Male depression does exist

Male depression can come in many different forms, doesn't always have to be a mood or feeling, it can show itself in action as well, like just losing interest in every day things, like opening and reading mail, or cleaning up behind self, and things just start to pile up.

Living a same o, same o, day to day life can be a form of depression, where everyday feels the same, like living your life in a cage of circumstance.

I feel healthy, as healthy as can be at my age, I just have no juice right now.
Ended relationship maybe, and or the fact that I'm ending another project or hobby I so loved, I just feel flat right now, like nothing I attempt ever gains traction.

Credit score not so good, so I'm stuck in that spot where you need cash to buy anything, but can't get anything really nice do to credit score, which to me is should be dismantled.

So what if you have bad credit, you still have to live until you're dead.
And is why the system is breaking down, cause more and more people are just doing what they have to do to survive rather than following this system which denies so many, even if you follow all the rules.

People have just had enough, so more and more are just turning to crime and saying 'F it'.
We see it every day on YT videos.

Anyways, that aside, I sit here without a future direction right now.

If banks won't loan people money for homes, they'll just start saying 'screw it', I'm moving into this house anyways...and if already homeless, what's really going to happen?

This idea that to buy a house now days, you have to be a millionaire, is out and right demonic.

Yep, working out in the park does a body good



Just got back from the park.
I don't workout like no athlete, no way, I just do a few lapse, I walk, sometimes sprint, then I stretch, and use the fence as leverage.

I just do enough to keep my body thinking I still want to be young, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
It would help if I didn't then turn around and drink beer.

I can tell I'm depressed about something.
I think I'm ust starting to become overwhelmed with how ill prepared I am to deal with my own future, and or to really help anyone else.

I ust suddenly feel very small and puny.
Some are raking in millions, billions, and I'm basically earning less than I did 20 years ago.

Ye, not only was I earning more, when I worked, 20 years ago, but prices on everything were 1/3 what they are now...think about that??

What is there to get excited about knowing there's no end to your labor, other than death...or homelessness.?

No pension, no inheritance, nothing but my labor.
That thought has never gotten me down, but for some reason, for the last few months, when almost had to leave my current residents, it's been chewing at me.

The non labor rich class, they're moving to all the small cozy woodsey spots that in the past regular people could afford, then the silicon valley types move in and drive the price of everything up.

Florida used to have the cheapest rent in the nation, now look!
DeSantis keeps inviting in all these fortune 500 companies, and they're going to ruin Florida like they did WA State and Seattle, cause eventually all these companies become woke, and start effecting elections...

Anyways, I'm home now, after a long day of laboring, the conservative way right?, or the fools way??

Not depressed, but nor am I happy



Not really depressed, but nor am i happy.
I don't like the physiological mood I'm in, it's my own fault.
I drank yesterday, and that's why I feel this way.

I think it all really just depends on whom you have in your life supporting you, drinking, drunk, hang over or not, I think the more solid people you have in your life to plan with, the better you feel regardless.

People you can trust, rely on, ect.
If you don't have that, then even if don't drink, you'll still feel down at times, cause we're living in a scary world now.
Yes, the world has always been scary, but at least the U.S. was someone safer, but now, cities being overrun with human crime zombies.

______ people are destroying this nation.
Sorry, but not all Americans are good or decent.
And the wealthy are forcing the middle class, and working class, to have to live around human filth.
In that the wealthy buy up all the places that used to be affordable, and now the working or middle class have less and less places they, we, can escape to to get away from human filth that worship crime and disorder.

And now the cartels have got a foothold in America, because of this rotten, demonic administration.

it's sick what's happening, America is being torn apart in a way I never thought it could.
Those in elected office and those in the deep admin state or horrible people, horrible people who are stealing the soul right out of this nation, and the money as well.

Non profits are scoundrels as well, just look at Oakland.

Anyways, not having the most fun night, as I sit here alone and contemplate this world and my future in it.