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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 15:06:09 GMT -5
I have to freagen spend the last remaining best years of life, best years of fitness, around those who lack capacity to appreciate the unique qualities of others.
Now there is no room for joy in my life at all, I hope I don't end up ___ self just to escape this torture.
But a person can only take so much.
I moved in area populated by urban negro's, and all you get is sirens, people who just dump trash in the streets (have to pass daily on way to work).
People who think in extremes, to them either you're this or that, but no middle ground.
People raised on rap music and lyrics and so rap music and lyrics 'gospel' to them, it's embedded.
I"d rather live next to the KKK, to be honest with you, whom you could at least sit down and 'reason with', even if didn't agree on all issues, than to live next to close minded Southern Negro males who totally lack social education, and just react, rather than think.
I'm doomed...
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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 15:54:26 GMT -5
I just called leasing office and vented my concerns, but had to be very politically correct, but they understood (Older black woman, whoever they were they were new, and I think others were listening in, duh) But she tried to soothe me, very nice older lady, but I was basically saying if can't find peace here after these two move in will break lease and leave...(and I know breaking a lease is like a no no, but if can't relax, I don't care) I'll break lease and rent room and save 60% per month and save up for RV or something, than to have to live around unruly types. Folks, I've been homeless before, so I know what it's like to just 'let go' of everything, at first stressful, but then becomes very peaceful once you realize you're of no more value to anyone, including banks, collectors, ect, once they realize you have nothing, funny how they leave you alone. Then you're in that 'peace bubble' for a while, where nothing can harm you cause nothing wants you...so simply allowed to live, sleep, wake up and enjoy the day like a bird or cat or squirrel. Folks, I just don't care anymore...all I want is peace, and not drama. And I know how 'black folks' are now, (at least in urban areas), if you complain to management, they seek revenge, will meet and greet you at night, will 'beat you up', or shoot at you, so you can't complain, or you'll get hurt (if W maybe not so much) but if person of color, since other blacks been taught to hate self, they have no issues with hating you, hurting you. Zero concious against that since raise on vile rap music (which produced by Jewish people oddly enough, to further self destructive mindset) I just don't need the drama, I'll move in with lady I know who lives on a farm, a white lady, where at least I could have peace. I wish I weren't like this...but I am, in that never picked on, or made to feel different, until moved to area populated by black folks, who I've learned are some of the most mean, cruel, people on the planet....why?, because of insecurity and internal damage. Hispanics can be mean and viscous also, but with them it's not do to lack of identity, rather it's do to if you interfere with street level drug trade ect....it's business with them. But with Hispanics, the typical Hispanic doesn't hate fellow Hispanic simply for looking the same, in that their culture is still intact. I'm scared and frightened of my own future right now. God? I don't think God cares, or wouldn't of moved two urban B dudes next to me, unless I have future lesson to learn and am proved totally wrong, than I'll have egg on me face. I'm scared people, I'm really scared right now, of my own future, of the ability of Satan to just hit that last raw nerve until you crack and can't take anymore. And the negro mentality just drives me mad! I can't relate to it. (at least the newer generation) I just can't relate to it. Urban negro's are the LEAST loving and accepting people I've ever lived around in my life, at least initially. Especially if they think you're one of them. I'd rather face 5 Klan members, or the most racist group in America, 5 of them, than walk down street and face 5 urban bred, Negro's waiting to pounce do to their own insecurities. Real men would hug, understand, but urban negro's, since not raised around loving Father, are just cruel.  I think I'm doomed people, sit back and watch my slow demise. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 16:05:05 GMT -5
My life just kept getting better and better until stupid enough to move into areas populated by urban 'negros'...then everything just started crumbling, but it was a learning process. In 2019 I may just loose my mind and have nervous break down, but even then, what would happen? They would house you, stuff you in, with other short haired, stalky negro's with thick rough hands and unsightly feet. Then I'd go even more mad or insane. this is also my worst nightmare, is to be housed in jail or prison with dull southern negro types, who lack culture, and understanding of anything accept rap music. They'd probably have to put me on suicide watch. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 16:11:50 GMT -5
Also, negro's tend to love to slam doors and be very heavy handed with things.
Most of the above just carry around so much anger on the inside, that don't care how their actions effect others.
I'm doomed and God hates me
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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 16:17:53 GMT -5
Why can't segregation come back, not based on color, but based on behavior, and social merit?
That way poor working class types, regardless of color, would be fit to live around or in more affluent neighborhoods, based on past behavior and personality properties.
Just because one is poor, but of good character, why should be forced to live around social demons?
I'm going to lose my mind here soon.
The negro's have returned, and already living up to stereotype of slamming doors.
Or maybe it's me who needs medical attention?
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Post by X factor on Dec 28, 2018 16:35:37 GMT -5
You try your best to move away from violent negro's, and what does management do?...they move violent negro's right next to you!!
And so does the Government through 'aid' housing...it's so not fair.
It's so not fair...why why why..........
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Post by X factor on Dec 29, 2018 20:40:56 GMT -5
Also, negro's tend to love to slam doors and be very heavy handed with things. Most of the above just carry around so much anger on the inside, that don't care how their actions effect others. I'm doomed and God hates me  Let me take it from here, OK 'You were about to apologize but then, then, there was a barrage of door slamming for like 20+ minutes, where your new neighbors were obviously moving stuff in, but kept slamming door every few minutes and it about drove you insane again' Relax, for you are not out of line to be agitated by being disturbed while at home, regardless of who's doing the disturbing. Even if you stomp onto a ant hill, the ants become agitated, come out, and attack. Like me, you're a person of peace, or try to be, it is only when fools tend to 'find you', and linger around you, that you're then forced to react at times. It's not your fault that management decided to move these whatever's right next to you. For whatever reason, darkness always follows light, never the other way around. Light never follows darkness, rather darkness always follows the light, and instead of becoming light themselves, tend to remain dark. Just look at the flow of immigration, look at what peoples are flooding into what nations, and then once there look at behavior of such. It's no different in America, in that developers establish, build, plan for, great neighborhoods, initially good people, working people, mature people, move in, but not soon after here comes the rift raft....yes rift raft, people who are uncultured, lack manners and to low IQ to realize their own state and thus never desire to change, but rather want others to accommodate their flaws, and if you don't accommodate their flaws then in their twisted minds you're the one who's 'out of line'. That's called de evolution, a backward evolving of mankind. Reasoned people self correct, people with a conscious self correct, those without those two drive the rest of 'us' mad. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 29, 2018 20:49:00 GMT -5
Also, negro's tend to love to slam doors and be very heavy handed with things. Most of the above just carry around so much anger on the inside, that don't care how their actions effect others. I'm doomed and God hates me Let me take it from here, OK 'You were about to apologize but then, then, there was a barrage of door slamming for like 20+ minutes, where your new neighbors were obviously moving stuff in, but kept slamming door every few minutes and it about drove you insane again' Relax, for you are not out of line to be agitated by being disturbed while at home, regardless of who's doing the disturbing. Even if you stomp onto a ant hill, the ants become agitated, come out, and attack. Like me, you're a person of peace, or try to be, it is only when fools tend to 'find you', and linger around you, that you're then forced to react at times. It's not your fault that management decided to move these whatever's right next to you. For whatever reason, darkness always follows light, never the other way around. Light never follows darkness, rather darkness always follows the light, and instead of becoming light themselves, tend to remain dark. Just look at the flow of immigration, look at what peoples are flooding into what nations, and then once there look at behavior of such. It's no different in America, in that developers establish, build, plan for, great neighborhoods, initially good people, working people, mature people, move in, but not soon after here comes the rift raft....yes rift raft, people who are uncultured, lack manners and to low IQ to realize their own state and thus never desire to change, but rather want others to accommodate their flaws, and if you don't accommodate their flaws then in their twisted minds you're the one who's 'out of line'. That's called de evolution, a backward evolving of mankind. Reasoned people self correct, people with a conscious self correct, those without those two drive the rest of 'us' mad. Thanks, I guess, and by the way you're beautiful, at least to me you are. But all that aside, I swear I was intending to come on here and apologize, but then like a flurry, and all at once, the 'troop' came home I guess and begin slamming the door every minute, then my horns came out again, until you came along and calmed me a bit. I'm not racist, I just observe behavior, and I can't help it if observed certain disruptive behavior tends to come from the same people over and over and over again. And observed fact I have noted is that if you're unlucky enough to live next to urban black folks, they, for whatever reason, love to slam doors...'boom, bam!', and it never occurs to whatever kind of minds they have, or whatever 'god' created their particular brain, that slamming doors is disruptive to those around them. Sometimes I think different Gods created different people with different mannerisms and behaviors. Or maybe there's another explanation, maybe I'm just being short tempered right now. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2018 22:43:09 GMT -5
Fireworks going off in the hood or working class hood, is just as un nerving as it is for soldiers who return from war and freak out at the loud sounds.
It's the same way for those who live in and around violent areas, fire works suck, especially in the hood areas.
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Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2018 22:49:36 GMT -5
Maybe I'm just out of touch with humanity, but I just don't see what's so cool about fireworks anymore.
Boom, Bang!, so what, I'd rather watch a silent laser light show or something.
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 11:56:08 GMT -5
When I can predict peoples behavior ahead of time, is that bias or reality, factual blue print of certain others behavioral pattern?
Slamming doors, then bouncy music, so very freagin predictable.
It's not about color, ever, but always about behavior.
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 13:43:12 GMT -5
I mean when you can look at someone ahead of time
1. Predict what music they listen to
2. Predict their dialect
3. Predict their actions and reactions
4. Predict their style and habits
5. Predict their mindset
And more, when you can do all the above, is that person even alive?
Are they alive or some kind of phantom doll created by whatever?
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 13:47:38 GMT -5
The brain of man is very small
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 13:51:37 GMT -5
I think one time, I was in a grocery store, years ago, and some random woman just decided to hug me for no particular reason...very odd.
I think maybe she 'saw me'...I don't know...very odd.
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Post by X factor on Jan 4, 2019 20:20:18 GMT -5
Living in the hood, any hood, whether in America, or Brazil or Russia or Italy, or wherever, just living in the hood as a decent person can be scary at times (all the time, it's just most of the time one doesn't dwell on it)
But when you do dwell on it it can be scary.
1. You're living around, mainly, people who's only reason for not doing 'bad' is cause they don't want to be inconvienced by the police or going to jail.
Good people or a good person, doesn't do bad simply cause to do bad is wrong, with or without the Police.
In fact in a society populated by 'good' people the police would never even be needed.
But 'bad' types simply tolerate pretending to be good, unless they think they can get away with 'it'.
And that's scary.
When in the hood, it's scary knowing just a door, door jam, is what seperates you from terror, at any given minute.
It's probably why most people in the hood areas have _____ they sleep next to or near by.
But who wants to live that way?
But the culture of drugs, violence, and then the rap music that glorifies it, never seems to go away, only intensifies as certain people who control the music industry make profits off of the sales of Rap....(and it's not 'B' people who control the Hip Hop labels, I know that may suprise the stupid)
Anyways, it's like Halloween every night in the hood, but with people earning less, more and more middle class types forced to move into hood areas cause the only place rent is affordable, and then because of that rent starts going up so that soon even living in the hood will become expensive, thus people more desperate to earn side money.
I always say that neighborhoods should be segregated not based on color, but based on past behavior.
Segregation based on behavior, that way good decent people of all colors could dwell together, and bad people of all colors could dwell together.
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Rappers would be equivelent to dairy cows on a farm, who get squeezed and milked of their talent, then the talent or milk is fed to a hungry populace, and those who own the dairy farms are not 'black folks', not even, if don't believe me than do own research.
The main people who run the Rap industry or Jewish....not saying that's good or bad, just stating a fact.
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