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Post by X factor on Jul 8, 2023 10:59:52 GMT -5
Well, I'm still clocked in, but at home. They cancelled part of my trip, and so came home, cause next pick up isn't for a while. I don't mind, cause just didn't feel like driving around today. So I have a few hours to just do whatever.. I know one thing, people are no where near ready to give up their vehicles, I mean cars and traffic everywhere...ust as many people going as coming.  This idea that we always have to go somewhere is foreign to me, cause when I'm home, I'm home. And maybe cause I don't have a life, not a fun one anyways. |
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Post by X factor on Jul 9, 2023 9:25:55 GMT -5
It's Saturday  Yep, it's Saturday, and hot and muggy. I need to go exercise, and best to do so outside, but wow, it get's hot and muggy so quickly now that it's summer. I usually go to the park, maybe I'll try another spot today. Exercise is good, but stretching is near almost better, and both, together, can't loose. Anyhow, as hot as it is out, I need to go shed some weight and caleries. It's Saturday.
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Post by X factor on Sept 16, 2023 16:04:28 GMT -5
I sit here dumbfounded right now.
I got off work early today do to malfunctioning of work equipment, yet now that home, totally adrift.
I'm off till Thursday, yet mind is empty right now.
Usually alcohol would be the answer, in that is can jump start your time off for you, but I don't want to go that route, just yet.
Of course, there's a lot that has happened that I'm leaving out.
Yesterday, I was off, but rented a Dodge Challenger to drive to a 'wake', but once there felt like a stranger to my family, whom haven't seen for probably a decade or so.
It went terrible for me, didn't get introduced to the one I wanted to meet the most, I spent a ton of money to rent car and gave out cash gifts, yet not so much as a thank you from any of them??
Anyways, my minds just adrift now as I got to find myself again, cause been so wrapped up in other peoples BS for the last few weeks.
I gotta find myself again, and stop dumping all my energies into others who could give a dam about me.
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Post by X factor on Oct 7, 2023 21:43:13 GMT -5
Saturday  I almost kind of felt like going out tonight, as I drove through the city finishing up my shift, but nah, in the end, I didn't. I really stopped going out about 5 years ago or so, not sure why. I think back when did go out, I had a higher paying job, which gave me confidence, cause would buy people drinks, tip large, and never worry about money, but once I lost that job, my self-esteem and confidence just dropped. Throwing money around like I didn't need it, just made me feel good, but now I need the money and so don't throw it around nearly as much...lol.. Yep, it's Saturday, and I'm home alone, and bored as usual, as other people around the city are having wild steps, probably...oh well...poor poor me.
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Post by X factor on Jan 27, 2024 23:18:08 GMT -5
It's Saturday night It's Saturday night, I worked today, been off, home, for about an hour or so. I haven't gone out on a Saturday night in years, those days feel so behind me, but they don't have to be. All the places I used to go to have since closed down, and I just haven't been in the spirit to go out lately. It's only fun going out when you have lots of cash, and a decent car. No fun going out when you feel like you're near broke, or going broke in slow motion. ----------------------------- Yep, it's Saturday night, about to lay back and watch a few movies; although I never watch whole movies from beginning to end hardly anymore. I usually watch 10 minutes here, 15 minutes there, of another movie, and so forth. A movie really has to be good for me to watch all the way through. And most movies I watch now, I've seen before, cause it's so hard to find new ones worth my time. Anyways, time to lay back and give the brain a rest. It's Saturday night in January, I think.
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Post by X factor on Jun 22, 2024 12:05:07 GMT -5
Saturday notes Well, it's Saturday and I'm still here, sometimes not sure why. Maybe not the best attitude to have, but when single, alone and have no family of your own, you do have thoughts like that, at times. I try to keep myself busy by doing this or that, but sometimes I'm like 'Who are you hobbitding?' Failure seems to be my benchmark, failure, let down and disappointment. Obviously not in the brightest mood right now, just finally got up out of air mattress, and it's already after 12 noon...wow. I don't really get going anyways, until after 4 pm. --------------------------------------------------- What's in the news today? A mass shooting in Arkansas..hmm, happened yesterday. And Boeing still has a space capsule in space that has issues, leaks, and so keep delaying return to earth. And the war between Israel and Hamas continues, and it's summertime. Time to get on with the day which will start with a trip to the bathroom.
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Post by X factor on Jul 6, 2024 17:02:35 GMT -5
It's Saturday It's Saturday, but I'm not in as glitzy of a mood as the above gif might indicate...in fact, the place where that gif was taken is no longer. I was forced to move out a few months ago do to an apartment fire...oh well. That aside, life goes on. I drove around today near and in and around the downtown area, and took some photos and videos. It was a beautiful day down by the water, but very hot and humid. Downtown was practically empty...when you live in a county this big, there's other places for people to go other than downtown. A few clubs maybe, book stores, and that's about it. But I grew up when down towns were still the cool place to go...not anymore, not for younger types anyways. I also put up some one way film tint today, I can see out, but you can't see in...I need to test it by standing naked against the window when neighbor pulls up, then I'll know if it works or not...  Anyways, just checking in on this summer Saturday, 2 days after the 4th of July.
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Post by X factor on Jul 13, 2024 21:35:12 GMT -5
Assassination attempt on Trump, tonight, if haven't already heard
They almost took Trump out tonight...wow...I say 'they' cause of course I'm sure there were others behind the lone gunman....we shall see.
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Post by X factor on Jul 20, 2024 14:15:10 GMT -5
It's Saturday It's Saturday, and I've been stuffed inside this room on computer all afternoon, I should go just do something outside this room for a while, but I'll wait till it cools down. That heat just knocks you back inside. ------------------------------ Ran an ad on C/L and as usual, always get the bottom of the social wrung who respond. Some drag queen type responded to a acting job I had posted, and turns out they're homeless and cars either in the shop or impounded...basically a needy person...needy people with nothing to lose and only stuff to gain by getting over on you can be dangerous to stability. They're homeless for a reason...drugs, booze, bad personality, irresponsible, it's something. You just don't go homeless for nothing, and lose your vehicle as well...it takes steps to get there. A homeless drag queen, hmm. If I were drunk I'd be all over that, as in calling them to do a interview or photo shoot, but since sober, as of late, I'm more careful. Anyways, it's Saturday..the above portrait taken today.
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Post by X factor on Jul 20, 2024 21:32:43 GMT -5
It's Saturday night It's Saturday night, people are out partying, making love, having sox, drinking, smoking pot, doing drugs, stealing, fighting, dancing, working and more, and here I sit in my room alone....working off of a 'to do list'. What a geeky life I lead. I even have a cool older sports care less than 30 feet away from me, parked, yet it sits idle on a Saturday night...wow...geeky me.
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Post by X factor on Sept 14, 2024 13:32:01 GMT -5
It's Saturday When life just starts coming at you hard from all directions, what do you do? Hardship doesn't care if you surrender...nor does evil. Evil never stops until you're dead, evil will never stop trying to drain you of your sanity until you're dead and gone. So, what do ya do in the meantime, fight? To fight, you have to have motivation...love, or even maybe a sense of revenge can help one fight back, I suppose. But if just you, alone and isolated, alienated, then what? Anyways, it's Saturday, laid in bed most of the morning, in and out of sleep tormenting myself with my 'mind monster'. I think most monsters live in our minds, so does god, heaven, hell, demons, and just about everything else that constructs our own personal realities. Anyways, it's Saturday, I have stuff to do. Things could change drastically for me here soon, hopefully for the better. I'd like to be settled before the full blunt of winter hits...meaning if I'm going to move, would rather do so soon while the weather is still somewhat moderate in most places.
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Post by X factor on Sept 21, 2024 12:50:12 GMT -5
It's Saturday! It's Saturday...what else can I say? The world continues to spin, and so does my head. I'll probably lay back down after this for a while. Already worked out, drank a few last night (stupid me) And now, I don't know...I'm a hostage to my own lazy habits and mind. I wish I could just stay in the Zone all day, here, the Twylight Zone...where it's always so safe, serene and calm. Time is moving way to fast, as of late. Anyways, it's Saturday.
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Post by X factor on Oct 12, 2024 7:51:27 GMT -5
It's Saturday It's Saturday and I feel like I've awakened into a dungeon of my own creating or creation...one of bad choices over the years, or past year, like it's all just come to a head. But unlike in the movies, there's no one to rush in and save me from my bad decisions, and the uncertainty that's fueled by those bad decisions. There's no Cavalry that's going to rush in and save me, I'm just not that special anymore to anyone.  Nope, no saving cavalry for me, I'm totally on my own. I don't even know what it's like to actually be cared for anymore, haven't had that feeling in decades. Anyways, I've got this day to prepare for a trip, I trip I should be happy about, but my mood, instead, has me feeling very skeptical. I just don't think I'm equipped with the right mental tools to make it in this world anymore, or ever. It's more like I've just managed to stumble my way through life, day by day, a stumbling fool.
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Post by X factor on Oct 26, 2024 13:56:22 GMT -5
It's Saturday It's Saturday, Halloween is near, and I'm in a better mood today than I deserve to be in. Not a perfect mood, but a better mood, not sure why, considering I've drank for like 2 nights out of the last 3, which usually destroys my mood and moral. But I've also still been working out, as I already did today. Now I feel like going and getting some fast food, why not. It's Saturday...lot's of day still left.
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Post by X factor on Nov 2, 2024 12:57:23 GMT -5
Went to the Peacan Park flea market...was thinking about renting a booth...to expensive.
Selling stuff is a lot of work, most people just walk right on by.
did I waste my time going there?
Probably...time, fuel...but I had to see for myself.
There's another flea market further away, it's cheaper, but still, flea markets, to be successful seller, takes a lot of work, set up, break down, gotta store stuff you don't sell, gotta always be buying stuff you hope to sell.
Takes a lot of work and motivation, not sure if I'm up to it based on my past performance in life.
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