent any of the following 1. Just time taking it's toll on thy body, wear and tear, one step closer to demise. 2. Grouchy or ugly personalities that will be encountered throughout the day, from people with road rage to rude cashiers to neighbor that plays music way to loud ect. 3. People plotting rotten stuff in the shadows.. 4. The whole automated industrial complex waking up tomorrow, bills being sent, deadlines, demands made on people that are unpleasant and that go against nature. Whatever happened to the concept of life like the hobbits lived in the movie 'Lord of the Rings'; where they stayed and lived peacefully in their 'shire'.  All these hobbits had to do was wake up and tend to their own little gardens. There was really no collective society where you had to work for a wage and earn just enough to stay poor. They just lived, and grew own food, using own resources. No one hoarded wealth, and made other hobbits labor to maintain wealth for a few in some central location. As such stress on the hobbits was very low. Why can man just be left alone as well, to do their own thing. The hobbits built their own homes, helped each other build their own homes and that was it, they didn't buy homes and then speand 3/4's of their life or more slaving away to pay home off. That's yogarted, but most see it as normal. Lots of things are yogarted in todays world, but most have been conditioned to see it as normal. |
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Post by X factor on May 5, 2015 18:26:51 GMT -5
I can only dedicate so much time to sterile activity Time goes by so fast during the day, and at times you have to balance earning a living with things that must be done. When off work, the last place one wants to spend their time is in a 'sterile' environment. Some examples of sterile environment would include. 1. Doctors waiting room 2. Dentist waiting room 3. Mechanic waiting room while they work on vehicle 4. Tax collector waiting room 5. DMV (Dept of drivers license) waiting room 6. IRS waiting room 7. Social security waiting room Just to name a few. Waiting, in any room, just eats up hours of your time where your not earning money, not having fun, not getting anything done, all you're doing is waiting. Like this evening, there was a shop that stayed open till like 11 pm, but the last thing I felt like doing after work is going to some sterile environment and waiting around for hours doing nothing in a sterile environment. Sterile in that your value is zero, you become a generic figure while waiting...no one knows you, cares what you have to say, or what you're about. It's like for 1-4 hours of wait time you're nothing. Not only that but nothing gets done. But either way I have to sacrifice at least 2-4 hours of my time, I could of done it tonight when off work, or during the day, which cuts into my pay. Mechanic shops are so dry, so barron. Either way I'll have to sacrifice the time. Maybe I'll do it in the morning and just get it out the way, but will still loose pay if I do so. Cause you can't work and get something repaired at the same time, at least I can't. Waiting rooms suck. 
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Post by X factor on May 18, 2015 21:26:09 GMT -5
 True peace is just being left alone. Not being forced to endlessly labor for the system knowing ahead of time it's all rigged, so you're really just spinning wheels for nothing. |
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Post by X factor on May 30, 2015 8:43:58 GMT -5
Watching others advance while you sit still and do nothing can have a deadening effect on the soul
Watching others advance, while you sit still and do nothing can have a deadening effect on the soul after a while.
Wasting countless hours online, instead of going out and making real things happen in the brick and mortar world, can also have a deadening affect on the soul after a while.
Whoever, whatever, created us distilled in us a never ending need to move forward and advance in life, when stop moving for to long, you become unhappy...and a lot of bad things will begin to catch you, mainly your own thoughts.
You begin to realize that life will pass you by, and so will others, if you don't keep on advancing, and that no one is interested in helping you at all, most could care the less if you spent rest of life rotting in a wooden crate, as long as you don't bother them, and or as long as you buy from them.
Don't be fooled, the only value you have to others is the money in your wallet or purse.
Nor do people care about your dreams until they see you fulfilling them.
Yes, moving forward can be scary, especially when there's doubt, financial doubt, but I've also noticed when people move forward, doubt or no doubt, doors and opportunities seem to open out of nowhere.
But if you sit still in life, keep giving self reasons to fail, than you just sink further and further into the mud.
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Post by X factor on Jun 1, 2015 7:17:30 GMT -5
Grace under fire You'll never be able to please the world. You just can't please that which is flawed. So just be yourself, accept whom you are, and always move forward. Grace under fire...
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Post by X factor on Jun 5, 2015 17:33:51 GMT -5
Never follow, run away from, anyone who only wants to lecture you about 'How to be successful'. Such types are fake, or rather could really care the less about your well being. Someone who is successful, if they really want you to be successful also, they won't lecture you, rather they'll simply hire you and put you in position of high income...period, end of story.  |
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Post by X factor on Jun 6, 2015 8:41:38 GMT -5
I feel sorry for Bruce Jenner
I feel sorry for Bruce Jenner and sad at the fact he's been butchered by practitioners of sox change operations.
I feel like he has been taken advantage of.
I don't think one has to butcher their genatiles to feel more or less feminine.
Nor do I think caking piles of make-up on ones face is what being a woman is about.
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Post by X factor on Jun 13, 2015 14:10:45 GMT -5
It's Saturday, and I'm really out of it, don't feel like answering phone or getting up and doing anything. Just out of it, spent, just want to lay on couch and basically do nothing. Maybe it's the 'Sabbath' effect where in the bible God says rest on the Sabbath, recover your mind and senses. Cause I sure feel like resting today, just laying around inside and doing nothing.  |
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Post by X factor on Jun 13, 2015 16:41:42 GMT -5
I've been ignoring the phone today. Seems people only call when they're ready for something. Only call when you can serve them in some capacity. Ignore you for weeks, months, even years...then call and expect you to still be emotionally invested or even care what's going on with whomever. People require maintenance just like machines, you can't ignore a machine for weeks, years, and then just turn key and expect it to run or respond as normal.  If you fail to keep someone in your life lubricated with Love and affection, interest and concern, then their emotions become like these gears to you, they will not turn, not without a lot of work and repair. People can ignore everything you're going through for months, years, then out of the blue expect you to, or are surprised when they call and unload stuff on you that you could really care the less about cause interests has to be a two way energy stream. Right now, at least today, at this moment, I just want to be left alone. Seems I'm only useful when people want a powerful emotional response to confirm their own notions on situations. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 16, 2015 6:49:41 GMT -5
How mundane labor jobs steal the talent of the giftedIf one is gifted intellectually with thought, but has to wake up and be hurled away to some service orientated job, from standing all to grinding metal to changing oil, one will never see their full potential. Creative people have moments in the day, usually early morning, were they're calm and thoughts are clear. Then are hurled away to some mundane job where they're around mundane people performing mundane tasks, where thoughts of brilliance run through mind. But instead of acting on thoughts, two busy hammering nail or waiting on costumers, or digging a ditch. By the time one gets home, to exhausted to do anything but collapse. Those who are able to act on their gifts have the time to. Colleges and Universities provide such an enviorment for many, where they can expand on their thoughts and publish their thoughts, and get funding for their ideas. Funding that a person just working a regular ground and pound job cannot get. Banks don't lend money to you for ideas, but Universities do, in that it's apart of tuition ect. Sad that so many great minds, brilliant minds, daily waste away doing mundane jobs all over this nation, where the thoughts and imaginative ideas eventually become as dull and mundane as job person is working. 
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Post by X factor on Jun 19, 2015 5:54:43 GMT -5
It's almost best to stay away from social media right now, to include radio talk shows and cable shows, where many peoples comments seem as ugly or uglier than event that happened.
Seems events like this either bring out the best or nastiest in folks.
I don't feel like being sucked into any of it.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2015 18:38:33 GMT -5
Hasn't been the most happiest or exiting weekend for thyself. Kind of a dud actually. Dreams are the most exiting things that occurred. Everything starts seeming like a circle after a while. News shows have own exact same panel of experts on every issues, as if the same 5-6 experts speak for millions. It's the same news loop over and over again, makes no sense. Every things just seeming more and more like a loop. Same violence on the weekend, in the headlines. No one can catch these mysterious gunmen running around urban areas that wreak havoc on people like demons from hell. To be born so soulless that by age 15 running around shooting people. It's as if a massive flood, extinction sized flood is do soon or something.  But now since man has nuclear power plants every where, not even sure if massive tidal waves could reset everything. Nuclear power plants will always have to be maintained by someone, even long after nation it's in falls. If ancient Rome had had nuclear power plants, we today would have to still be maintaining them. So this generation of scientist have really burdened future societies with nuclear fussion or fission. So even if man is eradicated from Earth, the nuclear power plants will be left behind and explode and contaminate the rest of nature. What a selfish gift to leave behind. Invent something that takes 20,000 years to cool down or decontaminate, if that, maybe longer, and assume future generations will even be around to manage them. And if one lives in the cities right now, down trodden areas, one is already going through a zombie apacolypes, with mindless criminals running around. How much longer will God, or the Gods and the creator or creators allow this to go on? |
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