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Post by X factor on Nov 19, 2021 7:02:13 GMT -5
 I feel like I've woken up in hell today, my own hell, I think hell is custom built for each individual. Built based on our own individual fears, weaknesses, frailties, dislikes and so forth. Hell to each of us, is what makes each of us miserable, scared, frightened ect, and then can't escape it. I can't escape the day in front of me, to some, it would not seem like hell, but to me it does. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 22:38:27 GMT -5
 It's for sure hot. And seems hell is getting closer. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 22:41:15 GMT -5
It's for sure hot. And seems hell is getting closer.
That being said, I doubt there's anyone who'd want to step into a blast furnace and never die |
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 22:43:39 GMT -5
Well when I'm dead and gone, I don't to much care what happens anymore, the fear of hell, after death, has lost it's grip on me.
The scariest part is getting there, going through death and pain, and all the physical crap.
Time to change the subject, this is getting depressing.
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Post by X factor on Feb 18, 2022 7:12:12 GMT -5
What if some of us are already in hell?  What if some of us are already in hell? What if some of us have been sold to the devil, the way slaves were sold to plantation owners, or the way pimps 'lease' their property to others. Has the creator 'pimped' some of us out to the devil? Or is that type of speculation a bit to far out there? You have to look at your own life, circumstances within your life, and decide that on your own.
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Post by X factor on Feb 18, 2022 7:17:45 GMT -5
Well, I think the devil in me is telling me I must 'fast' and stop eating so much food, and mainly drink water so that I can lose even more weight, and that I must control my 'rage', even when alone and driving, I can't allow other vehicles to get me upset and start cursing.
The devil in me is telling me I must make emotional life changes if I want things to improve, and even if I want to heal, physically.
The devil in me brings me bad luck, it seems, yet wants me to be obedient and healthy.
It's as if the devil in me wants me to be healthy, but only so it can continue to phycologically and physically torment me.
It's like keep your prey, or 'game', alive and healthy but only so you can continue to badger them in all sorts of mean phycological ways..and so goes the mind so goes the body.
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Post by X factor on Feb 18, 2022 7:46:58 GMT -5
Well, I think the devil in me is telling me I must 'fast' and stop eating so much food, and mainly drink water so that I can lose even more weight, and that I must control my 'rage', even when alone and driving, I can't allow other vehicles to get me upset and start cursing.
The devil in me is telling me I must make emotional life changes if I want things to improve, and even if I want to heal, physically.
The devil in me brings me bad luck, it seems, yet wants me to be obedient and healthy.
It's as if the devil in me wants me to be healthy, but only so it can continue to phycologically and physically torment me.
It's like keep your prey, or 'game', alive and healthy but only so you can continue to badger them in all sorts of mean phycological ways..and so goes the mind so goes the body.  What you said makes total social sense, in that Hollywood has long taught us that Monsters, demons and devils, and even King Kong, all love to torment only those who look beautiful, and usually must be female in gender. So probably in your subconcious mind, you think that the only way you're worthy of being tormented is if you copy Hollywood and make yourself look as beautiful to self as possible to be worthy of a monster tormenting you. Hollywood, and other production companies, have taught us all to think that way about ourselves in relation to suffering. According to movies, you have to be 'cute looking', in order for a monster to show interest in you. And there's many layers to what I just wrote, especially that last sentence. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 1, 2022 3:31:22 GMT -5
Very odd way to work out self stress
When some people dream.
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Post by X factor on Mar 31, 2022 5:49:39 GMT -5
Sometimes I think the only heaven or hell we'll ever know is all contained within our own minds.
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Post by X factor on Mar 31, 2022 5:51:05 GMT -5
And I think hell comes in many different packages for different people, but so does heaven.
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Post by X factor on Mar 31, 2022 5:52:52 GMT -5
I feel like if I go to church, I will find people, but not god.
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Post by X factor on Apr 12, 2022 6:28:11 GMT -5
 The worst part about 'hell', is there nothing to sit on, no one to lean against, you're just all alone, by yourself, and when you fall, there's no bottom to hit cause there's nothing there. You have to fabricate friends, and being loved, or liked, within your mind, cause in the physical realm it just does not exist. There is no comfort in hell, other than self. |
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Post by X factor on May 25, 2022 8:54:09 GMT -5
It's going to be a hot brutal Wednesday for soft souled individuals everywhere as 'Hell is on the tails of lambs  
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Post by X factor on May 26, 2022 6:44:10 GMT -5
 Today is Thursday. It's hot, and I do feel as if 'hell is on my tale'. Oh how will I make it through the day, I have nothing and no one to lean upon. It's as if hell is on top of me, and i'm being ____ hard by it as my toes squirm. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 7, 2022 21:39:37 GMT -5
Hot, when you feel like Hell is on your tail  The dizzy sissy is kind of like the mascot of this site, this asylum, in that like most good people, like most innocent people, souls, they're very misunderstood. And like most good, misunderstood people and or souls, evil, the devil, satan, whomever, just seems to enjoy lighting their bosom up more so than others. When I was younger, in school, I got bullied and use to also be a bully, and the funnest classmates to bully were those who were soft and percieved as stupid. (Oddly enough now it's those who were stupid who run the world)) that aside, if the dizzy sissy can take it, than so can you, be tough and endure. Everyone has a dizzy sissy innocence inside of them, period. Take care of your inner sissy, and also realize how strong they are and how much you love them for bearing what you yourself cannot.
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