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Post by X factor on Jun 17, 2020 7:15:19 GMT -5
I don't think people want to die, when they commit suicide, rather they want their bad situation to die, they want their bad situation to go away.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 4:52:39 GMT -5
If I ever commit suicide, body would never be found, nor would I want it to, why?
Cause unlike most, if I ever committed suicide, it would be for me, my own peace, and not to get back at another, or to expect any other to be upset, cause no one would.
So if I ever committed suicide, I'd just simply vanish forever, as if never here.
I'd pass, as I lived, a ignored invisible mystery.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 4:59:44 GMT -5
No one loved me when healthy, therefore I'd reject all and every ones fake love if ever got sick.
People pretend to show interest in you when you're sick, not out of love, but out of morbid vengance.
Ignore you when healthy and strong, and while at your best, rob you of your 'glory', for selfish reasons, then pretend to suddenly care only and when they sense or really are 'sick'...then come and watch, as you grow weaker and become less of a threat to them.
If such a person ever came to visit me, if I were ever sick, their gaze upon me would be their last.
And that's why to prevent that, will put it in 'Will', that no visitors allowed, ever.
If didn't visit me while healthy, while in prime, than I don't know you.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:06:36 GMT -5
When can no longer do for self, than it will be time for me to depart, and that's only a date fate knows.
Can never see self in hospital, not into 'paid concern'.
I lived alone, without value to any other, I shall pass in the same way, alone, and without value to anyone.
I'm at peace with that.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:09:04 GMT -5
I will leave, when this world becomes a burden to me.
It's already a burden, but strong enough to handle it, but if ever to weak, physically weak to handle the burden the world heaps upon me, than I shall leave, and be at peace with it.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:12:27 GMT -5
I'd probably 'Will' all my intellectual stuff to some one like 'Maddana' the pop star.
Why?
Cause artist tend to value other artist, artist seem to value 'deep thought', and then expand upon it.
To 'Will' stuff to just an average person, all they'd do is 'bury it'.
Artist bring you to life, others, they just bury stuff.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:20:46 GMT -5
If I ever commit suicide, body would never be found, nor would I want it to, why? Cause unlike most, if I ever committed suicide, it would be for me, my own peace, and not to get back at another, or to expect any other to be upset, cause no one would. So if I ever committed suicide, I'd just simply vanish forever, as if never here. I'd pass, as I lived, a ignored invisible mystery. What about organ donation? If you committed suicide, and no one could find you, well, what if another person needs your organs? |
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:22:36 GMT -5
If I ever commit suicide, body would never be found, nor would I want it to, why? Cause unlike most, if I ever committed suicide, it would be for me, my own peace, and not to get back at another, or to expect any other to be upset, cause no one would. So if I ever committed suicide, I'd just simply vanish forever, as if never here. I'd pass, as I lived, a ignored invisible mystery. What about organ donation? If you committed suicide, and no one could find you, well, what if another person needs your organs? Not sure how I feel about organ donation, I mean like you're still alive, yet you're not. And if they organ donate your brain, who's in the body, you or them? |
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:26:04 GMT -5
I think if any part of your body is still alive, even in another person, than I probably think you'd still be alive, your soul would probably stay attached to your organ, that never died, so now you'd be alive inside of someone else, with a conscious, and you two would be fighting over what to have for dinner, probably.
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Post by X factor on Sept 7, 2020 5:28:36 GMT -5
I think if any part of your body is still alive, even in another person, than I probably think you'd still be alive, your soul would probably stay attached to your organ, that never died, so now you'd be alive inside of someone else, with a conscious, and you two would be fighting over what to have for dinner, probably. Look man, suicide is a serious issue, this is not the time for geeks, with girly feets, to be weighing in...dm... |
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Post by X factor on Dec 20, 2020 2:34:28 GMT -5
After watching this, the 'Zone' will seem totally sane
Is why I like art so much...look at what others do with it.
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Post by X factor on Mar 7, 2021 21:28:41 GMT -5
You're more likely to K-ll self if in relationship than if not in one, from stat I heard once
I heard long ago that you're actually more likely to 'off self' when in a relationship, than if single and all along.
And that makes sense to me now, cause usually when people commit suicide, they're imagining how those closest to them will react...kind of like a 'I'll show them' - type of moment.
But when all alone, single, ect, there's no one who'll care if you're gone, if you commit suicide, or anything, so I know this sounds odd, but the logic is why bother killing yourself if no one will care anyways?...
And I think that's why stats show that those who are single, alone, are less likely to commit suicide than those who are in relationships, have lots for friends, married ect.
Either way it's wrong and a tragedy to do so....if anything call a crisis line and talk to someone.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2021 14:04:28 GMT -5
Unintended illusion in this silleute  It looks like a pistol is merged into the body, and you can see the 'trigger'. That's me in the chair a few years ago, but never noticed the 'hand gun' merged into body aspect of it until a few weeks ago. Kind of creepy and beautiful at the same time.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2021 14:06:37 GMT -5
It's what I like about art is that you never know what other elements will emerge from the piece you're trying to develop, often times 'faces' will appear in the art, they'll just morph in out of nowhere as I'm digitally bending the project.
I may try to create another one, just to see what emerges by accident.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2021 15:36:20 GMT -5
Fading in and out  Well, this one not as 'classical' as the above one, but this is of me just a few weeks ago, if that. I rushed it, and it's a bi to distorted for my liking, but none the less it's portrait art. To me, everyone needs to make portrait art of themselves before they 'go', regular photos are fine, but regular photos aren't art, art just seems to speak more to peoples sub conscious, where as regular photos really only talk to immediate family and or friends, art tends to speak to everyone across cultural and ethnic and geographical lines. And portrait art allows others to see aside of 'self' that the world never gets to see otherwise. When I go to work, I'm just a non nobody, and most have no idea that could take poses like this for art. If I step into a corner store, I'm this 'big bad threat', but look at me in my art. This is why I know for sure God doesn't not exist inside of any man, not even me, I mean we can try to mimic what we think god is like, but for sure he doesn't exist inside of no one, or people wouldn't be so cruel and mean and so badly misjudge others. Art relaxes me, not really sure why posting this here though, in that this section deals with suicide, a depressing topic. But one thing I like about the Zone, is that topics and conversations are allowed to develop wherever and however in a organic many.
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