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Today
Jun 9, 2022 6:20:41 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 9, 2022 6:20:41 GMT -5
Today is already winding up, gearing up, to be bad to me
I feel like mince meat already, and haven't even stepped out into the world yet today, but I feel like mince meat already.
No wonder I just stay home all the time when I can.
The world is a big place with lots of uncontrollable variables...
And as soon as we step out the front door, everything bad seems to want a piece of us.
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Today
Jun 9, 2022 22:24:56 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 9, 2022 22:24:56 GMT -5
When today was tomorrow I didn't like it, but now that yesterdays tomorrow has turned into today, now I like it and wish it would last forever
Tomorrow I don't like, until it turns into 'today', and I've made it.
And today, will soon be yesterday.
It's a revolving thing I suppose.
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Today
Jun 11, 2022 21:54:07 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 11, 2022 21:54:07 GMT -5
Haven't had a day where I have felt this 'dud' and flat in a long time, nothing seemed to be able to spark me today, I've been emotionally flat all day, like somethings missing. Even went out to the store, that barely helped at all. I feel like people look at me funny and I look right back at them like they're funny or odd. 3oo years from now, will churches still be preaching the return of Jesus? Anyways, I'm physically here today, but not sure where my spirit is.  |
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Today
Jun 13, 2022 12:17:42 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 13, 2022 12:17:42 GMT -5
This is how I feel today, like I've lost
I feel like I've lost, and there's nothing I can do about it, cause my spirit is demoralized and down.
Just like the character in the video.
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Today
Jun 28, 2022 12:37:04 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 28, 2022 12:37:04 GMT -5
 I don't feel so hot today, cause I drank yesterday, and as usual made a fool out of myself by over promising and under delivering. That's what lonliness will do to you though, and the only cure to lonliness is to not be lonely. And now, today will be a total waste, cause not in the mood or mindset to do anything today, today is simply a recovery day for me. |
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Today
Jun 28, 2022 23:28:11 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jun 28, 2022 23:28:11 GMT -5
i'm going to miss today
It's pretty much time for bed, damit.
Tomorrow sucks, already.
And tomorrow can't, won't, give me anything today didn't.
U time..I really do, I hate time.
Time is my enemy, it's everyones enemy actually.
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Today
Jul 4, 2022 9:43:49 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jul 4, 2022 9:43:49 GMT -5
Today is still young, can I get off my lazy butt and salvage the day yet?
I hope so.
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Today
Jul 6, 2022 21:35:52 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Jul 6, 2022 21:35:52 GMT -5
I go to bed feeling totally pulverized by today  Today wasn't really my friend, but tomorrow, as it looms, is even worse. I go to bed a loser tonight, I lost. I have nothing fun to hold onto right now. No love, nothing. I'll have to generate imaginary love to make myself feel loved, I guess.
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Today
Aug 3, 2022 20:27:00 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Aug 3, 2022 20:27:00 GMT -5
Hmm, today.
Started off with me feeling awful, do to drinking to much the night before, but as day has wound on, I feel better now, and of course don't want to let go of 'today'.
I have to work tomorrow and that really sucks, but might do me some good, will give me seperation from self-destructive habits...mainly drinking.
When I drink, I drink at home and alone, but it's where my mood goes after drinking that I don't like.
I get goofy, stupid, email stuff I shouldn't, say stuff I shouldn't...then next day feel like a utter fool.
I think I'll go to bed early tonight, just lay still and think, in the dark, with fans blowing.
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Today
Sept 26, 2022 7:44:06 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 26, 2022 7:44:06 GMT -5
How am I feeling today?
Just got done watching WWZ, a movie that came out in 2013, but just heard about it yesterday.
To come out in 2013, it sure had overtones to the pandemic, even people wearing masks in certain scenes.
When watching it, before I knew the release date, I just figured it was a post pandemic zombie/infected movie.
The movie doesn't feel dated at all.
That aside, today, I feel like I'm living in a zombie world, and that I'm sealed inside of my place both physically and phycologicaly or mentally....in that I feel emotionally cut off from the world around me or 'out there'.
I mean with crime, criminals, and other stuff occurring in society, who needs zombies to be scared and or frightened to step outside.
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Today
Sept 26, 2022 7:45:30 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 26, 2022 7:45:30 GMT -5
Just the act of turning my phone on seems horrifying to me right now.
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Today
Sept 26, 2022 8:18:47 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 26, 2022 8:18:47 GMT -5
I feel small right now, and don't feel like facing the day.
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Today
Sept 26, 2022 23:08:10 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 26, 2022 23:08:10 GMT -5
I just vomited today.
Woke up and literally vomited.
All over tile floor.
Oh ghosh...
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Today
Oct 11, 2022 20:28:10 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Oct 11, 2022 20:28:10 GMT -5
I go to bed feeling defeated today, today just wasn't very good to me.
Of course all or most reality exists within our minds.
So maybe I should it was my mood and mind that wasn't so kind to me today, but not the day itself.
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Today
Oct 19, 2022 22:53:17 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Oct 19, 2022 22:53:17 GMT -5
I can't get nothing more out of today, today is done with me..
I'm a wretched left over mess, or is how I feel right now, so may as well succumb to the night, and let tomorrow grab me, eat me, and swallow me up.
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