Hot, when you feel like Hell is on your tail

Seems like evil is everywhere and within all things

For the last few hours, just getting over whelmed with sense of 'evil', that no one is straight with you, nothing is what it appears.

Also, whenever I go out to clubs, always feel like 'hell' the next day, not sure why, as if interacting with Vampires or something...



Like the scenes from the 'Blade' movies where all those Vampires danced together until could lure 'human' inside of club, until feeding time.

That's how I always feel, following day, when return from club, always feel as if I was in there with Vampires, people with very vile ugly intent who masquerade as normal club goers.

Lots of concentrated evil.

But when 'drunk' or drinking, you tend not to notice how ugly it is.

Even meeting folks seems scary at times, especially when doing so online, and they just want to exchange information with you forever, falsely flatter, to get more out of you, even sending fake pics, to get you to send your own.

There's really no reason for anyone really wanting to be with 'you' that bad unless they want something.

Sometimes what they want can be as simple as s-x, other times what they want can go way past that, to maybe steal your identity, gain your trust so they can steal your finances.

For some reason, at this moment, I just seem to been keenly aware of just how dark this world really is.

Hell is hot, and not nice, and when it touches you, you desintigrate, dissolve, and nothing is left but dust, particles of former self, that others absorb.

Hell comes at you in many different forms...

Yes, I do feel like hell is on my tail right now.

Had perfect schedule, perfect work setting, casual, laid back, with enough off time to allow me to pursue true side passion, but now hell approaches in the form of 'profit' and 'greed', which could give a dam about personal life and personal goals and just wants you to surrender all your energy to the throne of industry.

The concept of personal time and freedom so baffles larger companies that have 'boards' that you may as well be talking to a brick wall.

I"m just tired of it, working just to work, without prospering, tired of surrendering my days, life and energy like that.

Tired of coming home mentally exhausted with just enough time to eat, sit, then sleep.

That's a slave life basically.

All these companies seem to conspire together to keep the majority of population wage slaves.

To pay everyone so little that everyone basically a few months away from nothing, that way majority of people basically have to drop dead while at work, cause can never retire.

I mean if rent is basically over a 1000 now everywhere, and social security pays 700 or so a month, where will old people live when comes time to retire?

Greed and this ever need to earn profit at the expense of regular working people just sickens me.
F shareholders, we all must suffer so that greedy shareholders can maximize their profits while keep average persons pay stagnent.

Most Americans today basically earn 3rd world pay when factor in expenses.

Sometimes I do wish God, Jesus, someone, something, would just come back already and end this system of exploiting people from birth to grave.

That Sunday night, the night before returning to work after long vacation tends to feel like the 'night before hell', at least to some

Ahh, yes, that night or evening before returning to basically a zero status at job, that night before hell is what it can feel like.

To be strung along your whole life, working, a wage slave, and told this is 'best system on Earth', makes you choke at times.

Now a Low IQ type will instantly think that I instead prefer 'communism'...a low IQ type who listens to Rush and others, will think that.

But a more intellectually keen type just listens, reads and considers.

And that is there's way more to life than communism or socialism or capitalism.

What system do geese live under?

What system do deer or Elk live under?

This idea that we've all been brainwashed to labor and slave for that which 'God' already gave us for free, is indication of how frail the mind of man is.

Harvesting the labor of millions is simply a system in which a few prosper, and the rest stay average or below.

I want to surrender, but the odd thing about 'hell' is there's no one to surrender to, nothing to surrender to, in that even if 'give up', the punishment just still keeps coming at you.

No white flag recognized in 'hell'.

Sometimes I really do really feel as if the 'devil' is after me, but in little 'snippet' type of ways

One big bite, and it's over, or smaller parahna fish type of bites, where you bleed out over a life time, which is more fun for spirits to assault you with?

I think the smaller bites, over time, more fun to spirits, and that's how I feel I'm being harrassed over time, small bite here, another small bite there.

Like slowly bleeding to death over a entire life time, instead of all at once like say James Dean, the 50's 'Rebel without a cause' star who just died suddenly in a auto accident.