Just got done watching the old Clint Eastwood movie 'Dirty Harry'...or one in the series...
This movie really takes you back to a different time...revolvers and all, Disco and Funk music...and kind of the whole early to mid Brady Bunch style of dress.
Clint Eastwood was handsome back then...and kind of favors the character who plays 'Wolverine' in the X man series...Hugh Jackman or something...
Ye, I've always thought Clint and Hugh look a like...
Anyways, that's not what I feel like writing about...I'm writing cause everything feels fake to me right now. Everything online, as well as in real life just seems fake.
People seem fake, situations seem fake, everything just seems staged.
Outcomes already seemed planned, regardless of your efforts.
Pre determined outcome seems more plausible than effort, it's why it seems some people with a lot of effort get no where, and you see others, who just by whom they know, are who likes them, get propted up.
Twitter seems fake, the people on there seem fake, it all just seems fake.
People don't act like that in real life, repeat the same stuff over and over again.
The last few days have been odd...a struggle, and very uncertain.
I really wish I had the where with all to just walk away from it all...but in todays world, where do you walk too?
There's really no where to walk away to.
Every square inch of land is owned or zoned...it's not like you can just go pitch a tent any where.
There's really no where to go anymore unless you have the money to just buy your own land, where u can stay without being bothered.
But to go through this crap for another 10,20,30 years just seems pointless to me, to watch all the fruits of your labor, which is money, just get spent up on bills and other misc items. It all just seems mechanical and pointless.
Everyone is corrupt...expecially the newer generation...they all swear, curse, use profanity...just go on twitter or you tube or face book, nothing but vile thoughts, vile posts, and this is the new normal?
It's scary...it's like a demonic generation has arose...
Like a foul spirit has taken control of the masses...and I don't just mean within the shallow fake phony realm of politics...I mean like human characteristics and all...more and more people just seem foul, dishonest, nasty, cruel, slanderous...and on and on...and it seems to be becoming more and more mainstream.
As such, whole companies take on a foul nature.
Then again...maybe it's been like this forever, and I just didn't notice it.
If so, not sure why it's effecting me differently now.
There just seems to be no more source of righteousness to turn to.
And like the animals who sought higher ground during the Asian Tsunami, my every instincts tell me I should do the same, but again...go where?
Even caves are owned by the Government today...there is really no place to go anymore to just be left alone.
Seems I'm the wrong everything, the wrong color, in the wrong area, the wrong job.
Just not sure what to do about it all anymore...
