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Post by X factor on Sept 24, 2024 19:45:36 GMT -5
The list Time to create a 'to do list', a new one. Priorities change from day to day, sometimes multiple times a day, so I have to create new 'to do lists'. Sometimes my to do lists can grow to like 30, and be multiple pages, up to like 6 pages of things I need to do. And I chose them randomly by rolling a dice next to chore, and highest roll I do. Anyways, let me get started on something, can already feel myself zoning off.
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Post by X factor on Sept 30, 2024 20:55:05 GMT -5
 If I don't stick to the 'to do list', I won't get anything done, cause as of late, my brain has been very lazy. I'll just sit and mentally drift unless have a list of things to do, and even lately that barely works. That 'umph' in me, that forward driving juice I used to have, is just not there as of late, and sometimes I wonder if that 'umph', was really driven by booze over the years, rather than me actually being genuinely enthused about things. When you stop drinking, you really do have to get to know yourself all over again. I heard once, the year you start drinking is the year you stop maturing...so if I started drinking, say, 10 years ago, that means my maturity level stopped 10 years ago. That could be good or bad, cause the older you get, maturity stops mattering after a while as you near the grave. I mean it's not like maturity can defeat death....and who wants to be an old wooden no humor stiff type anyways? I think, however, maturity does matter when a parent, and raising a family, but if alone, by yourself, not so much...what matters is to have fun, generate your own fun, because when alone, no one else will generate it for you. Anyhow, wasting time on here when I need to finish up what I was doing on the 'to do list'. Also, Halloween is nearing...cool. October has always been my favorite month. Not so much where I live now, cause in certain urban areas, or Southern areas, B folks to deadened on the inside to celebrate different holidays...the only holidays these B folks down here celebrate is rap music...24/7 rap music. |
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Post by X factor on Oct 24, 2024 19:00:29 GMT -5
Time to break out the 'to do list'  Time to break out the 'to do list', otherwise nothing will get done. Today is recovery day. Also, you really got to be careful what you put in your body now. So many fruity flavored drinks we grew up guzzling down when younger are so very awful for us...it's like drinking flavored poison. From Tang, to Kool-aid, to HC Punch, you name it, it's terrible for us. I mean put enough flavoring in bleach and bleach would taste drinkable. Be careful what you put in your body, and the makers of this terrible food/drinks, just get more cleaver as society becomes more health conscious. Adding vitamins to ammonia doesn't suddenly make ammonia good for you. Oh well, time to get started on the to do list.
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Post by X factor on Oct 29, 2024 23:07:39 GMT -5
I may try to get one or two things done on the 'to do list', but this late at night, or very early after midnight, I'm just never in the mood to get much done.
I tell you what I'm done with, I'm done with the hustle and bustle of man, his society, his useless scurrying about.
Petty stuff.
Sorry, but money is everything, if money can buy your freedom, cause I so don't look forward to diving back into the day to day mess, which I've been away from for a while now.
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Post by X factor on Nov 14, 2024 7:48:53 GMT -5
I'm up earlier than I'm use to, so I may as well create a new 'to do list', and make the most out of the time.
Usually when I wake up before 9 am, I fumble around for an hour or two, then get drowsy again around 10 or 11 am, and go back to bed.
But when I eventually get another job, I won't have that option.
Being unemployed has been the best freedom I've ever had as an adult, and going back to work soon seems like hell to me, utter and total hell.
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Post by X factor on Nov 14, 2024 18:38:47 GMT -5
Time to write up a current 'to do list' Time to write up a current and relevant 'to do list', or I'll waste the rest of the evening and night just spacing off, I'm good at spacing off...cause in reality I'm done with life, meaning I could just spend the rest of my days in seclusion, if only I were rich. I have no desire to be apart of greater society no more, but forced to do to income needs. When younger, always dreaming of just buying some spooky older house, large house, with like 3-4 stories, and lots of rooms to explore. Imaging being alone and night while stoned in such a place, oh the adventures. Why must I live in a state where weed is illegal (Florida)...not that that stops anyone from doing it...but I don't, cause if I ever get back into driving, they test you for that...but it's one reason why they can't find good drivers these days, cause many drivers want their weed, or TSB or whatever the residue is called that they sell in stores. Anyways, time to get busy on some tasks. I have plenty of energy, even though not feeling the best on the inside.
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