Can I please breathe and be honest?

Portland closes down all Walmarts do to white woke city officials not persecuting shoplifters



Sorry, no more Walmart's in the city of Portland Oregon

I'm stressed right now, cause may have to move soon, now if lived in all white area, so what, meaning if going from one white neighborhood to another, so what, most white's pretty much behave the same.

But living around black folks, black areas, can't say the same...cause with black neighborhood comes, gangs, violence, gun totting youth who recklessly fire bullets in all directions, car thieves, burglary's and more.

But in most urban areas, the ghetto, or ghetto minded populations has spread out beyond the traditional bounds of 'projects', now these same single urban black women, who bring so much drama to them, have spread out everywhere.

They bring their sons, who bring their friends.
They bring their shady felon, or future felon, or ex felon boyfriends, who bring their homey's, who bring drama and violence.

I've seen all this over and over and over and over again, it never changes!!

Who do you think all these troubled urban youth/males, come from?
They don't come from white or Asian people, that's for sure, they come from single urban, unwed black mothers, that's where they come from, and they've turned inner city life into a living hell!

'Black' is not a color, it's a mindset, and there are many different mindsets, cultures, classes, ect, within what most would generically call the black community.

I'm one of those varients, I wasn't raised around types who have gold teeth and who sag pants, and who smoke blunts...that's just not me, but sadly I often get lumped in with such types when looking for housing in safe, working class area.

People, especially if a single adult B male, just won't lease or rent to you if they associate you with that violent urban toxic masculinity culture.
Anywayas, do to time, gotta keep this short.

But ye, the idea of moving, and then going to live around chocolate skin toned black folks, whom I have zero in common with culturally, just makes me cringe.

Sure, I'm a person of color, but I come from a small town in the Pacific NW, where families were intact, and people behaved normally, and stayed in school, went on to college, this and that.

The hood is hell....and sadly that hell is spreading out into all reaches of society.

Black folks raised west of highway 35, which runs through Texas, are totally different than black raised east of highway 35.

East highway 35 black tend to have that spill over colonial mindset, talk and speech, and have no idea what it's like to be a true minority.

As a black person, I get annoyed when I watch TV shows or movies where they force inject any ole black person into some random role, or authority figure role, ect, that to me, does not reflect what I see daily out here in the streets or working class environment.

The worst move, biggest regret I have in life, as an adult, is even though most would consider me 'black', my worst mistake, and one I regret every day, was moving to an area where black folks are the majority, or large portion of the community, county, city, state, ect...worst mistake ever.

The minute I moved in area (the SE) where many generational blacks lived, is when my own life begin to wither and die.

It's been the worst experience of my whole entire life....why?

1. Blacks raised around other blacks just tend to have very low self-esteem.
2. Black males, unlike how portraid on fun TV shows of the 90's, like 'Martin' or 'Fresh Prince', ect.
Black males, in reality, are just very negative and dark, and sad on the inside.
3. The majority of black folks, younger ones, just raised to have a 'hood' mentality, and start acting gangsta by age 8.
4. No broader sense of culture at all what so ever, it's hip-hop or rap, period, nothing else.
Blacks do not bring diversity at all.
When I lived around whites, that's when I experienced diversity...cause whites are different from one another...rockers, skaters, country music types, heavy metal types, classical music types, gay types, lesbian types, bi-soxual types, classy types, trailer park types, and could go on, so many different styles within the white community....but in the black community all you get is rap rap and more rap, and that whole thug mentality...how fckn boring, dull and bland.
5. I miss women who want to be women, in the hood now, all the women are 'butch', act like, walk like, talk like, fight like, dress like, tatood like, their male counterparts...even some women in the hood getting gold teeth grills now..

6. violence, and more violence, they don't know how to resolve issues in peace....they don't value life, don't think before they pull out gun over some stupid dispute.
You can never relax living around such types, cause even if not shooting at you, bullets go through walls.
7. Generally mean and cold hearted, if don't already know you.
8. Homophobic on the surface, but undercover gay by night.
9. love to litter, love tossing trash on the ground, in parking lot, ect
10.Stopped getting married, stopped going to college, and just lack adult ethics. When blacks around you never feel safe, always less safe.

And mind you I'm black, but in color or shade only, on the inside I'm anything but black.
I hate saying all that but it's true, I can only be honest.
It wasn't always like that, older blacks did have values, and ect, but this newer single parented younger breed, I just don't know, they're destroying society, and teachers can't even teach them in school.

it won't change unless something major happens, a major war, act of nature, or if a dictator takes over and just cuts all the crap out, until then it's only gonna get worse.

I wish I could run to the hills.