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Post by X factor on Sept 22, 2020 13:46:13 GMT -5
What stupid and jaded types fail to understand about me is that I'm 'clean' What others fail to understand about me is that 'I'm clean'...goofy at times, yes, playful, yes, innocent towards certain dark intent others have, yes, but all that aside, I'm clean. But I realize that doesn't matter, the more I live, experience, I realize now it doesn't matter how clean you are or think you are if everyone you encounter is 'dirty'. Cause dirty people simply measure you be 'their own thoughts', or 'What they'd do' type of reasoning. I'm finding that out and it's odd and disappointing. I run adds, to take a scientific vacation, expenses on me...Now I mean that, no hidden intent. But instead get 'back alley' responses. No, I'm literal...if I want sleazy stuff I'll say that, people don't get that about me. I'm literal. If I say I want companion to explore desert with and study nature, that's what I mean!! But sick minded people just figure I must be speaking in 'code', and really want something else....no, I don't, and if did would simply say so.....what's so hard about that, I wonder? It's why I mystify people so much, cause unlike them, I'm actually 'clean'. But they, stupid types, immoral types, spend all their time trying to prove that I'm not. And when find out they're wrong, they run...rather than admit they were wrong. What does that say about human nature??? __________________________________________ Do I sometimes lust?...of course I do, as long as wrapped in flesh who doesn't lust at times or have 'body types' in others that arouse. Do I act on that lust?, obviously not or would be married or paired by now. Humans are very small to me, I mean everyone, even you reading this are so tiny to me, the more I learn.
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Post by X factor on Oct 2, 2020 13:37:50 GMT -5
Hey, it's October, and almost Halloween, ye baby!! This guy is good, he's a guitar instructor. You know folks, it's so sad that sites like twitter and FB have become what they are now, and that is so very controlling of what people can express...in the past they took a 'stand off approach', and just provided a platform for others to communicate, but now, my gosh, now, today, in 2020, now they feel they must babysit each and every post, correct, block if moderator doesn't agree with them, cancel accounts and more....social media has turned into like Cuba under Castro!! As such, I suspect forums like this one here will start making a very fast come back, cause before social media there was forums like this one, like 'City-Data' and others. Anyways, all that being said, happy October and soon it will be Halloween, can't wait! Although I'm like Halloween year round. 
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Post by X factor on Oct 3, 2020 8:44:00 GMT -5
A fun light hearted Para show, and why many still enjoy Halloween  Paranormal Halloween Podcast Also hear how media is shrinking all of our worlds into echo chambers. Fun stuff for these odd times, old time radio theater.
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Post by X factor on Oct 6, 2020 22:19:15 GMT -5
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Post by X factor on Oct 9, 2020 17:09:16 GMT -5
A bad environment can literally kill youBe aware that a bad environment can, and will, eventually kill you...it will kill your spirit first, then body. Don't matter if it's a bad work environment or social environment same results in the end, your destruction. Everyone carries certain energies with them, everyone projects certain energies, either these energies are positive and constructive or dark and negative. The people in your environment will have a big effect on you. It's why you really have to be careful about what community you choose to live in, to settle in, cause the people around you, their attitudes, their behavior, their outlook on life, their morality, will really have an effect on your over all mental, spiritual and physical health. Cause once planted...  The people you live around will effect your over all growth and prosperity. We are social creatures, as such we feed off the energy of those around us...and if that energy is good, we grow and prosper, but if that energy is bad, we wither. Make sure the people you plant yourself next to aren't monsters...  Make sure the people you plant yourself next to are 'whole'...employed. Married, stable, and not in financial need, have traditional ways and values about them. Stay away from any areas where the sole source of peoples income is Government aid. Stay away from areas where all the mothers are single, and where 'Dad' has no influence on family. Stay away from areas where youth sag their pants, where there's litter, or graffiti on walls and sidewalks. Stay away from areas where there's a lot of barking dogs, dogs that bark all night long. Stay away from areas where there's a lot of train tracks and crossings, the sound of train horns will drive you insane after a while...  The best areas to live, as you age, get older, are areas away from major cities, areas located in mid-west states, smaller rural farm towns. Although that sounds boring as hell to some, you'll at least get peace and quiet at night, and find out that the people there, although not 'trendy', are very solid, full of life, and can show you how to have fun. Urban Government welfare types are void of culture and purpose in life...living around such types is like living around zombies...alive but dead. No dreams, no hopes, just the same destructive social cycles repeated over and over again. I'm qualified to make such a comment as I have lived in both rural communities, farm communities, and I've lived, dwelt, in the most darkest of inner city hood areas. And by far, the rural, farm communities are a much more healthier place to live and or raise a family...or even small college towns.  (Clarkston, WA)No freagin ghettos, no bums, no gangs, no graffiti, no crime, no section 8 housing, people still marry, buy homes, work, family takes care of family instead of Government taking care of single women. People still have social values...these small towns are like Heaven, compared to urban areas full of drugs, pimps and crime and all sorts of other mess. I'm not saying people in small towns are 'saints' cause they're not...I am saying however, that people in small towns know how to behave. They may, can, get wild and crazy inside of home, or at bar, but the next day, they're at work, working at the mill. In small towns, you have more accountability. And even if a minority or black or Asian, you will find life in a small rural area to be rich and joyful and safe, if and while raising family. Once community embraces you, you become like family to them, and they stop seeing your color, and instead just notice your personality, or any other wonderful positive traits you have. I've lived in both large cities, and small town rural areas, and I can honestly say I prefer the small town rural areas. The only problem can sometimes be finding work...and is why if you plan on moving to small town, you have to plan in advance and make sure you have employment when you get there...unless fiscally independent. If you're a trucker, or earn money online, or just wealthy, or an investor, than you can pretty much live anywhere, irregardless of local job market. Or if you're innovative, and have own business. Anyways, long post...time to wrap it up. A blast from the past post above. Wow, way back in like 2014...wow. And still so true, a bad environment can and will kill you over time, kill your spirit, it's why I still need to get up and out of where I am. I want to move to a place where there's no such thing as 'thugs'. I want to move to a place where families are intact, and feel safe and secure. A place where the cops are fair, nice and reasonable and listen to all sides before jumping to conclusion based on their inherited lust. A place where section 8 housing doesn't exist, either you thrive, pay your way, or get on your way. A place where color is simply a spectrum in the rainbow. A place of decency, where art and theater allowed to thrive. Does such a place even exist anymore??? I don't know. If I had 20 acres of land, it would. |
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Post by X factor on Oct 11, 2020 7:14:51 GMT -5
 You've got to be very careful whenever you get into a Hair cutting mood.I mean very very careful. It takes months, even years, for hair to grow out long, but only takes 30 seconds or less to chop it all off, do to erratic mood swing. You can cut away, off, hair growth that took years to grow, in seconds...get temporary satisfaction, and then an hour later regret it. Also, the older you get the slower hair grows. Cutting hair at 15 isn't the same as cutting off hair at 35 or 55. Right after you cut hair off, it always feels liberating and you feel clean, like you just shed a bunch of burden away. But then when your real personality comes back, and you want to hide behind your hair, you can't, instead you need a hat. One thing I like about hair is it helps you to 'hide' in a way. When you're bald, or have very short hair, you can't hide. Lots of hair kind of serves the same purpose as shades, it helps you to kind of hide. I think I'd rather have hair, and not want it, than want it, and not have it. Hair can be like a toy, when you have lots of it, you can play with it, do different things with it, give yourself different looks. But without it you're just kind of plain and 'as is'...which is fine for many, and maybe most...who make up for short hair by having other features that stand out, like a nice body, or good job, or high social status or nice car ect. Most people get that urge to cut hair off during the summer heat.  Expecially if you live in humid area, with heat and humidity, a lot of hair can seem like wearing mop on head that doesn't want to co-operate. And it can be easy to get in mood that makes you just want to chop it all off, and start all over again. Me, myself, I have mixed feelings about it. My hair represents rebellion to me, non conformity. Sometimes I cut the sides, then sometimes want to keep going to aquire that Mohawk look. But then days or weeks later you start messing with hair again until eventually it's all either off, or you have self looking like normal geek again. And then you're like 'Good heavens, what have I done?' Then it seems like for 3 months or longer, hair doesn't grow at all, like super reverse slow motion or something. The longer some ones hair, the more mysterious they seem to me. But long beards turn me off...I do not understand beards at all. To me you grow a long beard when old and about to die or something. Anyways...be careful with those clippers, and that mood. Don't cut off what will take years to grow back, unless you really want to make a life change. The above is from 2014, 6 years ago, and I still feel that way at times, felt that way this morning returning home from job. It just seems when at work, I look my worst, I take on a or that 'dead tone' look, that nothing look, hair falls flat, seems dead, makes you just want to cut it all off or something. But then as soon as get home, face, hair, body, mind, mood, everything just seems to transform again and you go back to looking 'good' or 'decent'., but at work just end up looking flat and bland by the time shift is over. Maybe it's mental, but it's also physical... Anyways, got home, looked in the mirror, and suddenly I looked human again, looked decent, so hair stays. |
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Post by X factor on Oct 13, 2020 3:45:48 GMT -5
Time to shutter down for a while  Time to shutter down for a while, that's cowboy talk, or 'shut'er' down. It's been years since I've been to Montana, I can remember driving through that state and at times feeling like I was the only one on the whole planet, most people in the East can't begin to understand that kind of remoteness....I miss it, and wish I could head back out there while still young and healthy enough to even care. But the sad thing is, is a lot of people are fleeing New York, San Francisco, ect, and heading to these hardy, common sense remote areas and states, and then bringing all the same voting habits with them that made the states they're fleeing from such hell h=les. When younger, wouldn't think twice about just up and moving, leaving, on a whim, just a suite case and 200 bucks and old junker car...in those days you could do that, not now you can't. Back then could run from your past, not now you can't...back then could get an apartment in 1 day, just fill out paper application and be done with it, not now you can't. Greed and technology in a way has just made life more stressful. Greed and technology are only good for ya if rich and never make any mistakes in life. Anyways, like I said, time to shut'r down, been a long day, day ending better than it started. Feel like watching a scary movie, it's almost Halloween for crying out loud.
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Post by X factor on Oct 28, 2020 8:16:21 GMT -5
This song has been in my mind for years, for some reason...'So Tired', by Ozzy Osborne
I mean of all songs, this one plays in the back of my mind a lot.
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Post by X factor on Oct 28, 2020 8:23:19 GMT -5
This song has been in my mind for years, for some reason...'So Tired', by Ozzy Osborne I mean of all songs, this one plays in the back of my mind a lot. Ozzy, with that 1980's styled hair cut and fluffy blonde hair, looks like a gal I once had a crush on years ago. |
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Post by X factor on Oct 28, 2020 8:32:09 GMT -5
Even though its a softer song of theirs, in that video you can still see how on the edge 'crazy' his is, or liked to be.
The thing is, everyone has a bit of craziness in them, or maybe a lot, but most are unable to capitalize on that craziness.
Ozzy, what a man, what a legend of Rock, England's hard rock scene.
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Post by X factor on Oct 28, 2020 8:37:14 GMT -5
This song here put Ozzy on the map 'Iran Man', long before the comic book movie, Ozzy was the 'Occult Iran Man'
Ozzy, 'Black Sabbath', totally took rock to a underground 'Occult', dark magic type of level at the time..the albums parents didn't want their hobbits bringing home type of stuff.
Ozzy will forever be the gatekeeper to that brand of metal.
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Post by X factor on Oct 31, 2020 12:14:12 GMT -5
Happy Halloween from the Zone!  'Trick or Alpo, which is it Mister?!" Oh what a year it's been.
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Post by X factor on Nov 8, 2020 2:53:55 GMT -5
A message to 'ProBoards'Some of us are still alive and safe only because of you!  Hated by the world, but allowed to live, and express, here on 'Proboards', or 'The 9', as I just learned. No matter, the 'Zone' is very loyal, and 'the 9' have allowed the Zone to just 'be' which = peace to me, us, them, and whomever. If reading this, please do support 'The 9'...they don't know me, and I don't know them. But if Proboards were a product, I'd rate it a 10, or 5 stars out of 5 stars, why?, cause they leave you the hell alone, as long as your a decent soul. The Zone has been here since 2013!! History folks, not some one and done post, that's history, different Presidents, hurricanes, and more. Deaths, births, and more. Innocent twitter vs demonic partisan twitter and more, the Zone has been here through it all. Donate to this forum folks, or people or aliens or whomever, donate to themThey deserve it, big time they do. (This doesn't feel like 'me' right now') The 9...I like that. 9 people or souls who have allowed 9 million dreams to come true. Prophecy here 'When twitter falls, and crumbles, when FB implodes, Proboards will still be here And with that back to normal Zone stuff. I big hug and shout out though to 'The 9'...how cool..very cool...
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Post by X factor on Nov 8, 2020 2:58:52 GMT -5
I hate when some say 'Our rights come from God'...that's not true.
Our rights come from other people, not from 'God'.
If our rights come from 'God', than how come so many in North Korea right now don't have rights?
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Post by X factor on Nov 8, 2020 3:04:13 GMT -5
I'm a loyal fool, and if the '9' need my support in the future, I'll be here within my capacity to support... Hell, I could raise a jam filled army for 'The 9' if wanted to. Nah, they'll be OK, they have each other. I'm in awe right now, people who are humble awe me, us, them, whomever. |
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