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Post by X factor on May 2, 2022 15:52:25 GMT -5
I'm a wore out mess today, on this Tuesday, I mean or I mean Monday, see, I don't even know what day of the week it is.
Yesterday was so hype though, and today, ugg, I don't know what happened, I guess body getting to old to have two hyperactive days in a row.
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Post by X factor on Jun 7, 2022 10:19:20 GMT -5
It's a dizzy sissy type of Tuesday, I guess  I like creating my own gifs, cause get sick of the usual 'Happy Tuesday' or 'Happy this day' nonsense. Who says it's happy? All I know is it's Tuesday or Wednesday or Monday, but who says it has to be a happy one? Yet 1000's of gif creating artists all say the exact same dern thing 'Happy Tuesday' or 'Happy Friday' and so forth. Just shows how the masses are so programmed to think within the box instead of outside of it. That aside it's Tuesday and munching down on some Raman noodles in a cup with left over hamburger meat in it with raisons, all mixed together. I should be chef. ----------------------------- Well, I didn't do much with yesterday, I doubt I'm going to do much with today, seems my interest in things only seems to peek after business hours and everything is closed. But during the day when can actually get stuff done, I never feel like it, the clock in my head is just upside down I guess. ----------------------------- I wish I had like a pet Monster, ye that's right, a big scary pet monster, that I could pull out the closet and play with when bored, and be rough housed by it, tackled by it, tickled by it, and then when had enough could just hit the off switch and put it back in the closet. The one thing I miss most about having good friends in the rough housing, the playing around, the wrestling, that's all good for you, touching and grabbing and pulling on one another is all good for you and keeps you fit, when done in fun that is...who doesn't or didn't love to wrestle when younger? Then you grow up, get a bit older and everything becomes so dern serious and all the 'play' just stops. Anyways, it's Tuesday, the days here and miraculasly so am I.
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Post by X factor on Jun 7, 2022 14:34:16 GMT -5
It's still Tuesday, a very flat dull day (Or more like I think I'm the one who's dull and flat, not the day itself).
I exercised, came back and ate, and then fell out like a water logged log.
I've been drinking again and can already feel the effects, and will probably drink again this evening, just a few beers, since have to work anyways.
Usually the best time for me to start my 'no drinking' sprees are when I come off of set of work days, cause then it's already been days since haven't drank, it's easier that way.
But ye, just a few nights of drinking a few beers and can already see the weight creeping back, can already feel the sluggishness setting in.
For a month there I was doing super well, totally enjoying the weight loss, and drinking was just a after thought, but all it takes is one evening of weakness, one lapse of judgment, one lonely moment.
Oh well, time to break out the 'to do list' in order to salavage what's left of this Tuesday, which is more like a Sunday to me actually.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2022 12:38:06 GMT -5
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, and boy am I getting my life kicked by my own circumstances right now. Like self destruct mode or something do to whatever. Oh well, no matter what mood I'm in or what I'm going through I deal with it by turning it into abstract art or by writing about it. To me, all moments need to be recorded and shared, literally or abstractly. It's a cold world, and when a nice person, it's even colder. It's Tuesday and I'm still here, not sure why, but I am.
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Post by X factor on Jul 5, 2022 8:07:04 GMT -5
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, again, and I feel like I'm in a low gear trying to go uphill. Yesterday was the 4th, a drank a bit, slept long, and now I'm up. This post is the only indication that I'm even alive, if not for this post, no one would even know of my existence. I guess these posts are like cave wall postings, they'll remind someone in the future that I was alive and here. ------------------------------------ We are our own worst and best friend, we're our own worst and best enemy as well. Everything iminates from within. ------------------------------------ I suppose I should go eat something, nothing in the fridge or kitchen to brag about, that's for sure. It's Tuesday, and I'm still here.
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Post by X factor on Jul 12, 2022 13:51:03 GMT -5
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, and I'm a bit bored, it's hot and muggy outside which makes me just want to stay put inside and not even do the most simplist of tasks. Monday was suppose to be my 'coming out day', to the media and world (Well, at least to me)...but I drank on Sunday and well that just wrecked everything. I was slush yesterday, feel better today, but all that built up motivation is just gone now, all that emotional momentum gone. Maybe I'll force self to drive to the Post Office just to say I did something today. About out of fun food in fridge and cabnits. I say 'fun food', cause ye, I do have boxed food that I can still eat as in rice, oatmeal, cream of wheat, ramon noodles, fruit, stuff like that, unfun type of food you have to prepare, but I'm to lazy to even go shopping, I'm to lazy to even walk out to vehicle. Only rich people should be this lazy, who can afford to hire Butlers and Maids and caretakers, I certainly can't, so I have to be my own butler and maid and caretaker if I want to get anything done. --------------------------------------- I did have a nightmare moment with google chrome, then quickly or today, got rid of that crap, google chrome is some scary crap, no wonder all over the net people are telling you not to use that browser... I don't even think Satan or God spies on people, alters stuff on you, they way google chrome does. ----------------------------------- Other than that, not much going on on this Tuesday of July...and I'm off tomorrow, wow. And even worse when sober, cause when I'm sober energy is off the charts, and nothing worse than having energy and being bored. But when drinking, you drink, get drunk...this process can last 5 hours or more or less, just depends on your health, time of day, ect, but point is then you just sleep, and sleep and sleep, and so don't have to do anything...not that that's good, cause it's not. Oh well, I'll figure out something to keep self busy...had I not drank on Sunday I'd be in a different world right now, for the better or worse....but instead, it's just Tuesday.
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Post by X factor on Sept 13, 2022 11:50:47 GMT -5
I don't rush things anymore
I'm older now, or getting older, and so I just don't rush things anymore, or make self feel I have to get anything done fast.
I did that in the past and none of it paid off.
Upload this, create and upload that, why?
No one pays me, no one compliments me, ever says thanks, so why should I feel obliged to serve those who never even acknowledge my skills?
Not just here but other places as well.
So yep, I just take my time now, for until someone pays me, why should I rush?
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Post by X factor on Oct 11, 2022 18:22:15 GMT -5
Today was a crummy Tuesday for me, one of the worst I've had in a long while, as far as mood goes.
Lot's of things can and do affect our moods.
I slept in very late, and have to work tomorrow, which makes it even feel worse, but I have no choice but to 'work through it'.
When an adult, no one cares about your mood, moods, how you feel, you still have to perform, regardless of your mood. Perform as in get up and go to work, pay bills, and function. You can't just roll up and vanish, not when bills have to be paid.
Not sure why all these immigrants so have it in their minds that America is a better place, many may change their minds after they get here, and realize that you still have to hustle, even in America, in order to make it.
Unless good at scamming and shamming the system.
Today was a lousy day for me, emotionally, and mood wise.
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Post by X factor on Nov 15, 2022 18:29:36 GMT -5
Tuesday  I guess my time off this time wasn't a total lost, I did get a few things done. 1. book publishing crap out of the way, got new publisher on KDP, and told old publisher to pound sand, cause I don't think they were reporting my sales to me, what a scoundrel, although didn't come out and tell them that. 2. Found new platform, radio platform, where can possibly launch new radio show from soon, would of been this weekend had I not drank so much yesterday and got distracted. 3. Signed lease, again, so at current place for at least another year. 4. Made, created, some more cool gifs, I'm happiest when artistically allowed to create, is why I hate my day job so much, cause there's no room for creativity, you just show up and do your job like a mule. I hate that tomorrow is freagin looming just around the corner. I can never have enough time off....working for a income is a farse, and exploitive farse, surely there has to be a better system. Most of us spend so many years of our lives doing what we obsolutely dread, simply to pay bills. Anyways, another Tuesday has come and gone.
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Post by X factor on Nov 15, 2022 18:30:45 GMT -5
Tuesday I guess my time off this time wasn't a total lost, I did get a few things done. 1. book publishing crap out of the way, got new publisher on KDP, and told old publisher to pound sand, cause I don't think they were reporting my sales to me, what a scoundrel, although didn't come out and tell them that. 2. Found new platform, radio platform, where can possibly launch new radio show from soon, would of been this weekend had I not drank so much yesterday and got distracted. 3. Signed lease, again, so at current place for at least another year. 4. Made, created, some more cool gifs, I'm happiest when artistically allowed to create, is why I hate my day job so much, cause there's no room for creativity, you just show up and do your job like a mule. I hate that tomorrow is freagin looming just around the corner. I can never have enough time off....working for a income is a farse, and exploitive farse, surely there has to be a better system. Most of us spend so many years of our lives doing what we obsolutely dread, simply to pay bills. Anyways, another Tuesday has come and gone. Older post from a different place and time. |
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Post by X factor on Jan 10, 2023 10:20:47 GMT -5
Time to get up, get dressed, and go run an errand or two. Times like this I wish I had a personal servant who could do stuff like this for me. Or even a human looking android robot, like in the movie 'I Robot', with Will Smith.  But since I don't have a pet robot or a human servant, I've got to get up and out now. Today will be interesting, a new start, sort of, or the continuation of an older start with some newer twists to it. |
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Post by X factor on Jan 24, 2023 14:04:47 GMT -5
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday and I need to get up, get dressed and go to the store, if for no other reason than to get some more bread for the birds outside. I wish I could afford a maid or a butler, cause when I'm off from work, the last thing I feel like doing is ever leaving my place for anything. All I want to do is stay home, naked and undressed in the solitude of my own place. Getting dressed, fixing up hair, face, oh what a pain. Anyways, I do need to go shopping cause no one else will do it for me if I don't. It's Tuesday, Lord have mercy on my soul.
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Post by X factor on Feb 21, 2023 13:49:48 GMT -5
Tuesday
I can only take cleaning for 30 minutes at a time, then I just lose my mind.
As in I can clean the bathroom, the hall, and maybe one other room, but after that, I start losing my mind with boredom.
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Post by X factor on May 2, 2023 20:12:13 GMT -5
It's Tuesday What a day, in that I guess I'll be staying here for another year, the stress of not knowing if would have to move or not wreaked havoc on me for the last month or so. Now I know I can stay, but should I? Rent keeps going up, and I'm sure I could of found cheaper place if looked, but is cheaper better? Peace, at my age, is everything to me, if paying cheaper rent, yet living next to loud people, or roach infestation, or barking dog next door, is less rent worth it? No. I think when I do eventually have to move from here, it's going to have to be in a place where I have peace, so may spend rest of year putting aside savings, every month, so that can by used RV, cash, and when have to move, at least have the freedom to move where it's peaceful. All that aside, it's Tuesday, and I do believe I'm off tomorrow so get to sleep in another day, cool. As I think now I'll watch a few scary/thriller movies, like Vivarium... www.spreaker.com/episode/46710811
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Post by X factor on Jul 4, 2023 8:30:19 GMT -5
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, the 4th of July. (j keypad acting up, can't capitalize) That being said it's Tuesday, suns out, and I'm up. Haven't been in a 4th of July mood or spirit in years, you need to be around fun loving people for that to happen. But I do celebrate my own independence daily, from BS, and or from jobs I don't like, and from people I don't like, situations I don't like, I try to stay free and independent of all the previous. Having the 4th fall on a Tuesday though, is awkward as hell for the working class, nothing like fireworks keeping you awake past midnight if have to work the next day. Anyways, can't find work phone, which stores my work schedule, so I don't know if work tomorrow or not, which will effect my mood and planning today. Let me go see if I can locate that phone. A few weeks ago I lost my personal phone.
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