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Post by X factor on Sept 20, 2021 21:16:05 GMT -5
People who drive semi trucks for a living see a lot of things in the course of their work day
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Post by X factor on Oct 7, 2021 21:04:31 GMT -5
Why I hate checking my checking account
The reason I hate checking my checking account is cause no matter how many times I check it, I'm still poor.
I'm not broke, just poor.
Like opening the fridge over and over again, no matter how many times you open your fridge, there's still barely any food in there, and no matter how many times I check my checking account, unless win the lottery, or win some giant lawsuit, or inherit money from some mystery relative, no matter how many times I check my checking account I'm still poor.
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Post by X factor on Oct 14, 2021 21:51:13 GMT -5
It's odd, seems no matter how small you are, how little you actually own or have, seems there's always someone else out there lurking who wants it.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 7:21:13 GMT -5
I hate traveling
I hate traveling.
Told someone, a relative, that I may fly out to where they are, but now I regret saying that, I was a bit drunk at the time.
I hate traveling, haven't in a long time, and can only imagine how crazy it is to do so now under this covid crap, at least in blue states.
No telling what kind of covid, vaccine requirements different airports and states have, then when I get there, more local blue state mandate BS.
I don't know, I can always say 'no', can always change my mind.
I'd actually rather drive, but not looking to have a snowball negative effect, where one thing after another just starts going wrong.
I take care of myself, if I fall there's no one to pick me up, yet other people do have others, yet in the end expect me to rise up to the occasion...yet never there me emotionally.
I just don't know, told job I work for that needed time off, just not sure what to do now.
The world is just different now, I'm older now, not as adventurous, more settled into my ways.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 7:26:06 GMT -5
I've always been a nice decent person, live a simple boring life, it's when you allow other people's issues and complications to slide into your life that things get messy
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 7:33:37 GMT -5
One thing being alone has taught me, and that is don't do stuff that's stressful, if it causes stress, then that means it's usually wrong or bad.
I mean there's good stress to I suppose, as in nervous to meet someone you like, or etc.
I'm just one, other people have families, sons, daughters, Uncles, brothers ext, where as I really have no such active relationships in my life, it's basically just me and my employers paychecks that keeps me above water, I have zero emotional support from anyone, yet I sustain myself somehow.
I've gotta see how my mood unfolds during the day to decide what I should do, will not do anything though that conflicts with my own well being.
Just to old to do that, and not emotionally invested in anyone enough to put self at risk.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 7:35:53 GMT -5
I'm as healthy as I am at my age cause I don't stress and get plenty of rest, even though I still drink, but counter that with a OK diet and plenty of rest, and working out.
Well I workout just enough to not be out of shape.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 8:01:33 GMT -5
Also, been relatively healthy this whole time of covid cause outside of job, I don't travel, I don't go anywhere or visit anyone.
Now if I up and travel over 2500 miles, then what?
Different climate, different people, cold freezing weather, what impact would that have on my health?
I don't have health insurance or anything so I have to think about stuff like that, and if I'm not healthy and can't pay my bills, then what?
No ones, not a single soul on this planet, will pay my bills for me, not a soul.
As I get older, forced to think about stuff like that.
And not blessed to have a large family up under me or even around me, it's just me, not even a dog or cat.
As so, no wonder I'm so guarded about self, and rightly so.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 8:06:01 GMT -5
I'm still here and solid, cause I live a steady life, but no one cares, not invited into any circles, ignored by all of family, yet when people run out of options in their own life who do they call?...who do they burden?
No one thinks to call me when things are good, only when things go bad, well what about me, my life, or what I could be in the middle of?
But I'm not mean, I'm not mean but I am realistic and careful cause life has taught me to be that way as I've aged.
Life is not like a movie where when you do good, 3 days later you're rewarded with winning the lottery or something, no, at least in my life, more times than not, when I do good or help others, if anything things get worse, and the only person to dig self out of worse is myself.
As such I have a right to be way more guarded now on how I spend my resorces, and me, myself and I, is my greatest and only resource as of now.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 8:08:49 GMT -5
I will lay still and be calm for about one more hour, then will begin my day, cause it's all about rest, resting the mind and body, the first key to health, then I'll get up, get dressed and figure out how to navigate this complex problem.
Also willing to fly another person out there in my place.
Again, I don't like to travel, that's where danger begins, that's when around other people who's behavior and emotions you cannot control, dealing with lunatics, the insane, criminals, other people who judge you in a bad way, ugly attitudes, ugly behaviors, accidents, mishaps and more.
When younger all of the above seemed fun and challenging to face, now that older would rather avoid it all.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 8:10:13 GMT -5
It's what happens when others don't invest time or love into another, you get me.
Someone who has to make logical decisions rather than emotional ones, you get me.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2021 8:15:29 GMT -5
Continued from above....
And maybe that's called being selfish? but is it?
Selfish or self-preservation?
I think selfish is when you're around others, have been around others, have been helped by others, and then fail to act when should, but if have been emotionally and fiscally and socially, isolated from others, then asked to do something out of the blue, that's different.
If you don't invest in a bank, then go to withdraw money, why would you expect anything to be there?
It's the same with people I suppose.
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Post by X factor on Nov 19, 2021 23:37:55 GMT -5
Some times it's best not to get to popular, cause when, if, you do, some times all it does is spurn jealousy.
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Post by X factor on Nov 26, 2021 7:07:48 GMT -5
Just wish I could sit next to heater all day and not move, little ankle level space heater, if could just sit here all day, and not move, I'd be happy.
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Post by X factor on Nov 30, 2021 0:38:19 GMT -5
 It would be nice if everyone had a maid or cook like Alice, from the Brady Bunch, to look after us daily, cook meals and clean up... A blast from the past, above post from 2015, good ole Alice. Anyways, speaking of cleaning, don't make the mistake of starting a cleaning task late at night cause sometimes you make more of a mess cleaning up, than you expected to, or at least I did. Cleaned bed, my bed isn't normal, my bed is more of a futon with two large bags stuffed with 'stuff', which serve multiple purposes for me, the main purpose is it give the bed 'terrain', cause I can't sleep flat, legs, limbs, have to be elevated, I sleep way better that way, body feels way better when wake up, sleep flat is for the birds. In addition to the bags, clothing, just stuff, that piles up after a while, so dice roll on 'to do list', chose 'clean bed', so I did, and boy was it more of a task than I counted for. Actually though, put 'bed' on list cause had a hunch item I was looking for was in that mess somewhere, and it was, and once I found I felt like stopping but continued, glad I did now, but feel 'spent'. Not sure what it is about cleaning that just saps you of your energy more than anything else. Can work all day, and not as tired as I feel after one hour of cleaning. When younger, I use to laugh at those who needed or hired maids, like Alice above, now not even sure how Alice the maid was able to take care of that large Brady Bunch house...I mean think about it.. Things to clean in the Brady Bunch house..  1. Upstairs, downstairs 2. the stairs 3. the kitchen 4. All the bedrooms 5. All the carpet 6. All the beds that needed making, linin changed 7. Laundry 8. Cooking, the dishes 9. The multiple bathrooms that needed cleaning 10. The yard, the grass 11. The garage And could go on and on and on. Hopefully the parents made the hobbits clean up as well, or Alice would of been overwhelmed, I know I would be, I live in a much smaller place and can never seem to get caught up on cleaning. And no matter what you do, dust always seems to find it's way inside, I guess cause homes have to breath, which means air has to circulate or we'd sufficate, and with air comes particles of dust. Anyways, If ever so lucky to win the lottery, and while still healthier enough, have the mindset enough to care, I'd love to buy 100 acres, and have the homes of the families I grew up watching replicated on that property. 1. A Brady Bunch home 2. Sanford and Son home 3. Leave it to Beaver home Let's see, what other homes did I grow up watching? Those are the 3 that stand out to me, wasn't a Cosby home type of person, which to me looked like Archie Bunkers home, which looked like 'Give me a Break' home, all those NE row house homes had the same interior. And never impressed with the Jefferson's interior layout, seemed bland. As did the interior of many of the TV homes of the 90's. Anyways, it's getting late, time to wrap this post up. |
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