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Post by X factor on Aug 24, 2013 22:13:56 GMT -5
Hello Feeling very 'blah' tonight... When you stop exercising you loose energy. There's so many things you must do to stay healthy...gotta eat right, exercise above and beyond just daily activity stuff. Can't drink excessively , can't smoke, or chew tobacco, can't eat a lot of sweats, on and on. Staying healthy and fit requires a lot of things strung together...even your mental health effects your physical health. Cause as the mind goes, so does the body. And when you're out of shape, that first exercise session can be so drab, and feel so useless. Cause in order to see, feel, results, you have to string together at least 4-7 sessions. Like jogging or biking or aerobics and so forth. Unless you're an athlete, it can be hard to push yourself to want to exercise daily...even twice a day. Actually exercising should be done 3 times a day, like meals...but who wants to do that?...  But if you don't, your body will begin to break down, minimize, then your stamina begins to wane, you start eating more, gain weight...next thing you know you have diabetes. The last thing anyone wants is diabetes...but we do it to ourselves... diabetes.webmd.com/diabetes-warning-signsAnyways...time for bed now, drowsiness is kicking in..  |
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Post by X factor on Aug 25, 2013 11:32:18 GMT -5
Hi... I went out today, and while out, inside of store...I met someone who actually had a free Government phone... I always thought those in talk radio were hobbitding about people having free Government phones...  For those curious, it was an older 'wht' male in their 60's who was down on their luck, I guess... But here's what they didn't know...even though phone is free, and maybe first few minutes, there after you have to pay for the minutes yourself..and are still charged 'overage' fees... So this old, down on his luck, man, was trying to see how they could get minutes renewed 'for free'... The phone store he was waiting to go into hadn't opened yet, so he came over to store I was in just to 'shoot the breeze'... He was basically a homeless street person... But I felt sorry for them and found them outside and gave them $10.00 bucks...  They didn't ask for it, I just gave it to them. It's more fun giving people money when they don't ask for it. Cause when they ask for money, it makes you feel like you're being shwindled...when they don't ask, and you give cause you want to...it just feels better, and to me means more. Anyways all that aside... I went out looking for certain items...and it was a waste of time. Shopping is a pain now...cause stores never seem to have what you want. In my case I was looking for a digital camera..a small one...one made by Kodak...  Kodak makes the best cameras out there...believe me I know...Kodak cameras are far superior to Sony and Nikon... Anyways...places are starting to phase camera sales out, do to I phone technology. Since phones are all in one, a lot of other products sales are suffering... I mean with a cell phone you can do everything...shoot video, take photos, send photos instantly, gps on and on. And I wanted to get some shoes, but when pulled up to shoe store...loiterers were all out in front of store... So I basically wasted time...ordering online is more efficient... When you order online, you get product you want...and don't have to wonder from store to store asking dense employees if they carry this or that product. Not all retail employees are 'dense', but some are so anti-social, anti-customer service, you just wonder how they ever got hired, and why they even want to work there. Anyways...that's been my morning adventure so far... |
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Post by X factor on Aug 28, 2013 19:36:16 GMT -5
 Hello, and welcome to the Palace...a place with many rooms...where some say ghosts roam, but what do they know. All that aside...I'm about to settle into the evening. But at times, I do relate to this place as a Palace...a Resort of sorts, for those who just want to listen, and at times see 'self' reflected in thought. As your ghost, I mean host...I have no real need for interaction. For in order to write I have to 'hear'...and in order to 'hear'...it has to be quiet... And with that, I must be on my way. Just thought I'd drop in to say hello real quick... |
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Post by X factor on Aug 29, 2013 17:57:17 GMT -5
You know you want to take off your shoes and smack your bare soles on the marble floors, while exploring...  Smackity smack smack smack... Feel free to explore and smack your bare soles on the marble floors...why not. |
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Post by X factor on Aug 30, 2013 22:50:22 GMT -5
Hello...
Not much going on at the moment, kind of bored actually.
To late to get into anything.
So I sit, listen, and enjoy the quietness.
Each President, after this one, will have a harder and harder job, as country becomes more and more divided.
If 'Jesus' were President, at best he'd have a 40% approval rating amongst the masses.
And if 'Jesus' came back, I think only about 20% of 'Christians' would even follow him.
We have so 'recreated' Jesus in our on political and physical and cultural image that unless Jesus came back to serve 'our' own interest, most would reject him, just like the Pharisees and Sadducees did of his time.
Sadly, no one wants to serve Jesus anymore, more like people want Jesus to serve them.
And what's even more sad is that most don't see that...
Most think it perfectly fine to re-define Christ as 'self'.
Ask anyone to give a behavioral description of 'Jesus'...and if you listen long enough, their description of Jesus will simply turn into a description of 'self'...how odd and bizarre.
back soon...other rooms in Mansion to explore.
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Post by X factor on Aug 31, 2013 15:24:46 GMT -5
 Can we all just get along? Have a great and wonderful Saturday people.... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 1, 2013 17:03:08 GMT -5
Hello...  I went out last night...met a few interesting souls. But for some reason, whenever I go out, I always feel a bit down the following morning. Not sure why...I always go out alone and return alone. I never really go out to meet anyone...I just go out to socialize in a more festive environment around others in a festive mood. But then the next day or morning, I always feel down. Maybe it's the moon shine, that causes that effect. Maybe I need to go out, and stay dry one time, and see how that feels. Anyways... Glad tomorrows a holiday, at least for some of us...cause I could really use an extra day off this week. It's not like I do a whole lot when I am off... I have one goal I'm trying to reach right now, and going out, even during day, just means you spend money. So I don't shop or anything, cause you can go through $100.00 a day like it's nothing. Even when I save, and only pay basic stuff, like food, bills, it still seems like savings is going backwards. It's just hard to save anymore with so many mandated bills. The only way to get around that is credit cards...something I don't do.  You could save $50,000 in cash a year...or $20,000 in cash, if you just charge everything. Hmm....sometimes that sounds appealing. But when you live by cash, pay everything with cash...its very hard to save. And without credit for large purchases...it's near impossible to get anywhere...unless you make a huge income. Anyways...as soon as you learn all the lessons of life seems you get sick and pass away. It's all kind of tragic in a way...expecially for those who can never get above and beyond basic subsistence in life. That's why I don't cry for millionares...they get to live 10-20-30 more lives than the average person...when they want something, they just get it...they don't have to wait years or decades. They get to experience life to it's fullest, while in their prime. Anyways got some chores to do, back soon. |
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Post by X factor on Sept 2, 2013 6:46:24 GMT -5
Notes and observations...  Man is basically a biological computer...some behave as if they're hardwired...to have certain attitudes towards others, or others not like them, kind of like insects in a hive, bees, ants ect. Some live, but aren't really self aware, and rarely question their ways, effects their ways have on others, or their path. It is observed that a few, a very few, are able to rise above fleshly instincts through various disciplines. Money, trade, and commerce seems to be the one common social vein that brings various colonies together, and forces some to override instinctual social exclusion. Money and commerce, like glue, seems to be what holds society together, more so than any sense of 'love' for or of others. One tolerates another simply cause another brings them business which helps them pay their bills. It is observed money and commerce has become the bond which holds societies together and is what keeps people from separating into warring groups, based on physical traits, and other learned or passed down unique cultural identifiers. Humans are also very emotional frail. Because of this frailty, man will hurt you on a multitude of levels, physical to emotional, to protect their vulnerabilities. Basically like a deer in the forest, that runs at the first sight of 'man'. Man has that same instinct when dealing with others outside of their own understanding, that instinct to 'run'. But that instinct is overiden in most do to commerce and trade. If not for commerce and trade, it is observed a lot of people would not be welcome in or around others they're not similar too. End session... . |
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Post by X factor on Sept 2, 2013 13:37:56 GMT -5
Hello...and I do hope everyone is having a splendid Monday...for some it's a holiday. I've got a few more chores to complete...a long list of things to do...right now I have one of those older sci-fi movies from like the 60's on... Cheezy...but it takes you back to a different time and mindset.  This movie 'Terror in the Jungle, which I'm watching now...is like Elvis meets King Kong or something'....and throw the 'beatles' in there also...or more like 'The Monkeys'...that 60's beach music... I seriously doubt this movie will ever be remade in modern times... Anyways...gotta go, back soon... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 2, 2013 17:57:06 GMT -5
Twitter account is gone for now...good...
Don't need 400 + mindless zombie souls starring at me all the time...just don't need it.
Like dead weight...they added nothing.
If they don't, can't, appreciate my artistic range, than good riddens...but why did they follow?
And why not unfollow?
Just be gone...but like glue, they just stuck around...adding nothing to my creative content or spirit, so I dropped them, let go, cut the rope.
And I feel better as a result, as I take the next few days to just be to myself.
Popularity is scary at times, cause you attract odd balls...
People who appear normal on the surface always turn out to be odd balls...
Normality is a clever disquise, or mask.
All the people who do bad in this world, and who make the headline news, all look, act, and dress normal on the surface...
Normal people scare the hell out of me, cause they are extremely wicked in their ways...they lie, fib, and make stuff up about others...hold grudges and so on.
I don't trust people who appear normal on the surface, cause it's like they're hiding who they really are.
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Post by X factor on Sept 2, 2013 20:18:46 GMT -5
 I don't know what to say right now...or how to express it, or even if I should...so I sit here alone in the dark...(yes that's my image)... I sit here alone in the dark, in this big empty Mansion, as a ghost... A ghost that roams, from room to room, in search of something solid. Haunting those whom visit, reflecting thought, fears, doubts, joys. Am I alone? Who knows...maybe there's other spirit energies here also....who knows... But right now, I sit here alone in the dark, not liked nor understood... But we'll get through this... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 3, 2013 5:41:45 GMT -5
It's morning and I feel a bit better moving on without twitter, at least for a few days...
I'll probably rejoin after a few days...unless I find an alternative site.
Twitter is just to 'bugged'...every thing frees up when I'm off of twitter, browser arrow speeds up, no sluggish key stroke issues...
twitter is just to bugged with 'adware' and other stuff.
It just didn't feel right. And folks stopped communicating...none of it felt right.
So I left.
Anyhow let's see what today brings...back in a bit...
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Post by X factor on Sept 3, 2013 19:32:59 GMT -5
Well, I'm not Donna Summers...but I can totally relate to this song 'Works hard for the money'... You come home feeling ragged and worn, and wonder what the end result of all your efforts will ever really add up to, other than ragged worn bones... Then you see folks in their 50's, 60's and even 70's doing the same and you're like 'how do they do it?'... To be in your 50's or 60's and still have to grind away...how depressing... Some are even forced to work into their 70's now...cause no matter how old you get the bills never stop coming. That's why it's impossible to get ahead unless you earn 10 the amount you spend. And there's really no way around that equation. Your body will only hold up for long, people get sick, cancer, diabetes, and other illnesses all the time...then what? If you only have say $3,500 saved up, and you're say 28, and suddenly are stricken with something, then what? This society can be without mercy, if you're broke, and have no way of generating an income. And when you do earn, society gobbles it all up, your income that is. You may even earn 1 million dollars over your life time, but where does most of it end back up?, in the system, recycled...from you're hands, right back into the system, so it's as if you really never had it... Then it seems every 3-4 months, everything in your life is prepped to all go wrong at once...like an avalanche...  Yes, it seems everything always preps to go wrong at once...vehicle will break, issues at work, pet will get sick, relationship issues, someone will need to borrow money...on and on...and it all happens within a week...like an onslaught... Well I tell you...like Donna Summers above...I worked hard for my money today...just to have to later on give it to a mechanic, or a bill or this or that... It's like you're basically earning for future others to give it to...taxes ect. But can't think of it that way or you'd loose your marbles... Just one day, evening, at a time I suppose... |
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Post by X factor on Sept 4, 2013 6:47:38 GMT -5
Hello!
I hardly ever greet on Tuesday mornings...
Only thing is, is today's actually Wed's...
But how many Tuesday greetings do we ever get?
Tuesday is one of those days taken for granted...like the invisible day...inbetween nothing.
It's kind of that meaningless day in the week, a stepping stone to get to wed or Friday.
Today is actually Wednesday though...
Anyways...I feel more at eased and relaxed since I'm no longer on twitter...I know views will drop...but I don't mind...I just need a vacation from that place.
In a few more days, maybe I'll resign...or try something different...but for now I'm enjoying the vacation from it.
The privacy of just writing for self without any expectation...it's a more pure form of writing...and refreshes the soul...
And that's how I feel right now, is a bit more refreshed.
Very productive day yesterday...lets see what today brings...
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Post by X factor on Sept 4, 2013 19:41:51 GMT -5
There is an ex felon, reformed, cleaned up their life, type of person who keeps addressing me as 'Ma'am or sir...
And I don't like that.
They're older than I am...and keep addressing me as if I have a title...and I don't like that.
They have totally cleaned up their life...and I guess for some reason, have all this respect for me...but I don't like that...cause I'm not worthy of respect from a ex, hardened, street type.
If anything I respect them...and compared to where they have come from, or over come, relative to what I had, and mishandled...if anything 'God almighty' would be more impressed with them, not me.
So I wish this person would stop addressing me as if I'm worthy of respect...cause I'm really not.
I'm not sure why they think I deserve so much respect...I'm baffled...very baffled...
Why would a hardened street person, older male, who has seen probably more than I have, figure that I deserve their respect?
I'm baffled...
Soon I will tell them to stop calling me 'Ma'am or Sir'...I will let them know I'm 'flawed'...and that 'God almighty' probably is way more impressed with them, than me.
That they have done more in their two years out of prison, than I have done, even though I have never been to jail or prison and have no record at all.
I think God looks down and smiles upon them more, than he does with me...
Cause even though I've never gone to jail or prison...I've made a lot of bad decisions that have set me back...I have squandered a lot of opportunity that was placed in front of me.
And I have made moral mistakes in the past.
This ex Felon older male, is way more clean, in gods sight, than I am...
But for some reason, this ex felon thinks I'm the one who's clean...and I wish they would stop thinking that.
I guess they see that I act, behave, real responsible, talk proper, mind my business...and don't see me hanging all in the streets...
But still...I think 'god' would admit them into heaven before me, only cause they are 'reformed'...I guess...
I don't know...I just know I don't need ex felons giving me all this respect.
Note: A question...why did I write 'Sir, Ma'am'?
Answer...cause when I write...I write more as a spirit, I express sentiment, ideas, notions, not gender.
In the spirit realm, gender is meaningless...spirits don't have genders...
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