Hot, when you feel like Hell is on your tail

I totally feel like I've been defeated by the devil, or devils, demons, whatever.
I just feel like I'm not match against evil.

What is evil? Everyone seems to define evil in a way that suits them.
Well, to me, evil is lying, or untruths that become the narrative.

Evil is when others just don't want to know the truth about you or a situation, cause lies can become comforting after a while, especially if linked to religion.

Evil is distortion of the truth, in my opinion.

Anyways, I realize I can no longer break through the wall of lies, so why should I care anymore.

I don't feel like 'hell is on my tail', anymore, I feel like hell has actually caught me!

I feel like I'm inside of hell right now, but realizing hell is more of a reality, a environment.
There's a lot more to hell than just flames and fire and demons poking you with pitch forks.

Hell, to me, is more of a realm of terrible circumstances you find yourself in.

Hell is also being alone, alive, and having no one give a damn about your fate.

The devil just straight up won this last round, for sure



The devil straight up won this round, it wasn't even close, I just had like a complete mental and moral collapse, moral as in low mood swing, probably do to drinking to much beer multiple days in a row.
Whatever, I've done that before and not hit like this, as far as just low moral, low energy, low enthusiasm.

I don't know, we'll see what happens tomorrow, one thing for sure, I'm no match for this world, especially when alone.



I got clobbered today, and yesterday by the devil and just life in general

It's Sunday



It's Sunday.
Can I rise above the spirit of hell today?
I most certainly hope so, we shall see.

There is no mercy or redemption in hell, or surrender

If, when, in hell, there is no mercy, no love, and no one cares about your redemption, all there is is torture, phycological torture, mental torture, and sometimes physical torment as well.

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In hell, you can't give up and surrender, for there's no one to surrender to, so the torment continues regardless of your sorrow or regret.

Also, hell has nothing to do with regret, or any other corrective thoughts or emotions.
It's as if hell finds you, regardless of your deeds, good or bad.

And heaven, for whatever odd reasons, can also find people who are bad, yet bless them anyways.