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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2019 19:04:42 GMT -5
Why do you usually find your groove, your balance, on Sunday night right before work the next day?
Seems, at least for me, I always seem to find my groove, or balance one Sunday nights, the night before work, the night before being turned into a mindless labor donkey the next day when none of your dreams, or side ambitions matter while clocked in.
Where people tend to define you in the smallest micro way they can.
So that by end of week, your groove is gone again, and simply physically and mentally wore out.
Right now I have Friday's off, but sometimes I wonder if would be better to have Mondays off, just to combat that Sunday night blues feeling.
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Post by X factor on Dec 8, 2019 22:38:51 GMT -5
Yes, it's Sunday night, and I still hate, dread, tomorrow
Yes, it's Sunday night and I still hate, and dread tomorrow.
What's to look forward to?
Stupid drivers rushing to work, even on 4 lane city highways who are so dense, they still expect you to get in non existent slow lane when in city 4 lane roads, turns are made from both the left and right.
Low IQ types, (maybe even you), who rush to get to work, just to get there and complain about being there.
Me, I take time getting to work, and speed going home after work.
But most dorks do just the opposite, trained low IQ lemmings I guess.
And then every morning, no matter what city you live in, always at least one fatality of low IQ dork speeding, getting in wreck, killing self, just to get to work??? are you hobbitding me?
Tomorrow's just meaningless to me.
Gotta show up and work around people who outside of punching time clock, you may as well be dead.
Rush rush rush, go go go...you can have it.
I just wish I could escape it.
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Post by X factor on Dec 15, 2019 20:06:50 GMT -5
not going to lie, still hate tomorrow, to me tomorrow is like cosmic garbage disposal, ready and waiting to shred.
Everyone reading this right now...'ye you', is better off today, than tomorrow.
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Post by X factor on Jun 14, 2020 22:41:32 GMT -5
Tomorrows gonna arrive and bring with it it's own personally designed issues just for 'you', or 'me', that no one else will be able to relate to.
It's why just kind of tuned out of 'national news' right now, cause it really doesn't effect me.
It just doesn't.
I have issues particular to my own well being and survival, and covad flu, street riots, CNN, Fox, whatever, nothing they're covering right now effects my day to day well being and or struggles.
Tomorrow will arrive soon, and bring with it an array of BS, as such will just focus on 'now', and stretch 'now' out as long as I can...cause in the 'now', all is just fine.
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Post by X factor on Jun 14, 2020 22:49:53 GMT -5
Also, all this money, millions being transferred from one rich person or firm to another rich entity in hopes of bringing 'change'.....nothing will change, nothing, and these exchanges of money from rich to rich simply done for show.
In 1 month tell me if anything has changed, in 1 year, show me where anyone who is poor today, do to neglect, isn't still poor a year from now.
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Post by X factor on Aug 12, 2020 2:46:41 GMT -5
As I sit here, I ask myself why does 'hell' have to approach, which equals tomorrow I don't have to work tomorrow, but none the less I'm not through with today, I'm just not. I want today to last a lot longer, and in no hurry for tomorrow to arrive, for even though off tomorrow, the next day I have to 'hit it' again, which means getting back out there into the world, into mans industrial world which I no longer have any use for.  Industry is like hell to me now, literally it just is. You go out there, work, risk life getting to work, car breaks down on way to work, now have tow bill, mechanical repair, so now spend next 4 months simply working to recover car repairs, so you're getting no where, just spinning your wheels, risking your health and even sanity. I see animals ran over daily, majestic animals ran over by motorist to heartless to stop or distracted by industry, on cell phone, whatever. Road rage and more, people rushing to work, like robots, just to get there and complain about job. People dying in crashes literally speeding to a dead in job, makes no sense to me. Go go go, get get get, and still never enough money. Life loses meaning after a while. I just don't need it anymore, and not impressed with mans advances, cause those advances haven't done a thing to find me love and or a family. I'd rather go back 500 years, and have purpose, have a family, and be loved, than to be isolated and alone as I am now, today, in this fast track world. Oh well, what can I do about it, tomorrow cometh whether I want it to or not. 
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Post by X factor on Aug 19, 2020 1:06:05 GMT -5
Tomorrow has caught me  Tomorrow has caught me, and I already feel it's effect. 4 or 3 days off just goes by in a blur, is when realize could take rest of life off, if possible, not from 'living', but from 'dying', and that's what I feel like I'm doing when at work. Work is the least important part of my day or life now (that's my own fault for not choosing a career that would allow me to do what gifted at). Seems all you do at work, especially if in blue collar type of job, is risk your own safety, risk getting injured, and that's about it. It's not like if you're an athlete where after a year, you get between $250,000 dollars to 1 million or more to play a few games a week, or in NFL just one game per week. If my job paid $250,000 a year, I'd work maybe 2 more years and retire, if I could even last that long, cause not sure why I'd want to go to work if saw that I had over $250,000 in my account, unless under a contract clause where had to work complete year to get all the money or would have to pay them back. No, instead you work all year and hope that at end of year a few dollars ahead in your checking. How is that living? Then told you can retire when you're sick and body all broke down. I so like being off, cause each time you're off you learn something new and different. And when off, able to create stuff, rather than just move stuff around, as when at work. When at home you're the CEO and boss of what gets done and doesn't. All that aside, here comes tomorrow, where so much of me will shrink back into 'the system', like wearing a 'I'm dull' mask. I'll be OK, it's just that tomorrow is my 'Monday'. Anyways, let me see if I can squeeze a few more moments out of 'now'. 'Now', at least when home, is my best friend and comforter.
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Post by X factor on Nov 5, 2020 3:40:21 GMT -5
Tomorrow, which is really 'today'  Hello, this is really about 'tomorrow', but that really means 'today', so actually it should just be 'the future'. That aside, I just got done eating some 'veggie meatballs', and just threw it out. 1. Smelled funny, tasted funnier, like 'feet', like the soles of some ones feet, seems like all veggie products always taste like 'feet', like the soles of a persons feet. 2. Went placed in microwave to finish warming it up (20 seconds), noticed white smoke filled oven, like sulfur type smoke, as if had rocks in it or something. 3. Read packaging to see ingredients, said 'Made in India', which made me pause. 4. Bought from a dollar store (never again) Now my summary of the event. Not sure what they put in those veggie meatballs, also not sure what type of fertilizer they use in India, it tasted like feet, some nations over there use human waste to fertalize their stuff (never again). Why is Dollar store buying stuff from India?, no telling what was in those things, tasted way to gooey to be just vegetables. I ate one or two and throw the rest out into the yard. That ordeal aside (I wonder how long before I'd get sick if had to go to India and eat their organic food?) I don't think they have the same food standards U.S. does, or maybe my body just not use to their flavoring, which smells like the bottom of some ones feet. That aside, writing about that dish took up a great deal of my writing space. I wanted to write about 'tomorrow', which of course I always dread, tomorrow brings me nothing anymore, just a day closer to my own demise, that's all tomorrow brings me as of late. I never run into or meet cool people anymore, every ones all paranoid now and anti social it seems. The only immediate good thing about tomorrow effecting me is that I get to sleep in. _________________________ Sorry, that Indian veggie dish took all my writing energy out of me. I'd just rather eat regular meat, than to eat those veggie meatballs again. Sorry to waste your time writing about meatballs that taste like feet.
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Post by X factor on Nov 16, 2020 4:56:27 GMT -5
Just when I've gotten a handle on 'today', tomorrow is already here Just when I've gotten a handle on 'today', tomorrow is already here, the merging of two worlds. I don't need tomorrow to arrive yet, I'm not done with today. 'Today' which is really yesterday, and tomorrow, all are merging, at a merge point. Today will soon be yesterday, which is what I really want to come back because I'm not done with yesterday yet. But as soon as I go to sleep, nap, then wake up, I'll be fully immersed in 'tomorrow', which officially doesn't arrive until I first go to sleep. I can hang onto yesterday, or 'now', just a bit longer, but soon will have to relinquish today, which is really yesterday, to tomorrow, which will begin after I wake up. Later, I'll see you when all this is resolved. 
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Post by X factor on Dec 3, 2020 3:09:16 GMT -5
I have to get ready for bed soon, and so hate tomorrow for pushing 'today' out of the way  What is tomorrow to me right now?, it's hell to me, that's what it is. And I so resent 'tomorrow' for pushing today out of the way. I hate what tomorrow will reduce me to, which is basically nothing, a 'utility' for another, a job, meaningless labor, herded around other cattle...trained cattle's of industry. The Zone is about the only place that allows me to live anymore, where I can truly come alive and 'breathe'. I'm so agitated right now about tomorrow intruding on my 'today'. I wish 'God' would just listen to my prayers for a change, respond to them and just for once help me be from of mans clutches, his greed, his industry, and just allow me to live free, while bothering no one, free, and alone, and out and away from it all, the noise, the traffic, the pollution and more. Please help me deal with tomorrow God. It's becoming harder and harder for me to fit into this world structure.
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Post by X factor on Dec 15, 2020 23:31:44 GMT -5
Tomorrow will arrive, tomorrow will 'come' and swallow me up like this Octopus  .
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Post by X factor on Feb 24, 2021 0:53:48 GMT -5
I can seriously say that I hate tomorrow
Today, my dreams are alive, how many of them will die tomorrow?
Today, no one is bugging me, but tomorrow how many will?
Today I sit still, and am safe, but tomorrow motion and commotion which = hazards.
Today I'm alive and healthy, but come tomorrow, who knows.
I just have no use for tomorrow.
I'm satisfied with today and now.
Cause 'now' I'm OK, alive and healthy, but tomorrow will sling arrows at me.
Hold me now please, while it's 'now', for who knows what tomorrow shall bring.
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Post by X factor on Apr 7, 2021 19:59:09 GMT -5
The best thing about tomorrow is that I get to sleep in, even though yes, I have to work tomorrow, but job starts later in the day, as such I always get to sleep in, and as such I don't age like your average dopey type worker who's dumb enough to take job that disrupts their natural sleep pattern.
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Post by X factor on Apr 7, 2021 22:34:45 GMT -5
I already hate tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring me nothing good, all tomorrow will do is burden me, and bring me one day closer to my eventual destruction.
(I say that cause I have to work tomorrow, which means tomorrow I'll be a slave)
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Post by X factor on Apr 30, 2021 0:46:38 GMT -5
I almost want to vomit and cry, cause tomorrow is on the way, but if I did no one would care.
Tomorrow, the future, is the most ugliest thing to me right now.
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