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Post by X factor on Jan 4, 2019 22:53:01 GMT -5
Seems you get just as beat up, smeared and pulverized even if in your mind you surrender to that which you tried resisting.
You resist, you get knocked around by life, another, this or that, so then you surrender and still get knocked around by life, another, this or that...wow
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Post by X factor on Nov 8, 2019 10:04:00 GMT -5
At least if in a boxing ring, or wrestling match, you can give up or throw in the towel, but in real life you can't
At least while facing an opponent in the boxing ring or wrestling match, you can give up, referee will throw in the towel for you, than it's over, beating stops.
But in real adult world, you can't give up, cause even when you, or if you do, the punches keep coming at you from life, from circumstances that work against your interest, your fiscal interest and more.
Especially when alone, there's no one to throw in the towel for you, so you just keep getting hit over and over and over again, no matter what.
there's no one to say 'stop', no referee to step in, no one in your corner looking out for you.
So the beating by life just continues.
In real life, there is no way out of the ring.
You'll just keep falling and falling until dead, and even then will fall six more feet after burial.
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Post by X factor on Nov 25, 2019 21:22:32 GMT -5
I was so hard on self yesterday morning.
Hard to explain, but then get up and out, go to job, during job, observe people who are actually 'fat', and this and that, and say 'my gosh, if they have strength to be happy with self, than why shouldn't 'I'?
But even though they're fat, or handicapped, or crippled or this or that, doesn't mean they lack 'love' in their life.
We can't look at another, or others, and assume that just cause in our minds, they're physically inferior, that some how that equates into them being less happy.
Happiness is dependent on so many variables and factors, a combination of things.
The other day I saw to amputees, an older couple, but both lacked legs and in wheel chairs, but they were together, loving one another, and as such they have, had, more than 'me'...they had love, a reason to live, a reason to breathe.
Sure, I'm fit, and in shape and all, but that couple had more than me, legs or no legs, they had love, and as such meaning, and as such self esteem, and as such hope.
Anyways, about to eat some lamb chops.
Such tender meat, poor lamb.
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Post by X factor on Jan 22, 2021 17:41:49 GMT -5
Just got pulverized by the lottery Just lost $19.00 on the lottery, and maybe more if don't win the big jackpot tonight. It's like every time I scratch off number, and it's not a winner, it's like I here a voice saying 'Loser'.. I use to think that voice was 'gods', but I think god has better things to do other than see if I win a few bucks in the lottery...if not that would make god very small and petty. Sometimes I think our own angels and demons are born with us, and then die with us when we leave this world.
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Post by X factor on Jan 23, 2021 8:38:00 GMT -5
Pulverized not in a physical way, but phycological way  Pulverized not in a physical way, but in a phycological way, laid to waste and destroyed yesterday by my own mind do to inaction and laziness I suppose, and maybe cause I had a drink or two, or maybe 3 or more. Our own minds can beat us up worse than other people can, in a phycological way. But if we fall into bad habits, our habits can beat us up to. Then you lay down at night and your mind tells you that out of 5 billion people, souls, you're the worst. The mind can become your own monster, tormentor, abuser. Or the mind can be your own angel and healer, just depends.
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Post by X factor on Jan 23, 2021 8:57:11 GMT -5
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Post by X factor on Jan 23, 2021 9:22:59 GMT -5
Some people were born to be loved, but you boy, sissy boy, were born to be pulverized, 24/7 around the clock, 7 days a week, all day and all night long, pulverization shall occur on you!
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Post by X factor on Jan 24, 2021 10:48:20 GMT -5
You mouthed off again, another 24 hours of pulverization 
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Post by X factor on Jan 25, 2021 14:05:32 GMT -5
Another 24 hours straight of pulverization by the closet monster since you did not learn your lesson yesterday and acted up...let the punishment begin 
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Post by X factor on Jan 25, 2021 20:17:31 GMT -5
Poor poor sissy guy is tired of being pulverized by the closet monster, and so they tried a different tact, they tried bringing the closet monster a 'offering' of bread...hmm, let's see if it worked or not  D'oh!
I guess the closet monster wasn't satisfied with just bread...poor poor sissy guy, when will they learn.
Another 24 hours of getting pulverized by life and the closet monster...poor poor thing them.
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Post by X factor on Jan 26, 2021 11:19:25 GMT -5
A temporary break from Pulverization  Look here sauce cake, you're being given a break from being pulverized 24/7, day and night, whether awake or asleep, you're being given a break for now, but do not, I repeat, do not get cocky or else, and we'll be watching to make sure you stay in line, the Closet Monster, and other monsters that dwell near by, behave or else.
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Post by X factor on Jan 27, 2021 0:55:28 GMT -5
Pulverized again, you are our meat, you acted up, we now own you again for hours, days...sissy punk!  Poor poor sissy souled nieve soul them...they thought this world was nice, well now they're learning that that's not true, this world is not nice as closet monster, closet demon, continues to pulverize them day and night, 24/7 all days of the week!
Will they not be shown any mercy???.....stay tuned, we shall see...poor poor soft gelled soul that they are...maybe they do deserve a bit of mercy soon...we shall see...but for now let the pulverization continue!!...until they learn their lesson!!..
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Post by X factor on Jan 27, 2021 1:11:16 GMT -5
You mouthed off again, another 24 hours of pulverization Some advice, maybe if you didn't wiggle your toes like that on the skull, maybe closet demon wouldn't come for you. Stop being such a instigator..geez... |
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Post by X factor on Jan 27, 2021 1:27:14 GMT -5
Out of control 'brat'!  Oh god have mercy on their soul...here in the Zone Mansion..
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Post by X factor on Jan 27, 2021 1:45:50 GMT -5
Out of control 'brat'! Oh god have mercy on their soul...here in the Zone Mansion.. I sense you're not bad or evil, but rather lonely and goofy...with a capitol 'G'. I think, what you need is simply a deep, mile long hug...an embrace. |
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