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Post by X factor on Dec 16, 2020 1:17:39 GMT -5
I still wish it were Halloween, I miss Halloween, I wish October lasted all year long.  I so miss Halloween already. Xmas means nothing to me, I'm not loved by god or man, so Xmas means nothing to me..I so miss Halloween. Yes, this is my new Xmas, Halloween... I love that gif. |
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Post by X factor on Dec 16, 2020 1:20:43 GMT -5
Yes I can just relate to Halloween now better than I can Xmas  I'm not evil or anything, but Xmas is lonely when alone.
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Post by X factor on Dec 23, 2020 0:43:33 GMT -5
A little 'Dark Cinema' to end the day with  A little dark cinema to end the day with. I myself like to rough house and play, but people are so dam serious now days and don't understand the art of 'playing', it's what we all did as youth, and it kept us young and agile, but then when people grow up, everyone becomes all 'stiff' literally, do to lack of movement, physical movement. Wrestling was one of the most fun things we did as youth, (at least if a male), males wrestled around with friends all the time, animals do it to. But then you grow up and seems the only place can get non soxual physical stimulation is if you join athletic league...but not everyone can do that, so so many just walk around alone. Play is healthy, regardless of ones age, play keeps you young and in shape, and just makes you a happier person. And the more you played while growing up, the more you realize it's OK to lose, win some, lose some, but today's generation (or some in urban areas), you can tell didn't play much as youth, and is why totally lack personalities of any kind, they go from calm to enraged in minutes, where as play gives you that in between emotional state. You can tell people who didn't play much as youth, cause when grown totally stiff, and never smile, not me, not I says the one who played a lot as a youth and still plays. Heck, I'd even play or welcome being rough handled by a closet monster if there was one in my own place. Later.
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Post by X factor on Dec 24, 2020 1:59:28 GMT -5
The Zone has so many sections in it, it can confuse your average reader..I mean you get politics, paranormal, art, economics, dolls, consumer reviews, random thoughts about anything and more.
I guess almost what you'd find in any free society, different thoughts and expression totally unrelated to the other.
I think it gives the place balance, in that no one section can really tower over the other when there's so many sub sections on here.
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Post by X factor on Dec 25, 2020 10:05:35 GMT -5
Not feeling this Holiday or Xmas at all for some reason
Not feeling this Xmas or Holiday at all for some reason, even went out and bought a few gifts yesterday.
Now I'm use to not getting so much as a Merry Xmas from anyone, so that's not it, it's for some other reason that I'm just not feeling the Holiday season this year, not even a little bit, even went out and bought a few Xmas lights, still not feeling it on the inside though.
Maybe I've just maxed out on Xmas's, maybe they mean no more to me since haven't had any one special to spend them with in years, good times are created by memories, or should say fondness, and as of late, like last decade or so, just can't really recall any good times I've had during the Holidays other than being off work for a few days, Xmas just feels empty to me now.
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Post by X factor on Dec 25, 2020 10:28:15 GMT -5
I know one thing, I'm in the SE right now and it's cold, which makes me want to stay inside, yet talking about wanting to move up to Wyoming or the Dakota's, ye right.
Unless have a inside job up there, one use to the warm south east would be doomed.
It's why you rarely see people from the warm weathered South moving up to Montana or Wyoming or even Nebraska or Denver, it's always cold state people migrate to warm states, is usually the trend.
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Post by X factor on Dec 27, 2020 14:15:59 GMT -5
The world is dangerous for both beautiful and ugly people alike, but when beautiful others will want to protect you, when ugly, no one will want to protect you.
That only applies in the 'Western Hemisphere'.
For if beautiful and born in the East, as in Asia, your beauty could offend others 'males', who then take it upon themselves to harm.
The world is a very complex place, dynamics change depending on where you live or were born.
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Post by X factor on Dec 27, 2020 19:24:20 GMT -5
My problem is I'll spend hours getting caught up on trying to solve or fix some meaningless online issue
I hate when a place wants you to verify something through checking some email account you haven't checked in months, maybe years, then when finally find it again, other side issues come up, like a chain of chaos.
Next thing you know you done spent 4 hours on some meaningless stuff tracking this down, changing that ect...what a waste of time.
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Post by X factor on Dec 27, 2020 19:49:52 GMT -5
Heck, I don't even know if I'll be able to log back into here once log out, since been changing so many PW's and stuff, it's confusing.
Why?
Cause jkzz software writers try to link to much crap together that shouldn't be linked, and it gets confusing.
People get online not to be linked!!!!
Online is an escape, is where you get away from reality, not just to dwell in it more, unless a public figure or something.
If I ever meet a tech person in real life, I'll probably want to dump a pail of water over their head or worse.
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Post by X factor on Dec 27, 2020 19:51:47 GMT -5
Now I've probably lost a board on here that I'll never be able to recover, but with me, I'll just start from scratch again, cause life, thoughts, go on until you're simply dead and gone.
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Post by X factor on Jan 4, 2021 19:32:50 GMT -5
I think the people I work for may be trying to get me hired into some kind of 'management' position...that's something not use to...not sure, but I suspect...maybe they sensed I was about to leave, I don't know.
Regardless, what I value most now in my life is 'time'...good time, bad time, just time.
The older you get the more special, precious, you start realizing 'time' is, time to be alive, but not just alive, but 'healthy while alive'.
I don't need millions anymore, all I need is time, and with time can be just as happy as the birds I see while on way to work.
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Post by X factor on Jan 17, 2021 22:20:22 GMT -5
You never really know who's attracted to 'you' Most of us don't feel so attractive to others, unless fit into some very narrow societal range of beauty, but in the Zone, one just never knows who's attracted to 'you'. Ugly to the world may be very cute to a space alien.
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Post by X factor on Jan 22, 2021 20:33:40 GMT -5
Carpets suck!
Every single day I wipe and sweep tile floors, you'd be surprised the amount of grit and muck that accumilates on tile, but able to wipe it up with paper towel and spray cleaner.
Now just imagine you have a carpet, then not able to see all the dirt, sand, grit, muck, that accumilates, sure you may vacuum every now and then, but most of the muck has sank deeper into carpet than vacuum can extract.
And then becomes a jungle for bacteria, months, years, uck.
Have you ever torn up carpet before?, and seen the dark stains on the floor beneath?
Stains either you yourself or renters/owners of place probably walking barefoot over?
I tell you what, once you got tile or hardwood floors, you'll never want any place you live in carpeted, ever, once you realize how much bacteria, germs and gunk hide in carpets.
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Post by X factor on Jan 24, 2021 18:45:27 GMT -5
Love romance advice
Sometimes the best way to get the one who doesn't maybe notice you is to make them jealous.
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Post by X factor on Jan 30, 2021 4:30:12 GMT -5
Yes, I'm here right now, I'm just thinking, it's been a very long day.
Wore out, but not really drowsy I guess, but need the sleep anyways.
It seems everything in 'our life' is a 'construct' of our own perception.
And it seems that 'perception' of how we need things to be in order to feel safe in this world is dissolving for some or many.
Examples...
'We need these people to be that way so that we can believe 'this' about ourselves'.
But then start learning that 'those people' really aren't 'that way', and that it was all a 'construct'.
Or replace 'people' with 'institution', or 'offices', or fill in the blank.
Or even place 'self' in there.
Like how we perceive ourselves is usually in a positive way, usually, but then find out that another or others do not perceive you the way you perceive self.
Some are perceived better than they really are and others are perceived worse than they really are.
Human brains are nothing more than programable 'chips', computer chips made of flesh it seems.
So easily programable.
And I think the super wealthy class realizes that and is why things have been going so odd lately.
They're trying to dismmantle our worlds, it seems, and usher in a 'new one', a new global reality or something...but they first have to shatter all the old realities each individual had of things.
My gut tells me to just walk away from it all, like Grizzly Adams, that old TV show of that man who just walked into the woods and kept to himself.
My gut tells me that what lays ahead just isn't collectively good at all.
Like we're all being 'rounded up'.
Anyways, I need rest, back soon.
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