Who knows, cause it feels more spiritual than it does flesh, and not sure if flesh can ever be 'spirit'.
Some people just seem to have 'channels', others do not.
Like remote control cars, depends on who's guiding you I suppose.
Regardless of make up, regardless of DNA, just seems to depend on whatever is guiding your particular life.
If the one guiding you is stupid, dumb, than seems you'll never ever succeed, regardless of personal effort or will, or could be outright dumb, immoral and rotten, but if the one guiding you is smart and keen, seems you can do no wrong and prosper anyways.
I know I'm not evil or bad, cause when I 'act' evil or bad, I then feel bad.
Like most others, can be protective of own sensibilities, protective of own emotions, but I'm not bad or evil.
I know this cause outside of what others, in the past, may think of me, outside of their own opinion of whom they may think I am, there's no 'trail' of me being bad or evil to anyone.
No record of it or anything, cause it doesn't occur.
Sometimes I can be bad and evil to self though, in the form of neglect.
But because I matter not to anyone, even my neglecting self doesn't effect no one else.
If I vanished tomorrow, the only place I'd be missed, is where I work, and then only for a quick minute, not cause of who I am, or my spirit, but simply for the labor I provide, which would be instantly replaced.
And remember, just because another doesn't like you, doesn't mean your bad or evil.
If black, and racist don't like you, does not mean you're bad or evil.
If you're white, and ISIS doesn't like you, doesn't mean your bad or evil.
If LGBTQ, and others despise you just for existing in the state you exist in, others disdain for what they think your represent doesn't make or mean that you're bad or evil.
If a Ohio State fan, and the fans of Michigan don't like you, that doesn't mean the fans of Ohio State or bad or evil.
I can't help if others don't like me, but if I've never done anything to warrant that dislike, than if anything it means they're the ones screwed in the head.
And yes, that sounds all good and all, but in reality, it doesn't matter, cause people who don't like you can cause a lot of damage to your reputation, whether true or not, doesn't matter, and never really has.
You can only take solice if no actually trail of evil, like breaking the law, committing a crime or crimes ect.
If someone hates u simply for having purple hair, and male, than that doesn't mean your evil, their perception of what they think that purple hair might represent is 'evil' to them, but unless they confirm what it means to you, there's nothing you can do about what's suck in their mind.
Anyways, back to basics.
I know I'm not evil cause I don't enjoy being evil, evil people actually enjoy being evil and treating others poorly.
When truly evil there's never a sense of 'Well maybe I shouldn't of done that or said that'.
When truly evil it's always the other persons fault, always.
And impulse behavior is not evil, as in if react immediately to someone calling you a name, then respond, then it elevates, then walk away (or can occur online)
Same as road rage, but once incident done and over, there's no lingering sense of hostility or wanting revenge.
Evil loves seeking revenge.
But if there's no 'God', no divine God that can reward people for being good, than sometimes I wonder what does any of it matter.
During peaceful times, like now, when have time to sit and think away from all of the industrial noise of the day, week, I find self wanting to return to the spiritual.
Industrial life is such a distraction, TV, commercials, stores, the brainwashed need to want to shop all of the time, buy this, buy that, it's all such a distraction.
Life is like a large stadium you enter when born, one way in, one way out (in this example), a large stadium with only one door.
You enter this stadium at birth, allowed to run around and explore, learn, but as you age forget about the entrance way into the stadium, you run around stadium, perform tasks, live, have fun, chase things, but then as you start wearing down, you realize no matter how distracted you are while in stadium, there's still only one way in and one way out.
The stadium is life, some of us have spectators, famous people, others of us do not, average day to day types, but either way only one way in, and one way out.
The older you get, the more you start paying attention to the entrance way again, or now it becomes a exit, and sooner or later you have to exit, no matter what, as such start thinking about the doorway more and more and what's on the other side.
As I age, I realize as an average person, I've pretty much played all the games I can play in life, with limited funds and support, love ext, there's really nothing more other than day to day 'noise', going through the motion of doing what a good citizen of any nation should do, and that is work to support Government and economy until physically to exhausted to carry on, to which then you're just discarded and forced back out of the stadium.
Spirituality is trying to explore what's on the other side of stadium while still within the stadium.
Spirituality can comfort, when man no longer can, when mans systems no longer can.
Spirituality is a individual thing, religion is a group thing or idea, religion is like a spiritual Government, with rules, chain of command and so forth.
As a person who's alone, spirituality appeals more to me.
Going to church and all, sitting in pews, being lectured to, just doesn't appeal to me anymore, than at end of sermon, give money away and told it's what 'god' wants you to do.
Church, Mosques ext, or more social, than spiritual, to me, you go there if want socialization or enjoy enter action with others.
But if just want to be left alone, to sort things out along, spirituality is more appealing.
Cause when I die, body expires, the whole church or congregations isn't following me through those stadium doors.
Right now, I don't have a 'message' for anyone other than myself, since alone, and besides, here on earth it seems all so called messages are proceeded by the need for money, whether Author selling a book, or Pastor preaching a Sermon, in the end it all involves the taking of other peoples money 'For the cause'...that's religion today.
Not sure how many Pastors would be preaching today if no money involved, the way Jesus spoke of in New Testiment.
Jesus sure never got rich preaching, that's for sure, or tried to, nor did his Apostles.
But in todays world, obviously you need money to survive, as an individual or as a group, so that in and of itself is not a bad thing.
Anyways, I may start 'praying' again, and asking for guidance, from whatever is on the other side of stadium.
Or there could be invisible 'beings' inside the stadium with me, us, who play right along side us.
The scary thing about prayer, to me, is making sure that whatever responds to it, isn't 'bad' or has dark intent.
To me, if not careful, prayer can be as dangerous as playing with a Ouija board, in that open self up to whatever, and trust that 'whatever' is actually good and looking out for you.
It's why Christians always pray to a specific name 'In Jesus name, Amen', and so forth, and so do Muslims, Catholics, ext.
That way identifying specific deity praying to, with known character.
Even that's no guarantee of 'peace', in that suicide bombers always pray, before then driving into Mosque, or crowded street, and killing others in the name of their 'god'...hmm.
Seems blowing up others, and self, is a command more that Satan would give, not a loving God.
And people of all faiths, and religions seem to do quirky stuff at times, and justify it through their chosen faith or religion.
When you're lonely, you don't mind when spirit creatures wrestle with you at night, cause no one else will.
That movie 'The entity', where that lady had a big fit cause some spirit being kept making love to her at night, what a brat I say, what a spoiled brat, I mean if I had been that lady and some spirit being wanted to wrestle with me at night, what would I care?...it's affection, the way I see it.
I'd be flattered if some spirit being wrestled me at night.
Movies don't always portray how people react in reality.