Alcohol...the Seductive trap...

Alcohol will distort your sense of reality



Alcohol, actually any drug, not just alcohol, but this section here about alcohol, but alcohol will distort your sense of reality and of self.

But some may ask 'Is that such a bad thing?'

And I guess that depends on where and how, I mean without distorting 'reality', we'd have no sci-fi movies, no cinema, no art, no paintings, no music or songs, there'd be no fantasy, no imagination, and more.
So I thinking bending reality is apart of the human experience, where as not sure if lower animals are able to do the same.

So distorting reality can be good and bad, just depends on the where and how, I suppose.

Bending reality while in art school, is great, bending reality while producing a movie, is great 'Star Wars', 'Bat Man', 'Iron Man', Wonder Woman and more, there'd be no billion dollar comic culture without people bending reality, or cartoons ext.

I think bending reality becomes bad though, when it begins to hurt self or others in a negative way.
But who determines that?

IF art offends, than who's fault is that?

I mean now days everyone is offended by everything, in China what offends the leadership may seem perfectly normal to some one in Norway.

(As usual I'm getting way off topic here)

I think bending reality can be bad when it = self neglect, how about that.

When one starts neglecting self, as in not showing up to work, or being late, or saying hurtful things to people you normally wouldn't to, and so forth, then bending reality can become harmful.

But as long as bending reality stays within the realm of art, or on the canvass, than maybe it's not so bad.

I don't know, once again when hyper intelligent you end up arguing with yourself thus cancelling out original point.

Time, never enough

I suppose I could of wrote this anywhere but felt like writing it here as it relates to all the time 'we' waste drinking alcohol, and it's not so much the drinking part, which is like 1/4 of the over all process and effect.

It's the after effects of drinking that totally messes up our sense of time and schedule and priorities.

And sadly I have to keep re learning this, but slowly 'sanity and logic' is winning out over the oppressive grip of alcohol.

Again, when sober here's the deal

1. If I have 15 hours of 'awake time' or 'productive time', I stay alert and awake for the full 15 hours, and utilize every second of that time, and even then hardly get anything done.

2. If I drink during that 15 hour 'awake time' or 'off time', I probably only utilize maybe 4-5 hours of that time, if even that, and the rest of the time is spent sleeping or loping around, or in and out of sleep, and then when am awake, feel like total crap, don't feel like doing anything, like a physical form of depression that just makes you feel 'yuk', and heavy, and uninspired and other yuk type of feelings.

(Maybe when younger wasn't really like that, but drinking as you age, well, things change, your body changes and can't handle liquor as well, or beer, nor does your body want or need it, and is telling you, me, us, that if only we'd listen before to late)

Back to the time part of discussion.


When sober, I'm just able to utilize so much more of my time, get so much more done, even the tedious stuff, like checking up on websites, calling customer service, going through records, making sure this or that bill is paid, all the micro task stuff that when drunk could give a crap about.

Then you begin to fall behind, and only focus on major stuff that doesn't require much thought.

When I don't drink, or stop drinking

1. My body feels better, joints don't ache as much, and I'm way more alert.

2. My moods are way more steady

3. I'm not as afraid, if that makes sense, but when sober, I don't always feel I'm being pursued by some goblin, not as paranoid.

4. Able to enjoy food more, and bodies able to retain more of the nutrients of food I do eat, thus explains why joints and body always feels better when don't drink, cause when you drink, particularly when older, you end up flushing out a lot of nutrients, and as you age you need every ounce of nutrients you body can absorb.

5. My creativity actually increases, not decreases, people who think they're more creative when drunk are fooling themselves.

6. My attention span is way longer.

7. And when sober, not embarrassed by anything I may of said the previous day or night, or expressed.

And I could go on, nothing but positives when sober, at least to me.

Well if being sober is so great, than why do so many people start drinking or using drugs to begin with?, huh, wise guy...

Good question, and that is like most things, we don't appreciate 'normal or stable' until we go 'other places'.

Normal and stable seems boring, when first 'high' or drunk, when first high or drunk it's like taking off on a ship...as you leave normal behind.



Yep, at first it seems like a total blast, cause body not use to it, and you know the rest, those of you who struggle with addiction, whether alcohol, tobacco or harder drugs, you know the story cause you, we've, been there, what's fun at first, seems exciting, soon turns into a crash run back towards Earth, or 'normal', but when addicted to anything, when you crash, you don't just stop at the Earths surface, you penitrate the surface and go below, and then forever struggle just to get back to the surface...and that's when 'normal' begins looking good again.

Hopefully I explained that OK.

Anyways, I'm going to wrap this up, I don't get paid to share any of this, I could, but I don't.
I just write, first cause it helps me, second, cause of course I hope it helps others to deal with or understand those who are addicted to alcohol, or even recovered from it, or in and out of it every few weeks or months.

One thing for sure, with Corona going around, now's not the time to compromise bodies immune system by drinking to much.

Be well and stay away from the bottle.

When you really notice your dependence on alcohol is when you think you need a drink to give a phone conversation that extra 'boost', or zing.

That's how you can begin to see or notice how phycologically you're dependent on booze to kick you in the butt enhance 'a moment'...but does it?

If you have to have a drink, or be drinking, during a call to whomever, should you even make the call?

That depends, is it a employment call?, romantic call?, friend call?, meeting a stranger call?

Why should a drink be nessisary for any of those calls?

That's when or where you realize that boozing actually makes you smaller, and not larger, boozing actually works in the negative, and not positive.

If need alcohol to 'break the ice', then should that ice be broken at all?, again depends.

Or does booze give us that excuse to go forward, so that later can blame it on the booze, rather than own decision?

I don't have all the answer, just posing a few questions.

I made the call, it went well, I mean thing is I really do have quit the charming personality, so not sure why I ever thought alcohol could enhance what comes naturally to me anyways?

And that's the thing about addiction, whether to drugs or alcohol or anything else, most people who get addicted already have or had beautiful personalities, and traits, yet some how get lured into thinking that a substance can improve them self.

Many who are addicted to, fill in the blank______, look like models, or already are successful, or have great personalities, and all those traits begin to wane, not improve, once start drinking or doing drugs.

The whole concept of addiction is just odd when you think about it.

Animals don't need to get drunk or high, to get the most out of life or a situation, yet we humans feel we do.

The conversation I just had went totally great, and I did it while sober, but why did making the call cause so much anxioty in me to begin with?

Life without boozing is like learning how to live again, at kindergarden level or something.

I think my bout with alcohol is just about over now

I think my bout with alcohol is just about over now, last night, while driving for a job, I never felt so alive, never absorbed every note of the music I was hearing, able to decipher every word on talk shows, and the news, it's as if just born or something, I mean my senses were super heightened, why?, cause Have had a drink in a very long time, that's why.

And my energy level is more than I had 10 years ago, I mean it's crazy.

I almost felt like crying in that I can only imagine all the opportunities I blew by prioritizing drinking over getting ahead in life.

All the lost time, what was I thinking?

It makes me sad to think I can never recover that time, those lost forks in the road where had not been distracted with alcohol, no telling how rich or successful I'd be right now.

Unless this is what fate wanted...who knows.

I just know now that not drinking, I feel brand new, well maybe not totally brand now, but re-energized for sure.

And no caffeine needed, it's just form body being able to actually absorb all the healthy food I eat.

One thing I always did do though, was eat healthy, even if a drank, I still ate healthy, no meat hardly at all and so forth, is probably why still here, still in better shape than most, even many younger than myself.

But I can only wonder how much healthier I'd be now, if just never started drinking, which I started a tad bit over a decade ago.

I just wish I had never started at all, it's a decade of my life I've lost....but along the way learned stuff, was led places I would not have ever gone had it not been for alcohol.

At least now I have a lot of 'book' material, that's for sure.

It's weird, cause the 'lie' alcohol tells you is that if you stop drinking, you'll become less creative, that you'll lose your spark, when it seems to be just the exact opposite.

Actually your spark, and creative energy comes back to you more, when you don't drink and or do drugs...well I don't know about the drugs part, but I'd assume it's the same.

I don't ever want to go back to where alcohol had me before, ever!



I don't ever want to go back to where alcohol had me before, ever!

Drinking is just different now, I mean when younger, you could drink, and being drunk was more of a sustained, energizing thing or effect, but now if, when I drink, it's like you're buzzed for maybe 15-20 minutes, and then you either have to keep drinking to get so drunk you by-pass sickly drowsy feeling, or just stop at 1-2 beers, and if that's all you're going to have, than what's the point (that's how a alcoholic thinks).

I've compared drinking to not drinking, and I prefer not drinking now, why?
Cause I get so much more out of life, out of the time I'm awake, I get like 80% or more out of the day, out of my off time, I can stay awake all night and feel totally energized naturally, where as if I'm drinking, I peak after just 1 hour, and then from there start getting that drowsy effect where you don't feel like doing anything at all but sleeping, and then end up wasting 14 hours conked out doing absolutely nothing but in and out of sleep...what a waste of life, what a waste of time!

Ending alcohol addiction is not something you can always do overnight, sometimes it takes run ins with alcohol, to realize and be able to compare the difference between being liberated, being free, and being a slave to booze.

And right now, I want, and am enjoying my freedom, I like being awake, alert and engaged.

Alcohol, go away!!