Hello...
Not really in the mood to write...just not...
Not sure what I am in this world anymore...what I'm suppose to be to others...
Everyone defines you in such a different way depending on who they are and what they've been taught and what they've been through...
So everytime you meet someone it's like starting all over again...
You can know some for years...and they still don't trust you...or you can meet someone, and minutes after meeting them, they trust you with their life...
There's no rhyme or reason to this madness...
Things appear so randomn at times that it even makes you wonder if 'god' even cares anymore...
Sometimes you just want to give up...in that you get tired of trying to impress other humans...
But in todays world, you can't even give up easy...
There's really no where to retreat to and hide, unless you have money...
You see and read about and observe gross behavior every day, yet are forced to live around it, people who display it, cause your poor, or not rich enough to just flee....
Whole communities that are just mentally sick...but again...unless you have millions or hundreds or thousands to finance your escape...then your stuck living around the masses...
Societies were never meant to get this big, and weren't in the past...
Now we just have surplus societies, surplus populations...
People born just to be born...without a plan or purpose from the parents...
Government feeds everyone...keeps everyone alive...
In the past, nature took care of all of that...families didn't have babies they couldn't take care of, feed and or raise...
Not so today...with grocery stores and McDonalds on every corner...
A surplus society produces a lot of deviant behaviors...cause people no longer have roles to fulfill...
So they fulfill those roles in other ways..
I have no love for it anymore...
I just wish I could move away from it all...and let people fight, argue, hate, plot, scheme...on their own, without me being around it...
If your not already rich...than you just end up getting old scraping by...
Always being told that if you just work a little harder you'll make it to the top...ye ok...
Anyways...time to do some chores...
