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Post by X factor on Jun 12, 2020 4:51:33 GMT -5
It's evil when you think about it. OK, finally get dream job, but to get to job I have to commute a bit...dream job finally. But like the 'gods that be' want me to decide whether keeping job worth me spending a gob of money on another vehicle....to which then wouldn't be able to afford to move out of here which I've been trying to do for last 4 years, but every time lease end comes, I never have enough saved up cause stupid stuff like above happens just before. Moving costs a lot of money now, especially if don't have the best of credit, that means wherever your moving, they're gonna want a higher deposit, a higher everything. It takes 5 gran to move now, between van rental, deposits, loss time at work, and more, moving team, it adds up. And if don't have that than have to resign lease, where rent keeps going up, but since 'grandfathered' in already, you're able to stay. It's cruel, especially as you age and just don't have the 'fire' had when younger, like a younger Rocky, when he was hungry. The system, the powers that be, seems they just delight in me staying 'small', or stuck, in this 'cube', where things just keep repeating themselves. And I'm tired of it, I'm telling you I'm tired of it. The system wants me to waste gob of money on car, months before lease ends, so that will have to stay another year here. It's like I'm being toyed with by 'the powers that be'. But then if I resign from this dream job of only working 3 days a week, no garuntee I'd ever get such a schedule again in my life. 3 days on, 4 days off, what a dream!, cause it's like you're on vacation every week of the year! And now it's like the evil gods that be, are testing me. 'How much are you willing to sacrifice for this job, you stupid human?  they, the 'funny spirits' ask with twisted intent. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 12, 2020 5:00:49 GMT -5
There's a job, right around the corner from me, it to pays decent, but the difference is is it's within walking distance, biking distance, on bike could be there in around 4 minutes, then wouldn't need a car and could continue to save money...I could earn between 7-8 a week....but the downside would be that I'd be working more days per week, but at least wouldn't have to spend 4 gran on a vehicle, so at that rate, by ends year, would have decent amount saved up.
Is that where the 'gateway and valves' are trying to lead me???
Is working more days a week worth it if at by end of year have a lot more money saved up?
Or would something doubly as bad simply go wrong, and still I'd end up spending money on some unplanned tragic event?
I don't know?
And not sure if one can ever outwit those who control our fate.
I mean ye sure, I quit, and take job around the corner, but what if get in accident at new job, then what?
I don't know...I can't control fate.
I do know I don't feel like spending 4 gran on a new car simply to go to a job.
Or could get motorcycle, but then would probably wreck, end up crippled, so can already see that writing.
I just don't know.
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Post by X factor on Jun 12, 2020 5:07:46 GMT -5
Escaping this hellish area is all I really want anymore...but every time I have to dump money into a car, or this or that, it keeps me here in this social desert, and another year of life passes with no results, another year of ever so declining health.
This 'gate and valve' monster, like it's trying to keep me it's hostage.
Hell, if could just save up______ in cash, could either by land and a used RV, and live so much cheaper....but never seem to get that far cause stupid stuff always occurs to gobble up my savings....It really is cruel.
And these 'gates and valve' gods, always lead me to the most greedy, dishonest mechanics.
Or greedy and dishonest salesperson, but never to a nice giving angelic type or types.
Right now, I just don't feel loyal to anything or anyone, and not sure if willing to spend a gob of money just to go to work, I mean the job schedule is good, but it's not like the pay is making me rich or anything.
I don't know...I just do not know.
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Post by X factor on Jun 12, 2020 5:29:49 GMT -5
Tired of being a slave to crappy cars just to get you to crappy job
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Post by X factor on Jul 15, 2020 9:43:17 GMT -5
You're so not in control
Exit points, gateways and collisions.
1 example of this is you walk outside, hoping to avoid everyone and everything, you wait and wait, delay, until you think time is right, you even look out the window.
Once certain it's safe for you to retrieve item from car, or go to post office, or check mail, the minute you're 10 feet away from place 3 other people all converge at once, people you didn't even want to know you existed, all randomly collide at once....and every one of them probably thinking the exact same thing.
'Oh why did I have to run into such and such today?'
And that's just one example.
Or you happen to step outside right when vehicle loaded with cameras passes by, now you're etched onto someone mapping system forever, but if you had planned to do that, planned to be stepping into road right when camera google car or whatever came by, it would of never happened.
None of us are in control, rather things, we, are being guided by remote control by forces unknown to us and placed where they want, need, us to be for other things to occur down the road or at that moment.
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Post by X factor on Dec 2, 2020 15:51:40 GMT -5
Example of 'gateway'
I went to store, upon driving home, noticed I left behind about a $2.50 item.
Do I go back, and retrieve this item or leave it?
And if I went back, say I got in accident that when all done and said would of cost me $4000.00, maybe a injury, would that $2.50 cent item have been worth going back for?
I guess I'll never know cause didn't go back.
Causes it's often times by 'going back' that then evil tries to get you a second time, where they may have missed the first.
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Post by X factor on Feb 8, 2021 14:52:16 GMT -5
Had a gateway incident the other night or early morning
I get off late, so when come home all is quiet and dark, can feel eerie at times..for whether a male of female, getting out of car early in the morning or late at night, alone, can be risky, cause you never know who may be hiding waiting to ambush, some drug addict, ect.
So went inside, got halfway undressed and settled in and realized left cell phone in vehicle, and so had to make a decision.
a. Go back outside, in the dark, into parking lot and get phone, thus risking something occurring? (gateway)
b. Just leave phone in vehicle and get in the morning when safer to do so, but then risk someone stealing it if left like on dashboard.
Well I chose to go out and retrieve the phone, but took precautions just in case indeed it was one of those 'gate way' life changing moments.
Just remember, usually when ever you have to 'double back' for anything, that's usually when the gateway is trying to 'get you', and make something either happen good, but usually bad, that would not have occurred had you not doubled back.
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Post by X factor on Feb 23, 2023 21:10:30 GMT -5
I think about 'exit points, gateways and collisions a lot now, I think you do the older you get.
Like on the way home, I just look at how things are arranged around me from traffic to the people I see on the streets, or standing in front of a store, and if stuff just doesn't feel right, I just stay inside of vehicle and keep on going.
Gateways, don't always mean something will be triggered, but when you pay attention to your surroundings, you can see the potential for something to go badly wrong, and or maybe even right.
One thing about me, I don't like being followed closely by another vehicle 'Tailgaters', and or at night, I will not go to any corner store where dudes are hanging out by the doorway, and that's something you see a lot in urban areas.
Night ghouls, who just seem to hang out in front of corner stores, no thanks, not interested.
Anyways, tonight one of those nights I just came straight home, even though I had Amazon packet I could of picked up, but nothing seemed right, so just came on home.
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Post by X factor on Mar 1, 2023 4:30:14 GMT -5
Sometimes bad things need to happen to you for better things to happen down the roa  |
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Post by X factor on Mar 12, 2023 2:30:31 GMT -5
Emotional gateways can be some of the most deadliest traps
Emotional gateways can be some of the most deadliest traps.
I say that because most everything we do begins and ends with emotions.
Action and behavior usually always follow our emotions.
Emotions can be trigger points, which lead to situational collisions..
Learn to control your emotions, and well, you'll make it much harder for the 'enemy' to snare you.
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Post by X factor on Jul 30, 2023 0:35:56 GMT -5
Even history, and great moments in time, will show that it's all about Gateways and collisions and or 'timing'
This is one of the oldest sections on here, but it still rings totally true, either in our own lives, or in history...it's all about timing, and gateways, and collisions that change the course of our lives, and or even ends lives.
I mean do you ever forget something in your car, go back outside, and like perfect timing, you run into or past your neighbor or someone else, that you'd rather not have?
Or if you live in a apartment, about to leave, and as soon as open and step out front door, here comes such and such walking right past your place.
And those are just to light examples, but what I'm saying is, is that they could ust as easily turn into major turning points in your life if fate so willed it.
More extreme examples are those who board airplanes that then crash, or those who attend events where mass shooting takes place, or those who enter into a sub, where the engine stops, sub sinks and implodes.
prior gateways, and collisions, led or lead every person to such incidents. It's all about steering us ever so closely here or there for that grand moment. But who is steering us, is the quesstion.
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they, the 'funny spirits' ask with twisted intent.