With a bit more time on my hands lately, I'm sort of starting to get back into art again, art, if you remember, those readers who have been around long enough to, but ye art was originally the thrust of this site here, and almost every posting had 'art' to go along with it, some my own, some others.
But the above sums up a lot for the way others perceive me, I think anyways, in that I see myself as being a true kind, beautiful soul, but when others see me, I think they see 'ugly things', and is why I'm so socially isolated.
It's like two different realities, two different reflections, in that I don't see the 'spider' I'm riding atop, but others do, and so keep their distance.
So I'm always saying 'Gee, why don't people like me?', and it's cause they see this horrible thing around me, like a force that won't let others approach, that makes others run....but again I don't see it at all and left scratching head.
That's what's depicted in above 'art', another artist will understand, others will be like 'huh?'.
And to be fair, I can't even really call myself an artist, I simply use digital tools available to all, to enhance or morph every day normal images of either self or others or scenes.
A true artist needs no tell other than a brush or a pen or pencil.
I could be that type of artist also, but true art these days is so time consuming.
I remember like in art class you'd have a whole semester to complete a project, who has that kind of time or patients anymore, unless getting paid to do so.
Heck, now days if it takes me more than 5 minutes to draw something I get bored and feel like I'm wasting time.