X factors blog and journal...

I like this blog, why?
Cause unlike other blogs...it's not 'monetized'...

You go to some links or blogs, and as soon as you get there, to site, you feel set up, like a sucker...



All you get is adds, that gum up browser, and endless 'click this' type buttons...

And a author who probably hasn't visited their own page in weeks, months or years...

On here however...it's more like a flowing river of thoughts and activity...



Where every post is different and new.

It's called real life...it's really that simple.












Anyways...time to mellow out a bit for the evening...and watch a horror movie.

'Drag me to hell'...it's one I tend to watch over and over and over again...not sure why...probably cause there's just many layers to it, both social and spiritual...



back soon...I hope...

























But for the fun of it...lets say we could follower that characters journey, after they've been 'dragged to hell'...then what?



To be continued...

Update 2-17-14

I watch this movie so much cause it so reflects real life...in the movie, the bank teller, a blonde female, is cursed simply cause she makes one moral mistake, where as others working around her, like 'Stew', a new hire, lies, is dishonest, and is crooked, but doesn't meet the same fate.

That's so real life...in that it seems sometimes the good, the moral, suffer, and the morally corrupt seem to prosper, and get away with everything.

Hello...had to do a bit of running around this morning...cause starting late tonight, my schedual will be crammed, not really looking forward to any of it.

Dishonest people make everyone look bad, and a dishonest person will never fess up to being dishonest, even when their dishonesty disrupts interactions between others.

A dishonest person never fesses up to anything, and will just simply lie to cover up another lie.

This can occur at work, home, on the streets, while in a store, amongst friends, classmates and so on.
It can even occur between diplomats representing different nations.

One dishonest persons deeds or words, can cause dissary amongst dozens, or hundreds or more.

And one dishonest person can cause 20 people to not trust each other, or create a rift between lovers, friends, and or family.

To me, unrepentant liars, who make up, tell lies, or are dishonest in how they do things at work, deserve the death penalty.

People who lie on others, fib, make stuff up and or spread rumors about others, to me deserve the death penalty.

Their destructive ways cause mayham in the life of many...and liars, and dishonest people don't care who they hurt, they are cold viscious monsters incapable of understanding the consequences of lying, and others do know the consequences of lying and simply do it out of spite.

They should be executed for their deeds.



Cause every time they lie, they slowly execute someone elses reputation, or create distrust between friends, or falsely accuses someone of something where they spend time serving years, all based on a lie...

1st exampe

example two

The two links above deal more with criminal cases...but lying goes far beyond that.

But those are the first two examples I could find on the net.

But in both cases above, both people deliberately lied, and deliberately and maliciously tried to destroy the lives of others...and to me that's just straight up evil...to hold onto a lie forever, until accidently found out.

It's one thing to lie or fib about your weight, or speed of your vehicle, but when our lies effect the health and well being of others...nothing but the death penalty is deserving of such souls...

Ok, one more example...you know how I love to write...even when wore out...

Take the old Atari video game 'Bezerk'...action, hero or (you) and villians (anyone who isn't you)..



Just think...the folks who come into your life, the one car you buy that's defective, the person, family, that moves next door with 3 loud barking dogs, the tenant that lied about the insect infestation before you moved in.

Out of hundreds of pieces of equiptment, the one assigned to you happens to be defective, which holds you up, which adds other ripple effects.

Coincidences in your life, people you happen to run into even though if you tried finding them could never.

Just think, cause I'm a bit to exhausted to write, and if I write tired, I won't use proper illustrative words, so I need you, the reader...to just think about the above, until I return elsewhere on here...

We are all simply characters in a much larger 'war' or 'battle field'...nothing is by accident...accept small things.

But the controllers would rather not have you be aware of things...back soon.

Back to my rubber room...cause I know that's where some probably think I write from...



But I know there are some out there, better versed than I, that know what I'm trying to convey...

How come people put off different energies?

You can even break that down along gender lines.

And the type of people you deal with at work, or while they're working, like security guards, cashiers ect.

I had such an incident today.

And at least where I stay, younger (19-35) urban black females just lack personality, are bland, robotic, while at work.

Where as younger white males (19-35) seem way more excited and enthused about life, charged, ready to talk with ya and dialogue about an array of interests and things.

It's like night and day.

It's like no one has ever put 'personality' into the black women or something...(at least in the environment I speak of)...like security guards and or cashiers.

The black cashiers or security guards always seem angry, hostile, and mad at the world, and anyone who doesn't 'bow' to them.

Where as the white male security guards, cashiers, seem to have way more 'personality', 'humor', interests in life beyond 'self'.

And I think it has to do with home environment...like where and how they were raised.

I've observed people who are raised in 2 parent homes, with siblings, brothers and sisters, mom and dad, just generally seem more 'balanced' and happy...and confident.

Where as those raised in the absence of all that seem a bit 'dark'...lacking in certain emotions, lacking in personality range.

Younger white males are probably some of the most friendliest people on the planet...up and until they get hi-jacked by politics.

And I think that may stem from simply feeling good about self...cause when you're happy with self, and your past, and your image, you seem to be happier with others.

And that could explain a lot of the hostility you see in inner city black women who work in public places like cashiers or security guards or any other customer service positions...



There seems to be this underlying hostility like 'Now I'm in a position to get back at you society...to get back at all of you who have hurt me over the years'...

Not only that, but many folks raised in the city or project areas, have very limited vocabularies, and very shallow intellects.

As such, they don't know how to handle dispute very well on the work place.

It always plays out as follows..

1. Raise voice

2. shake body

3. And yell

I've noticed when one lacks a sufficient vocabulary, they tend to substitute it with yelling or raising voice, or slang. As if not wanting to be exposed for being so 'dense'...so yelling and gesturing and raising voice is suppose to 'quite you', intimidate you into silence or just leaving situation alone.

Well as a odd ball alien creature...those tactics don't really work with me...



I'm here to observe human behavior and note it...

And can't be intimidated by base behavior exhibited by human black females in urban areas who take their rage and anger out on others while at work.

Who bring their moods with them to work, and expect others to carefully walk around these moods...instead of them growing the hll up and acting professional.

I have observed some feel they can talk to others as they please, in any type of manner or tone.

And I have observed it basically comes from having no personality, no character other than base gender identity.

Where as their white male counter part is full of identity, thus has character, thus feels better about self, thus feels better about others.

Until politicized...

This is a very important theme, and will be continued else where on here...the different phycological make up of humans...based on social environment, home environment and other factors...

Hello...

I haven't seen a good scary movie in a long time...an original thriller.

And Insidious? Are you hobbitding me?

The first one was one of the most boring, non scary movies I've ever seen in my life..why would I want to see part 2?

Insidious part 1 put me to sleep...I could never stay awake through whole movie...boring characters, boring theme...I just couldn't relate...

Maybe cause I know real life horrors...and Insidious was just to 'mainstream' for me...to 'Disney'...

Nothing about that movie scared me...in fact I accidently purchased 2 copies by mistake.

The movies like 'Ok...scream....now!' type of movie...

What scares me can't be manipulated by loud sudden sounds from speakers.
Either the premise is scary or it isn't...

Someone popping a balloon behind my head making me jump, doesn't mean the movies scary, it's just the body reacting to a loud sudden burst of noise...

Anyways...it's been a pretty quiet uneventful day so far...

Also, don't ever take energy for granted.

Not just energy produced by coal plants, or dams, but energy produced by 'self'...your own body...



A neuron firing energy through body.

Don't ever take energy for granted, cause when your life force energy begins to wane or fade one day, you'll realize how powerful and special energy is, energy we take for granted daily, cause most of us have it without thinking about it.

Only people who are ill, realize how special energy is...when they haven't enough energy even to lift an arm or leg or turn in bed.

Energy is not to be taken for granted.
Even mental energy is not to be taken for granted.
For when the mind is energized, there is nothing you can't do.



Yes, when the mind is firing on all cylinders anything is possible, no task to big or hard to accomplish, no dream is to big to fulfill...

But when that mind energy is not there, even getting out of bed can be difficult.

Do not take your energy for granted...and make sure you using it in the right way, on the right things, cause it won't always be there.
Don't care how good of shape you're in now, how 'cute' or 'soxy' you appear to be to self right now, sooner or later that energy will wane, fade.
So while you have it, energy, don't take it for granted, and use it to your advantage.

Can you force your brain to operate outside of your normal interests, gifts, or understanding?

For instance, some are just naturally gifted at math, or engineering, programing...others are gifted musicians, or writers, or artists...other love to fly, others are good public speakers and so on.

Also, some are naturally organized, or so it seems. Some keep all their files and paper work neat, tidy, and up to date, to include financial records, taxes ect.

Others are turned off by 'details' and instead operate on the 'big picture' level.

Some are good at picking up other languages, some people speak 2-5 languages with no problems, yet others can barely grasp speaking 1 language.

Everyone seems to be gifted with something, but we don't usually notice that gift unless that person somehow learns to make money off of that gift.

Is it ever possible to become good at something, you never were...like say physics, or Algebra or reading notes?

Or computer program language.

Sometimes we give up on things, we give up on learning, are resigned to feel dumb and stupid, cause of difficulty comprehending things..like the complicated tax code.

But if one human can learn it, write it, why can't anyone else?

Some of us spend our whole lives afraid to learn new things, cause we fear failure.
Or would just prefer to hire others to do it for us.

Thus most of us are utterly helpless in this new emerging world.

Most of us don't know mechanics, can't change the brakes on our vehicles...



Thus are forced to pay others to do it.

Most of us can't fix simple electronic problems with TV or radio or any other gadget...thus when it breaks we just through it away and buy new one.

Most of us are just dumb, and don't really know anything outside of our own little specialty.

But what if one took it upon them self to learn everything?

And who says you have to be in school to learn?

With gigantic book stores like Barnes and Noble, and internet schools and info...you can almost create your own self college or University.

Like spend one week or a whole month just learning one particular subject, maybe not to genius level, but at least to basic comprehension level.

I think the human brain likes being challenged.

When you stop challenging and exercising the brain, the mind becomes flat and flabby...just like the body.
And life becomes dull.

So I say pick one subject...something you've always been afraid of, math, trig, mechanics, electronics, programming, whatever...and learn it...and the world will become a slightly less scary place for you, us.