Bed

Every time I lay down at night, I always get attacked by 'self'.

This post here could actually fit into the 'paranormal' section, I mean the idea of thinking yourself to be 'another' while laying down..hmm

Like if you adore someone, then thinking yourself to be that person you adore, how much more intimate would that be, if that, if that is done?

Well it's about that time for bed

It's about that time for bed, I've stretched the day out about as long as I can.

Tomorrow begins a brutal 3 day work schedule, by brutal cause it's usually over night, and sorry, don't care how much sleeping you do during the day, between 1-5 am can be brutal.

You can't like 'reserve' energy for the future like that...you can't like 'store' energy, you simply use it when you have it and when don't have it get sleepy.

Physically I'm getting healthier again, don't drink nearly as much, been working out again, starting to get that athletic shape back, that toned shape.

But still not as happy as wish I could be.

I'd have to move far away from people in order to achieve that.

I mean I'm already 'isolated' for the most part, but still have to live around folks.

So if going to be socially isolated most of the time, would rather actually not live around anyone, not have any annoying neighbors at all, then maybe would be happier than am now.

I think, in real life, I'm one of the few that actually doesn't do anything to annoy anyone, no pets, no barking dog, enter and leave place in silence, I don't do anything to annoy anyone.
And if anyone is annoyed by me it's do to their own perception of who they think I am....but I can't help how others perceive things, I can only control the reality of 'now', and right now, I don't annoy anyone, I only help people, but most to blinded by their own perception to see that.

As you age, you begin to realize that perception is more powerful than reality when it comes to the mind.

You can be the nicest person in a room, but if someone interpits your style of dress as being 'hostile' than they'll perceive you as being a threat.

And oddly enough good 'con men' know this and play on peoples perceptions all the time and is why most people, wealthy people or retired people always RIPPED OFF fiscally by people they perceive to be trust worthy.

Which proves, in most, their perceptive properties are hyper flawed, goodnight.

Yes, it's that time again, time for bed

Yes sir ree, it's that time for bed again, that magical time for some, and I suppose can be hellish for others, just depends on medical conditions I suppose and or where located.

I mean if stuck as a prisoner of war in some misquitoe laidened jungle, bed might not be so fun.

(spelling sucks tonight, words all lit up in red, but who has time to correct)

Bed is on my mind, sleep, rest, not proper spelling.

Had awesome dreams I wish I could remember, so could share, but only remember essence of dreams and not details.

It can be odd dreaming about deceased relatives, very odd, cause say when you dream of a deceased relative, in dream, they may not appear 'old' or even 'young' as they left this world, in dream, say you dream of your Father, in dream they may appear college aged, even though you never new them then.

Dreams can really make you sad at times though, or happy, but also sad when your mind brings back people you've long forgot about, not sure why the mind does that....even pet dogs of old, pet dogs of childhood, seem to pop up in peoples dreams.

I once had a dream that a classmate that wouldn't date me while in school, finally had a crush on me, I mean the dream felt so real, it was literally a 'dream come true' type of dream, but sadly it really was a dream, and hated waking up that morning.

Or sometimes you're about to get romantic with person who forever told you 'no', but in dream it's about to occur when woke up by garbage truck outside or something.

Oh well.

I'm never hungry in dreams, and never have to go to the bathroom, but if you do have to go to bathroom in your dream, you know that means 'you really have to go', and I advice don't 'go' in your dream, cause if you 'go' in your dream, that means you probably 'went' in your bed.

Weird how the mind tries to warn you of stuff like that.

OK, time to chill, just had to come here to say goodnight.

So much more to say...

In mellow mood tonight.

Neighbor from hell, I think finally moved out today
This female neighbor seemed to get abused every night by her ex boyfriend or multyple males, it got violent almost every night, to the point that I re arranged place just so I didn't have to hear it.

Lady need to grow up and make better decisions going forward, that's all I can say.

And were I stay, you don't 'rat' on people or they'll come for you next.

And where I live, the Police can't protect you, all the police can do is show up after you've been hurt, beat up or killed, then they take report and move on.

Hoodloms and people who already have criminal records don't think twice about messing you up, if you get in their way.

Anyways, hopefully that drama is gone.

Mellow day, mellow mood...goodnight, time for bed, time for rest.

Stop wiggling your toes....you're driving me mad!!

You are among the biggest brat on the planet!

And give me back my food!!