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Post by X factor on Jun 15, 2021 23:48:53 GMT -5
I'm not mentally ill, I'm just expressive  And according to Dr Chad Bong Zong, closet monsters can't digest humans, so humans pass through their digestive tracks unscathed in about 2 hours, but will need a bath or shower afterwards for sure.
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Post by X factor on Jul 2, 2021 19:56:03 GMT -5
When here this song, the Spanish speaking guy sounds so much more soft, soxier, than most women to me
Just saying, the Spanish speaking guy, or human, to me seems thin and cute, compared to husky thick voiced black females I see at store.
I love this song here.
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Post by X factor on Jul 14, 2021 6:23:03 GMT -5
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Post by X factor on Aug 21, 2021 7:12:50 GMT -5
Please be nice to me 'Today'  Please be nice to me 'Today', I'm not tough, I'm not mean, I'm just alive. Please be nice to me 'Today'. Please, all I want is a hug sometimes, life is very cold, and ice like, when abandoned, but I still must go on. Please be nice to me 'Today'. My soul is soft as cotton, and the world is like a 'match' to me, always trying to burn my soul. Please be nice to me 'Today'. Please.
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Post by X factor on Sept 27, 2021 5:37:50 GMT -5
Some times I lay awake at night feeling absolutely useless to me self.
Not just useless but even self destructive at times.
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Post by X factor on Sept 27, 2021 5:41:25 GMT -5
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Post by X factor on Oct 5, 2021 23:41:30 GMT -5
visual art helps some to work through issues.
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Post by X factor on Oct 11, 2021 23:39:46 GMT -5
I feel like I'm 'waking up right now'Like have been under a trance, maybe a alcohol induced one, I don't know, or a mood based one, who knows, I just feel like I'm 'waking up'. I feel like I have to, in order to live and go forward. I've also learned going back into your past and trying to reconnect with those who no longer care about you can be destructive to your mental health and vitality. Better to be alone than to force yourself onto people who could give a dam about you. I'm in a very weird zone or spot right now, not sure how to feel about anything. Don't feel like drinking, so can't escape that way, so forced to just deal with 'emotionally now'. Body chemistry is weird, brain chemistry is weird. moods are weird. I'm not sure where I'm going from here, referring to my mental and moral state of being. It almost feels as if I'm evaporating into nothing.  In my mind, I feel like I'm in some large, cold, midevial castle or something.  Roaming the thoroughway's alone, the long dark passages and hallways alone, in the night, in the dark. Like a ghoul who's not sure if it's alive or dead. That's kind of what I feel like right now.
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Post by X factor on Oct 11, 2021 23:59:52 GMT -5
I feel like I'm 'waking up right now'Like have been under a trance, maybe a alcohol induced one, I don't know, or a mood based one, who knows, I just feel like I'm 'waking up'. I feel like I have to, in order to live and go forward. I've also learned going back into your past and trying to reconnect with those who no longer care about you can be destructive to your mental health and vitality. Better to be alone than to force yourself onto people who could give a dam about you. I'm in a very weird zone or spot right now, not sure how to feel about anything. Don't feel like drinking, so can't escape that way, so forced to just deal with 'emotionally now'. Body chemistry is weird, brain chemistry is weird. moods are weird. I'm not sure where I'm going from here, referring to my mental and moral state of being. It almost feels as if I'm evaporating into nothing. In my mind, I feel like I'm in some large, cold, midevial castle or something. Roaming the thoroughway's alone, the long dark passages and hallways alone, in the night, in the dark. Like a ghoul who's not sure if it's alive or dead. That's kind of what I feel like right now.
I think you've been allowing for alcohol to regulate your feelings.
And your subconscious mind, body, is just saying 'enough', if you want to live further, be healthy, and prosper.
When buzzed all the time, you don't really have to examine your emotions or feelings, cause you're either drinking, or asleep or in a slooper.
You're kind of different than most who drink though, in that you're already physically very healthy and acute, you drink, yet eat healthy and even exercise, so physically you seem more in shape than many who don't drink at all, but I do think it's taking a toll on your mind, which eventually effects the body, and your mood.
Self preservation always kicks in after a while, if sane, and also just a general love for life, even your own. |
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Post by X factor on Jan 9, 2022 20:17:00 GMT -5
Theater is what helps me to escape the mundane, dull, boring, day to day existence
I just find it more fun to create, be apart of a creation, than to watch what others have created on Tv/Movies.
Not all the time, but will say this, how lucky are those who get paid to 'escape' into different characters for a living, oh how lucky they are.
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 12:56:00 GMT -5
 This may sound odd, but this place is for odd thoughts. And one can only evaluate their own life. But I notice when I think of self as a colorful sissy thing, my health is good. But when think of self as normal hetero dull normal male, that's when health begins to go bad. Doc = Why do you think that is? I think its cause when I see self as a colorful sissy thing, I care more about the smaller details of self, kind of like how women like to groom all the time and notice every detail of their body, at least most. Where as older males tend to let themselves go physically, at least most. And I think the brain picks up on that, the more you care about self, like self, the longer you'll live. And if attractive to self, not to others, but to self, than I think it makes your immune system stronger. Doc = Who told you that? No one, but based on real life occurances and notes, and comparing periods of my life and health, it's just a thought that came to my mind. When I'm sissy and submissive to self and other inner spirits, my health is fine, but as soon as I try to act normal, think I'm normal, was meant to be normal, I start having bouts with death, medical bouts and all. Doc = None of what you just said is scientific |
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 13:25:30 GMT -5
This may sound odd, but this place is for odd thoughts. And one can only evaluate their own life. But I notice when I think of self as a colorful sissy thing, my health is good. But when think of self as normal hetero dull normal male, that's when health begins to go bad. Doc = Why do you think that is? I think its cause when I see self as a colorful sissy thing, I care more about the smaller details of self, kind of like how women like to groom all the time and notice every detail of their body, at least most. Where as older males tend to let themselves go physically, at least most. And I think the brain picks up on that, the more you care about self, like self, the longer you'll live. And if attractive to self, not to others, but to self, than I think it makes your immune system stronger. Doc = Who told you that? No one, but based on real life occurances and notes, and comparing periods of my life and health, it's just a thought that came to my mind. When I'm sissy and submissive to self and other inner spirits, my health is fine, but as soon as I try to act normal, think I'm normal, was meant to be normal, I start having bouts with death, medical bouts and all. Doc = None of what you just said is scientific
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Your being a sissy or not, has nothing to do with your health, no wonder you're dizzy for even thinking that. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 21, 2022 23:55:31 GMT -5
I'm in the weirdest state of health right now.
1. My mind is tired, spent, wore out
2. yet my body still has energy.
3. body aches, muscles ache, have been for the last week or so
So, my mind is tired, wore out, yet my body has energy, yet even though body has energy I'm in a bit of muscular pain.
I think I need a aspirin.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 2:21:47 GMT -5
'I' the dizzy sissy, want to be thin  Coming soon to a dizzy sissy theater near you, a more thinner version of self, I, the dizzy sissy.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 2:29:56 GMT -5
'I' the dizzy sissy, want to be thin Coming soon to a dizzy sissy theater near you, a more thinner version of self, I, the dizzy sissy.  This section doesn't care that you want to be thin, you really are dizzy and a sissy cause you posted this in the wrong section. Hopefully your brain isn't thinning out also. Now take your sissy legs and twinkle feet to bed before I call in the guards.  |
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