Labor class thoughts and journal...

Preparing for work can feel like getting ready to step out unto a battlefield

It's a gross ritual we've all been conditioned to think we're suppose to enjoy.

Ahh, the dangers of trotting off somewhere, risking life and limb to get there (traffic ect), risking life and limb while at work (blue collar dangerous type jobs), just to be basically as poor at end of shift as was before shift began...what an honor.

I'm beat and in a grouchy mood, just got in, tired, thought I was off tomorrow, wrong, gotta work tomorrow, that's the worst feeling.

Actually a worse feeling is when you really are off, at home, and get a call to come in.

To me, at my age and stage of life, labor is just labor, you're still check to check, no matter what.

Labor is labor.

And until learn to earn income passively, it's all the same to me as of now, the only variable is those you work around, if work around people you find soxy and interesting than work can seem fun, but if work kind of alone, as in transportation industry, it can just be a long lonely shift of introspective thought.

Well I'm home now, for a bit, just enough to eat, get some rest, than do it again.

About to head out, just trying to hang onto those few more precious moments of home time, before have to venture 'out there', ugly personalites, rude drivers, noise, germs, bacteria, viruses, crime and more...and some how ignore most of it if can.

It's all a perversion to me, societies should never be this large, the government feeds upon our labor, jobs invented in the name of the Government, that means we have to work so they can continue to suck our money.

Sure there's benefits to taxes, roads, electricity, the basic stuff, but trillions are spent on nonsense, and people who know how to 'grant right', get this nonsense money directed at them or firms.

Whatever man, I just wish I wasn't apart of it, wish I could escape, retreat into Mansion, or even a small cabin, I don't care, just tired of this pointless hussle and bussle.

Made it



Made it, made it home after a long shift.

Wow, wish I could just for once get home feeling charged instead of always drained, so drained.

I think it's mental, cause once home, after a quick lay down, or mellowing out period, the energy begins to come back.

I think it's just something about being out there in the industrial world, in traffic, that just drains thy soul.

Or doing the same thing over and over for hours and hours, just has a draining effect.

I think that's why those who have jobs dealing with people and personalities, aren't as drained when they get off work, or maybe they are but in a different way.

I think dealing with people though, is more rewarding than dealing with machinery, or just driving a large truck for hours upon hours at a time all alone.

I'm just like 'Is this what I strove for when younger to arrive at this spot in my life?'

Yes I know, I should of career planned much better.

For instance, I don't think professional pilots, when they get off work, feel as drained as I do, or your average blue collar type.

Or maybe it's just cause my days are so long...but then get many days off once work week over.

Trying to think back to when I was younger and trying to remember if I felt so drained when I got off work?

I can't remember, cause I did so many things and moved around so much when younger, and for many years drove OTR in a big rig and so home was simply parking the truck and climbing in the back of the cab.

It's why trying my darndest to earn passive income, but it's not easy, ye, you can write a book, but doesn't mean anyone will buy it.

There are very famous people who write books, and as famous as they are, they may only get a few hundred or few thousand sales, and they're famous!

So how much harder for a unknown Author to move books?

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Anyways, in a hour or so I'll feel better and all relaxed, especially since don't have to work tomorrow.

I mean if Joe Biden were a regular blue collar type of person, he would of passed away years ago.

But he's not, he's super wealthy, so will always have helping hands around him, as long as he has fiscal value to others, but us common types we don't have that type of fiscal value to others, so when we get sick or start to lose our minds, we're doomed.
The streets are filled with such types, beggers, homelessness, mental illness, sickness, just go downtown and see all the street versions of Joe Biden.

When I'm off, like today, initially all I want to do is wake up and let my mind and thoughts stand still.

But yesterday, before I knew I had today off, I wanted to do a million things.