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Post by X factor on Aug 20, 2023 18:33:11 GMT -5
Not sure if I'll ever get things right in this life of mine. Not sure if I'll ever find equilibrium.
Not sure if anyone ever does or can.
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Post by X factor on Dec 20, 2023 11:57:55 GMT -5
Not focusedNot focused, almost like afraid to focus. I'm the type just doesn't act until actually getting shoved off the cliff. There's so much stuff I could be doing to make my tomorrow better, but instead, I sit on my but, as if some magical dragon or ect, will come save me at the last minute. Women aren't the only ones who need saving, you know, or who dream about being saved and swept up by another. It takes a lot of energy to be a strong man all the time. Oh well, today is here, and I'm just not ready for it yet.
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Post by X factor on Dec 23, 2023 7:45:00 GMT -5
I know one thing, I've gotta think of ways of making myself happy or feel happy this holiday season or who knows. And I don't wanna find happiness through the bottle, cause that'll just make it worse.
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Post by X factor on Dec 26, 2023 21:13:19 GMT -5
My enthusiasm for life, the future, is leaving me, as of late.
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Post by X factor on Dec 26, 2023 21:18:31 GMT -5
I'm lost right now, and not afraid to admit it, I'm just lost, not sure where I'm going anymore, for many reasons, I suppose.
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Post by X factor on Dec 26, 2023 21:20:51 GMT -5
When I feel lost, as I do now, I try to, in my head, go back to the time I didn't feel lost, like a restore point on a computer.
I think overly focusing on tomorrow, or the future, is what has had me in an emotional pit, as of late. I think it's when I only focus on the 'now', that I'm most happiest and or content.
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Post by X factor on Jan 21, 2024 11:21:25 GMT -5
As a older male, I do get scared a lot now, nervous about my own future, and path in life. Once you lose your sox appeal as a male, and take on that older look, outside of maybe your own family (if lucky enough to have one), than you're nothing to society, unless rich.
If a poor, older, male, you're nothing to society, your usefulness as labor has passed, and then just become a soup kitchen type.
Oh well, will that be my reality soon?
Who knows, only fate does..
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Post by X factor on Feb 4, 2024 1:25:46 GMT -5
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