Trucking...a ghost rider...

Well, not working right now, that's OK, it's been a long stretch...and besides, the days of keeping the same job for 20 years +, have ended a decades ago, especially for drivers.
drivers bounce around from employer to employer probably more than any other trade, do to the demands of the job and recruiters false promises.

Not sure what I'm going to do going forward, I'm really not.
Suppose to get some money soon, which will give me a bit of breathing room, but still, even with that, I'll have to go back to work within 2-3 months, but doing what?

Do I really still want to drive? Or merge into a different career or profession?
With the small bit of money I may be getting, I could afford to get trained at something else.
Or maybe buy my own used truck, but that's always risky cause big rigs either make or break you, they're not cheap to maintain, not at all, repairs cost a ton of money, and taxes, and other BS stuff the Gov sucks from you.
But still, I'm going to need purpose in life going forward, and honestly, just not sure what that purpose is at the moment...we shall see.

speaking of not working at the moment, I need to go workout, as in do some walking/stretching.
Sitting around for weeks while unemployed can be good or bad for your health, depending on how you spend the time.
I mean you can only drink for so many days in a row, and when working, it's your days at work that put a pause on drinking, but when not working, you have to put that pause on yourself, or else.

I mean what do I do with the rest of my life, go a different path or get, yet again, just another dull, mundane trucking gig?



This is what I really want to do, go to film school, it's what I should of done a decade or more ago, if more focused and motivated and determined.

I need a job, a career, where going forward my creative talents are rewarded and appreciated and used.
In trucking, there is no need for creativity, you just obey the boss, the company, and watch dull, mindless training videos that you've seen for decades. There is no creative outlet in trucking, unless you're one of those custom truck types who likes to spend 10's of 1000's of dollars customizing your truck; but that's if you own it. If a company driver you cannot do that.

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Yes, I came into a little money recently, not a lot, just enough where can relax for a while, if I so chose...and is why I've been thinking so hard these last few weeks, cause I don't want to make the wrong decision like I have so many other times in my past.
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I mean yes, I've already applied for a staffing trucking job, which means you work on temporary assignments, ect....but haven't even looked at response yet, which means I'm torn on whether to go back to work immediately, or take some time off to think and explore other options.
I'm not old enough to retire, yet old enough to not want to just go work yet another mundane trucking job where you're never appreciated for all your years of service.

You have to love trucking in order to put up with all the hassles of it...the traffic, the mechanical breakdowns, the snarky shippers and receivers, who all treat you like a nobody, a dumb mindless nobody, as well as dispatch, they treat you like you're brainless as well.

What I really need is a RV = no lease or high rent = mobility and flexibility.
A RV and of course a tow behind vehicle or vehicles, maybe a midsized truck and a scooter, and pedal bike.

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My plan was to get some land, and just live on it, but cheap land means remote areas, which unless working from home means long commute to work or job.
I don't know...lot's to think about right now, cause I can't really say a new chapter has begun in my life until I actually do something completely different going forward...
Are there risks involved, yes...but the above film school seems really thorough and hands on...and that's where the last of my passion is, cause with whatever few years I have left on earth, if not doing what I love, than what exactly am I doing?

To be continued...

What I find odd, is that since I've stopped trucking for about the last 5 months, there are certain foods I've totally lost a taste for and those are

1. Grapefruit

Grapefruit, for years, was a daily part of my diet, for the most part.
In that before work would always prepare a fruit bowl and take with me and grapefruit were pretty much always apart of that.
But once I stopped trucking and removed myself from that stressful environment, my taste for grapefruit or citrus period, has really declined a lot.

2. Tomatoes

When I drove, again almost daily, tomatoes were apart of my green diet, but as of late, last few months, It's like I want nothing to do with tomatoes anymore, at least raw ones.
I used to love raw grape sized tomatoes, not anymore...but only sense stopped driving, and also I wonder if they're putting stuff in tomatoes now that my body senses isn't right.

3. My body no longer like gator-aid.

Grapes and plums as well....just seems since not burning as many calories throughout the day that the stress of driving a semi causes, it just seems my whole general desire for fruit has diminished greatly.

But it's that steady diet of fruit is what kept me so healthy over they years, so I'd better keep a watch on that.
But did just come from the doctor and they did give me a pretty good bill of health...so who knows.

Trucking is all messed up now, and this guy explains why



Foreign drivers have overly saturated the market on all levels, from drivers to brokers, etc.
But that's just one reason.