I haven't really been posting in this section much lately...my mood just hasn't brought me here much over the last few months.
Lot's of changes...not really positive ones, just lateral ones...not all change takes you upward.
Some time 'change' is simply stepping from one room into another.
Same dimensions, just maybe a different color or something.
Ahh...late summer, fall Harvest...oh how I kind of miss the sounds and smell of wheat and barely, and crop dusters, and fertilizer...and cool, late night summer walks through peaceful, calm, non violent country roads...
Where there was absolutely no crime at all...where the criminal class, impoverished class, did not dwell, generational poverty and crime class just did not dwell where I was brought up...
Looking back, I realize now I really took that area for granted...I thought the world at large, would be so much better, brighter, offer so much more opportunity.
I was both right and wrong.
I was wrong in that life is nothing, about meaningless, unless you're achieving things around, to, and for, people you care about, who care about you, and whom you have history with.
Going off to some strange place, expecting to capture that 'home' feeling...just doesn't always happens.
Just depends...depends on what you're leaving for, the kind of job you have, and other factors.
Some jobs, by nature, are very 'social'...like executive jobs, where people socialize and hang out after work, party together, inter marry and so on...
Other more basic jobs, like cashiering or janitor work...no social bonds are hardly ever formed with co-workers...
And it depends on your ethnicity, to an extent.
Some communities, no matter how much like them you are, just won't embrace you unless you have their same DNA.
Like a 'white' person going to Indonesia (Asia) trying to fit in.
Looking back...I wish I had never left that area now.
I wish I had never come to the SE, and discovered a whole class of citizens I only thought existed in text books.
It has kind of tard my view of the world now.
I've learned indeed, the world is an ugly place, that people harbor ugly thoughts and ideas about others.
And today, with mass media, and talk radio, and internet, hateful induvisuals with racial and or political or Religious biases, are able to magnify their voices and influence others.
So there's really no 'safe little corner' to go hide in anymore, do to mass media.
No matter where you go, someone will be bias against you based on perceived affiliation with this or that ideology.
No matter where you go, someone will want to label you a 'Right wing nut' or a 'left wing lunatic'...
Or if you're black or person of color, people will think you're lazy and don't work and do drugs.
If you're Hispanic, some might think you're here illegally...
And if you're of Middle Eastern decent, others might think you've moved to their community to start a secret Jihad...
On and on and on...
Who ever, or whatever you, we, are, it's just getting harder and harder to find peace amongst 'men'.
You always get dragged into other peoples conflicts one way or another, expecially around election time.
The most simplest times seemed to be from like 1973-1990...
Things were still simple then...I guess.
The racially charged 60's were gone...and it just seemed like new era of possibility for all.
Now I'm not sure what age we live in, or how to define the mood...'dark'?, uncertain?, scary?
Then again, how one defines 'today' kind of totally depends on where they're at as an induvisual in life.
Whether they have achieved what they wanted to or not.
Income...
If one is living a charmed wealthy life, in a mansion...
And off spring are protected from the brutality of life...then of course one will have a whole different perspective on things...totally different.
Life will seem good, and plentiful, and do to riches, all things will seem possible, and plausible.
So 'outlook' is a very customized thing.
If one has amassed great wealth, then of course they see possibility and potential in tomorrow.
Wealth is like a magic wand...just touch, just say, and it is yours...
Just wish, and it comes true...
The wealthy don't even have to pray for anything...if they want something, they just buy it...
Unless the mind goes, and becomes afflicted...to be continued...