Why do you usually find your groove, your balance, on Sunday night right before work the next day?
Seems, at least for me, I always seem to find my groove, or balance one Sunday nights, the night before work, the night before being turned into a mindless labor donkey the next day when none of your dreams, or side ambitions matter while clocked in.
Where people tend to define you in the smallest micro way they can.
So that by end of week, your groove is gone again, and simply physically and mentally wore out.
Right now I have Friday's off, but sometimes I wonder if would be better to have Mondays off, just to combat that Sunday night blues feeling.
Yes, it's Sunday night, and I still hate, dread, tomorrow
Yes, it's Sunday night and I still hate, and dread tomorrow.
What's to look forward to?
Stupid drivers rushing to work, even on 4 lane city highways who are so dense, they still expect you to get in non existent slow lane when in city 4 lane roads, turns are made from both the left and right.
Low IQ types, (maybe even you), who rush to get to work, just to get there and complain about being there.
Me, I take time getting to work, and speed going home after work.
But most dorks do just the opposite, trained low IQ lemmings I guess.
And then every morning, no matter what city you live in, always at least one fatality of low IQ dork speeding, getting in wreck, killing self, just to get to work??? are you kidding me?
Tomorrow's just meaningless to me.
Gotta show up and work around people who outside of punching time clock, you may as well be dead.
Also, all this money, millions being transferred from one rich person or firm to another rich entity in hopes of bringing 'change'.....nothing will change, nothing, and these exchanges of money from rich to rich simply done for show.
In 1 month tell me if anything has changed, in 1 year, show me where anyone who is poor today, do to neglect, isn't still poor a year from now.
As I sit here, I ask myself why does 'hell' have to approach, which equals tomorrow
I don't have to work tomorrow, but none the less I'm not through with today, I'm just not.
I want today to last a lot longer, and in no hurry for tomorrow to arrive, for even though off tomorrow, the next day I have to 'hit it' again, which means getting back out there into the world, into mans industrial world which I no longer have any use for.
Industry is like hell to me now, literally it just is.
You go out there, work, risk life getting to work, car breaks down on way to work, now have tow bill, mechanical repair, so now spend next 4 months simply working to recover car repairs, so you're getting no where, just spinning your wheels, risking your health and even sanity.
I see animals ran over daily, majestic animals ran over by motorist to heartless to stop or distracted by industry, on cell phone, whatever.
Road rage and more, people rushing to work, like robots, just to get there and complain about job.
People dying in crashes literally speeding to a dead in job, makes no sense to me.
Go go go, get get get, and still never enough money.
Life loses meaning after a while.
I just don't need it anymore, and not impressed with mans advances, cause those advances haven't done a thing to find me love and or a family.
I'd rather go back 500 years, and have purpose, have a family, and be loved, than to be isolated and alone as I am now, today, in this fast track world.
Oh well, what can I do about it, tomorrow cometh whether I want it to or not.
Tomorrow has caught me, and I already feel it's effect.
4 or 3 days off just goes by in a blur, is when realize could take rest of life off, if possible, not from 'living', but from 'dying', and that's what I feel like I'm doing when at work.
Work is the least important part of my day or life now (that's my own fault for not choosing a career that would allow me to do what gifted at).
Seems all you do at work, especially if in blue collar type of job, is risk your own safety, risk getting injured, and that's about it.
It's not like if you're an athlete where after a year, you get between $250,000 dollars to 1 million or more to play a few games a week, or in NFL just one game per week.
If my job paid $250,000 a year, I'd work maybe 2 more years and retire, if I could even last that long, cause not sure why I'd want to go to work if saw that I had over $250,000 in my account, unless under a contract clause where had to work complete year to get all the money or would have to pay them back.
No, instead you work all year and hope that at end of year a few dollars ahead in your checking.
How is that living?
Then told you can retire when you're sick and body all broke down.
I so like being off, cause each time you're off you learn something new and different.
And when off, able to create stuff, rather than just move stuff around, as when at work. When at home you're the CEO and boss of what gets done and doesn't.
All that aside, here comes tomorrow, where so much of me will shrink back into 'the system', like wearing a 'I'm dull' mask.
I'll be OK, it's just that tomorrow is my 'Monday'.
Anyways, let me see if I can squeeze a few more moments out of 'now'.
'Now', at least when home, is my best friend and comforter.
Last Edit: Aug 19, 2020 1:06:41 GMT -5 by X factor