X factors blog and journal...

I'm still eating the Reese's peanut butter cup Halloween candy I got for Halloween, but since no one ever came, I'm slowly emptying the contents into my stomach.

Seems, it's when you start worrying about others, is when you fall.

I suspect my female, second story neighbor, spies on me as I walk around the kitchen at night naked



I suspect my second floor neighbor has been spying on me as I walk around the kitchen naked at night.
Their blinds are always wide open, mine are always shut, and their building slightly higher than mine, so even though my blinds are shut, I suspect they can look down into my place.

I actually did see someone in there tonight looking right over at my place, but the lights were off so they couldn't see that I was filming.
It was an older chubby white woman wearing glasses...hmm

What a day, haven't been myself lately.
So much has changed, my environment, my immediate future and more.
Even when I drink now, it feels different.

I think I know where I want to go, but with my past life history, there's no guarantee I'll get there.

I lost my last place to a fire, and it's been frustrating trying to get my footing back, just stuff you lose, items, that you can't replace, or that they don't make anymore.

It would be easy for me to become a hardcore drunk right now, or even slip into 'weed', it's one reason I enrolled in a film school, an accelerated one, as a way of keeping me focused and accountable to others, and to get my money's worth...after all, I'm the one who paid for this school, if I fail, I'd be cheating only myself.

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I haven't worked in months now, but never been so busy, with school, projects, reading, learning and other related stuff.
Amazing how dumb some jobs can keep you, some industries, particularly in the blue-collar world, can keep you.
Then one day you just say 'enough', and take a chance at trying something different.
In my case will it work? Who knows?

People dying left and right, and many are younger than me.
This forum blog is over 10 years old now, wow, and many have passed away since and during.
No one ever thought this obscure hard to find blog would still be around, probably not even me.
I should enter it into the Guinness book of world records.

Anyways, one thing for sure, writing, writing about anything is now and probably always be my greatest form of therapy.

These rappers, seem to have more effect on people than Pastors, but in a good way



1. They're all sober...you can't be stoned, high or drunk and write and speak such tight lyrics.

So, if want to be good at your chosen craft, follow their lead...a sober mind can do more for you than a stoned, high or drunk mind can.

These pages, here in the zone, the backdrop, all of it, have been with me through so many years, over 10 years...so much thought, time, and energy laid out on these pages.
I wonder if a way I could save them...maybe I'll reach out to the big haunchos and ask.

Walk it like a dog, what a oldie but goodie drone classic



Ahh, the early days of drone flying.