Seems like evil is everywhere and within all things
For the last few hours, just getting over whelmed with sense of 'evil', that no one is straight with you, nothing is what it appears.
Also, whenever I go out to clubs, always feel like 'hell' the next day, not sure why, as if interacting with Vampires or something...
Like the scenes from the 'Blade' movies where all those Vampires danced together until could lure 'human' inside of club, until feeding time.
That's how I always feel, following day, when return from club, always feel as if I was in there with Vampires, people with very vile ugly intent who masquerade as normal club goers.
Lots of concentrated evil.
But when 'drunk' or drinking, you tend not to notice how ugly it is.
Even meeting folks seems scary at times, especially when doing so online, and they just want to exchange information with you forever, falsely flatter, to get more out of you, even sending fake pics, to get you to send your own.
There's really no reason for anyone really wanting to be with 'you' that bad unless they want something.
Sometimes what they want can be as simple as s-x, other times what they want can go way past that, to maybe steal your identity, gain your trust so they can steal your finances.
For some reason, at this moment, I just seem to been keenly aware of just how dark this world really is.
Had perfect schedule, perfect work setting, casual, laid back, with enough off time to allow me to pursue true side passion, but now hell approaches in the form of 'profit' and 'greed', which could give a dam about personal life and personal goals and just wants you to surrender all your energy to the throne of industry.
The concept of personal time and freedom so baffles larger companies that have 'boards' that you may as well be talking to a brick wall.
I"m just tired of it, working just to work, without prospering, tired of surrendering my days, life and energy like that.
Tired of coming home mentally exhausted with just enough time to eat, sit, then sleep.
That's a slave life basically.
All these companies seem to conspire together to keep the majority of population wage slaves.
To pay everyone so little that everyone basically a few months away from nothing, that way majority of people basically have to drop dead while at work, cause can never retire.
I mean if rent is basically over a 1000 now everywhere, and social security pays 700 or so a month, where will old people live when comes time to retire?
Greed and this ever need to earn profit at the expense of regular working people just sickens me. F shareholders, we all must suffer so that greedy shareholders can maximize their profits while keep average persons pay stagnent.
Most Americans today basically earn 3rd world pay when factor in expenses.
Sometimes I do wish God, Jesus, someone, something, would just come back already and end this system of exploiting people from birth to grave.