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Post by X factor on Nov 3, 2020 9:03:16 GMT -5
 There's a 'today', a 'tomorrow', so only makes sense that there should be a 'yesterday', lets begin. |
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Post by X factor on Nov 3, 2020 9:06:53 GMT -5
Yesterday was a disaster
Yesterday was a disaster for me, an emotional disaster, sort of, maybe to another persons standard it may not have been so bad, but to my own standards, yesterday kind of sucked.
I had a drink or two, and went nuts, 'acted out'.
It's why I don't go out anymore, cause I don't, still don't, trust myself 'out there'.
What a shame, I just still have so much emotion on the inside, mostly playful emotions, but you never know how others interpit that playfulness.
Anyways, yesterday sucked, lets see what today brings.
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Post by X factor on Nov 3, 2020 9:11:26 GMT -5
Wish I could place a hose in my mouth, turn on water, and just flush out insides, water pouring in one side while gushing out the back side, until insides totally clean.
That sounds odd, but wish I could just hose out my insides, clear every thing out and start anew.
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Post by X factor on Dec 14, 2021 11:31:45 GMT -5
Yesterday sucked, just like today will.
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Post by X factor on Dec 14, 2021 11:32:46 GMT -5
Yesterday sucked, just like today will. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 14, 2021 11:34:04 GMT -5
Yesterday sucked, just like today will. Nah, I think today will suck, regardless of me wanting it to suck or not, or at least my mood towards the day will suck. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 16, 2021 22:00:38 GMT -5
yesterday I had a good time, on social media, I had a good drunken time, now today just after one long shift of work, I feel hollow on the inside.
Yesterday I had purpose and meaning, engaged in a few conversations with others, some good, some not so good, today, I just drove on the job, all alone, and now that home, just feel hollow on the inside.
That's how quick a bland job can reduce you to nothing.
'Bland' is a relative term though, what's exiting to one could be bland to another, or what was exiting years go to one, could be bland 'today', like a marriage.
It's all about where your mind is at the moment.
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Post by X factor on Dec 16, 2021 22:02:16 GMT -5
I do notice life is most fun when sharing stuff, on my job there's nothing to share, you just drive, and that's it, all alone.
I need a career change soon.
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Post by X factor on Mar 22, 2022 12:45:41 GMT -5
Yesterday really sucked.
If I could erase yesterday from my mind, I wouldn't mind at all, it was just a sucky day where I felt lost, emotionally lost most of the day.
I think moods do have something to do with what we eat and drink.
According to pronouned advanced Dr's and Dentists, and even Auto mechanics would probably agree as well.
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Post by X factor on Apr 27, 2022 9:44:47 GMT -5
 Yesterday was a decent day, filled with action, I think I got a lot done. But at the end of the day I started drinking, to deal with all the pint up emotion, I just felt like celebrating. And well, you can imagine how that went, fun at first, sort of, but then the spill over effect. But because I'm in decent shape, and rarely drink anymore, I should rebound here sooner than I normally would say months ago. ------------------------------------- I've been reading the headlines online on the browser news page, and wow, so much negative stuff going on, killings, shootings, assaults, what's going on with the people in this society? Or does the media simply spend to much time focusing on bad stuff just to get views and clicks online for the sake of advertisers? Funny thing is, if the news didn't report on negative stuff, I'd never really know negative stuff was occurring. ----------------------------------- Anyways, I'm up now, and still have some useful day in front of me. I think I'll get dressed, for when get dressed, even with no plans to go anywhere, but when get dressed, it just puts me in a 'get stuff done' mindset, vs walking around the place naked and nude and hair and face out of order, which makes me just want to stay in all day. Time to get up and out and get stuff done. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 27, 2022 15:34:46 GMT -5
I spent a lot of money yesterday, I mean a lot of money.
But, why not, I gained some stuff also, got peace of mind.
Can't just keep living week to week, month after month, without ever making progress.
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Post by X factor on Jun 15, 2022 20:57:51 GMT -5
Yesterday morning, while still dark, or last night if you prefer, but it was one of those mornings where 6 hours of sleep seemed more like 10.
And I was sweating a lot, and dreaming a lot as well.
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Post by X factor on Jul 13, 2022 8:22:32 GMT -5
I metaphorically got my butt kicked by yesterday I just can't seem to run from the devil, especially if the devil, a metaphorical term, is in you, cause then no matter where you run there they are, the devil, just waiting to 'act out'. I was doing so well yesterday until someone said they'd call back, and didn't, then the anxioty of them not calling back made me 'act out'. And then gave my number to someone who called the number when I was next to them, said 'Is this your voice mail', then later when I gave them my number again, cause I never saw where they called, then later they said 'Oh, I never called your number'...huh? Why would someone lie like that and not even catch their own lie? Am I the one insane or is it other people who are insane and incabable of telling the truth? Either way, yesterday got the better of me and kicked my butt into today, just like today will kick my butt and throw me into tomorrow, and tomorrow will devour me as well.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2023 13:21:14 GMT -5
Yesterday night was, well, out there.
It's like I was in high school again, meaning met up with a woman, for a short bit, just to drop something out, but wow, it was fun, sporatic, and I was, well, a bit 🍺
Got a few hugs, a few laughs, then returned home and drank a bit more, listened to music, and well, was a decent evening, other than the drinking, which I still feel today.
But still worked out this morning at the park.
I've been alone, single, for so long, it's odd kind of having someone whom, I don't know, ya just never know these days, lifes so unpredictable.
And when good things do happen, it's as if you're going to wake up from a dream.
Anyways, today's here, and well, tomorrow looms around the corner, and I have to work tomorrow.
Talk about a blunt end to a good dream.
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Post by X factor on Jul 11, 2023 4:00:10 GMT -5
Power went out for a while, yesterday morning, that really sucks in the summer, cause the air inside stops moving, flowing, and becomes stale and warm real quick without either the a/c on or fans.
And you can't do anything online, it ust sucks.
If power goes out, I prefer it do so at night, when already sleeping and don't really notice or care.
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