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Post by X factor on Aug 16, 2020 4:23:39 GMT -5
Way to many clutter of dreams to remember them all clearly
But the one last sequence dream I do remember is the following.
1. Upstairs in same home spent most of adolescents in.
2. In this home, me and my sister had adjacent rooms, they were more like 'attic rooms', I say that cause later on, when older, realized our rooms use to be attics, but remodeled into rooms, anyways started off in sisters old room, where the walls were painted pink (in real life, not so much in this dream, the walls weren't even noticed or sloped ceiling)
3. 'crowd' was in sisters room, I mixture of adults, and some of my childhood friends, and the Flintstones, like Fred's wife or something.
4. In this dream, I guess I was a cop, or had connections to the law, but other person in dream wasn't, in fact they were into the underworld and about to make some kind of drug deal or something, well somehow I got 'tip' of this and felt it was my duty to warn them that certain people there at rondivue were undercover, so I led this person into other room, my room, where it was pitch black, and I told them what I knew and that they were not to tell anyone.
In this dream, this person felt like either my brother, or best friend that I considered a brother, and in dream, when telling them this info in the dark, I felt my character more resembled 'Robert Deniro' the actor, so while whispering in this persons ear in the dark we were both older, like characters out of a Martin Scorossee movie or something.
5. And that was that, I told them to be weary, and to make smart decision based on what I told them.
6. Then remember just being there in the dark alone, stretched out..(that was me laying down in bed in real life, I understood that once I woke up). Then remember saying 'Are you still there?'...it felt so lonely, then remember that mild hood friend or something 'Skinner' was their nickname, it was like Skinner, a red headed classmate I grew up with, and Betty, Fred's wife on the Flinstones, both kind of saying how.
'Well, in the news looks like that rondavou spot has been found out and possibly moved to Mexico where they don't have 'something', can't remember what was said.
And I remember thinking, 'crap', it's already leaked out into the media, and then 'leaks' became the issue I heard Skinner and Betty talking about, how everyone leaks stuff now days.
7. I then worked way downstairs, it was still dark out, night time, I worked way through kitchen and towards back dining room with glass sliding door (still in real life home grew up in). And there was 'the' cat, alone in the dark, but so content, even though it, as in mood, felt so lonely, yet cat was content and did not complain but wanted out, you know like how cats walk between your legs when they want you to open door to let them out.
I felt bad for the cat, cause I felt like it had been neglected and wondered if anyone had even put food in dish, but still let it out, and on steps was another cat that looked similar on the waiting to be let in.
One out, one in, I guess, I don't know, I woke up right after that, laying in same position I was dreaming I was laying in while in old dark room.
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That cat, in dream you could tell it was not neglected, it looked very healthy, nice set of hair and all, like one of those grey stripped tiger looking cats..tabee?
But none the less I felt it was neglected as far as affection goes cause it was downstairs in such a dark lonely spot...and I wanted the cat to know it was 'loved', at least by me.
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Post by X factor on Aug 18, 2020 2:01:54 GMT -5
No current dreams to report on, but last night had one that won't physically try to explain, but rather try to explain the meaning to 'self'.
Long dream sequence short, Childhood friend I knew long ago, appeared in dream, but in dream they were older, but in dream felt like around college age.
And in dream they still felt like a bully/friend, as they were in real life, at least at beginning of relationship.
And in dream though, they were really rough housing me, and were like the size of a city bus, and I was on the bottom of them, and they were like smearing me along, kind of like if you rolled a long flat board over cookie dough, I was the cookie dough.
Hard to explain.
But I remember feeling both disturbed by this and comforted.
Comforted because they were showing me attention, attention, and were rough housing me, and that part I liked, cause I felt like I mattered.
And to larger theme of dream or post, I think everyone needs 'affection', and that affection, when younger, often came in the form of rough housing between friends, or play wrestling, remember that?
But you always felt better when done, whether you won or loss, it was affection from another.
And I think for many, especially when grown, that's so missing.
'play' that is, just playing around with another, not in a soxual way, but in a silly, rough housing way where you're kind of testing each other's agility.
And I think my reaction to dream tells me that I long for that, or those days again, when people weren't so dm serious about everything, and had the ability to 'play', rough house, and then laugh it off.
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Post by X factor on Aug 18, 2020 2:08:53 GMT -5
No current dreams to report on, but last night had one that won't physically try to explain, but rather try to explain the meaning to 'self'. Long dream sequence short, Childhood friend I knew long ago, appeared in dream, but in dream they were older, but in dream felt like around college age. And in dream they still felt like a bully/friend, as they were in real life, at least at beginning of relationship. And in dream though, they were really rough housing me, and were like the size of a city bus, and I was on the bottom of them, and they were like smearing me along, kind of like if you rolled a long flat board over cookie dough, I was the cookie dough. Hard to explain. But I remember feeling both disturbed by this and comforted. Comforted because they were showing me attention, attention, and were rough housing me, and that part I liked, cause I felt like I mattered. And to larger theme of dream or post, I think everyone needs 'affection', and that affection, when younger, often came in the form of rough housing between friends, or play wrestling, remember that? But you always felt better when done, whether you won or loss, it was affection from another. And I think for many, especially when grown, that's so missing. 'play' that is, just playing around with another, not in a soxual way, but in a silly, rough housing way where you're kind of testing each other's agility. And I think my reaction to dream tells me that I long for that, or those days again, when people weren't so dm serious about everything, and had the ability to 'play', rough house, and then laugh it off. I think that's why there's so much violence among today's youth, cause they're robbed of 'play', playing around, like guys use to do, allows you to work off or out aggression, and to develop in between emotions. Without that, people just go from calm to upset in seconds, and then want to shoot you, and I think it's do to lack of 'play' among today's youth. For instance I can remember having play gun fights, play gun battles, this group of friends against that group of friends, or squirt gun fights, and so forth. You don't see that now, well in video games I guess, but it's not the same as running around outside and hiding behind objects. I think 'play', and rough housing during youth is vital to healthy adult development. If that were stated anywhere else, I'd get an award for it, but saying it here, people will just read it, and that's it, won't share it or give me credit. It's why I gotta get back in college or something where statements are recorded and rated, and acclaimed and elevated, here you could say the most brilliant thing, and nothing, just silence...and in a way I find that very selfish.
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Post by X factor on Aug 18, 2020 2:14:22 GMT -5
Yes, what 'playing' does is it allows you to loose, and to realize loosing isn't the end of the world, and it's why I think the less people 'play' while young, the more serious and frail they are as they age, and tend to take everything overly serious, tend to get insulted very easy, and on the streets that translates into violence.
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Post by X factor on Aug 18, 2020 21:53:20 GMT -5
Another dream of feeding a cat Not sure why as of late, been having dreams of feeding these cats in the old house I was raised in during adolescent years. This time the cat was black , with patches of white on it's face, and I was in kitchen, and I think me and the cat were actually speaking English back and forth to one another, if not audibly then telepathically, I just knew we both understood each other well, the cat wanted some quality food for a change...and I did feel sorry for it. So together we searched through pantry for some real food, and finally I found can of salmon, real Salmon, and put it in the dish, but when opened can, it was cheap 'dollar store' salmon and the can wasn't as full of fish as I'd hoped, but cat still tried eating it and made the best of the meal. Another dream I had A shipmate I served in the Navy with, and I forget their name, but remember although 'white', they identified as Mexican, or Hispanic, they were the type of white guy that could actually identify with anyone or group...they were young, slender, lanky and actually 'cute', had that 'twink' look, but since from Los Angeles they were also tough, and had a temper, we were actually roommates for a while in real life. They always got in trouble in real life, and eventually were booted from the Navy up there in Bremerton, WA, but let me get back to the dream specifics. 1. We were at some kind of theater, even was over, sun was setting, in car with them as and leaving, then they decided to pull up to some hamburger joint, I really didn't want to go in, but did, and by the time I walked back outside they were gone, them and the car. (at this time it felt like we were in Tampa, FL). So I sat down with bag of food, felt a bit frustrated but not really upset, for after all it was irresponsible (name) that did this, that left me. I remember getting on cell phone and about to call Uber or something, then they come running from behind store, shirt off, but this time near dark, and told me. 'Hey, come on, my Father called me over and want to 'go out?', I forget the reason. So they ran back into neighborhood which in dream they were firmiluar with, but I wasn't. I felt very uneasy treading through peoples back yards, since they did not know me..and again I last track of ____(forget their name). Finally ended up at some duplic looking apartments, and sitting down on steps, once again frustrated. Some Hispanic dudes came out of bottom unit and I asked them if they knew where such and such was, they shook head and said no, and walked off, then to the left, on walk way, here comes some gang looking younger Hispanics, mind you it's night now, I felt a bit nervious, but glad they saw me talking to other Hispanics which made it appear I belonged there. I went up hill and around to front of apartment place where there he was again, giving me some other excuse to what was going on, but it did have something to do with his Father. After that dream kind of faded.
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Post by X factor on Sept 12, 2020 12:22:20 GMT -5
Lot's of dreams about former places I've lived or worked, but hardly none about current place I live or work
Lately dreams with scenes from places I formerly lived or worked, or people I formerly knew, and places lived, but I notice hardly none, if any of my dreams reflect my current situation.
I wonder why that is?
I dream of family, family I haven't seen in years, I dream of classmates haven't seen in decades, I dream of places haven't lived at in decades, pets, and so forth, but I never seem to ever dream about current place I stay or current people I interact with.
I wonder if things have to become a memory first, before you'll dream about them?
But now that I think about it I may of dreamed of a situation that really happened today.
Today had package delivered to door step, and in dream, at large construction site, 3 men came up to my patio or deck of multi layered Condos or apartments or something, and they dialed a number.
The number they dialed was that of a phone they had lost, and figured if they heard the phone ringing, they'd know it was inside my place, well no phone rang cause I didn't have it.
But now that think about it, I wonder if I was actually dreaming about when Amazon delivered package in 'real time'?
I guess I'll never know since dreams don't have 'time stamps' on them.
But if so, that's pretty cool, and wish I could harness that ability at will.
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Post by X factor on Sept 14, 2020 10:28:08 GMT -5
Many dreams, but only remember the ones I had right before waking up
Here are some dreams I had and can remember, in no particular order
1. At some kind of a basketball camp for athletes, Michael Jordan was there, and I think one of the trainers, I was in awe, but to the other players he was just a trainer, they were not in awe as I was.
Then tried sneaking into one of his drills, (as if he wouldn't notice, but he did), once he noticed he began asking questions, 'who are you?, what's your name?, why are you here?', and so forth. I kept evading the questions, then he was like 'OK, if you belong here do this', and the 'this' was some kind of drill exercise...than dream just kind of faded.
2. Other basketball related dream took place in a bedroom of mine, looked like the current one, sort of, remember Mother not being impressed and complaining about how my blankets and sheets smelled, and suggesting so in a nasty 'I don't even like you anymore' type of way or tone. I tried to distract with my basketball skills, but to no avail. (not a good feeling dream)
3. Car with thief inside slides down mountain road embankment, slides down backwards, very forestry mountain road.
When cam to a stop cops on road above yelled to 4 men below that car was stolen and to seize the thief inside of vehicle, so when the 4 mean opened all for doors to grab the driver out, they all started screaming...somehow wasps or hornets were inside the vehicle and stinging everyone, they all fled the vehicle and ran away from car into deeper woods, at this time it appeared to be night time.
To the 4 men, getting hornets off of them was still their priority, but to the driver of the car, who was about or around 24, white, shoulder length hair, he ran back towards cops who had come down hillside, and he yelled..
'Help, help, he's over here' (ambush), and when the cops came running towards him, he opened fire on them, hitting one, and kept shooting until another officer took him out.
He lay there, and the rifle he had was a lever action Remington?, or similuar.
My thoughts in dream were 'You're younger, white, in shape, and not bad looking, why are you doing this?, you could of gotten away and just blended into general population'
But this younger White guy seemed bent on revenge or something, and obviously what happened to him did not matter...not sure if he survived or not, dream faded.
4. Father, who's no longer here, had a rifle and was stalking people, or 'us', in some kind of group home, I remember there being 'hobbits' in this group home, and remember feeling this has occurred more than once, hobbits ran to safety and locked door, but I wasn't so lucky. Father, or former father, stuck barrel of rifle through door as I was trying to close it, woke up.
Then in another 'wake up dream', some wasps inside place noticed me and one dove for me, and of course I woke up.
Not really a good night of dreams
2 dealt with firearms, and 2 dealt with deranged parents who did not like me, and one dealt with angry wasps who did not like me.
Not a good night of dreams at all.
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Post by X factor on Sept 17, 2020 11:41:52 GMT -5
Dreamed I was at a apartment complex and with a 'Thia' or 'Thai' lady, Asian.
To many sequences to get into.
No cex involved in the dream, more like trying to mend old relationship or something.
Also I think someone had a very old mother in this dream, and that was apart of the relationship package.
I forget.
It was a very thin Thia lady though.
And sweet and sour egg rolls were in dream to, remember seeing them get prepared as dream was playing out.
Smashed windows, I think that's how it started, Thia lady wanted to know if I knew anything about some vandalism that occurred.
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My only take away from it all is I wonder if a Thia lady is in my future?
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Post by X factor on Sept 18, 2020 10:46:26 GMT -5
Very odd dreams
Very odd dreams, I think they were more symbolic of other dynamics other than the physical dynamics they played out with in dream.
1. More _______t type dream with sister of mine who lives in Colorado...but more like heavy petting and flirting type stuff, but I do think there was a deeper meaning to it all.
In the dream older sister (the one just 1 year older) was very apologetic towards me, willing to 'listen' to me for the first time in many years.
And I think the heavy petting, and their submission to it, was more symbolic of them appologizing for being so 'prude' over all the previous years, and or listening to others, before listening to their own flesh and blood.
I mean in this dream they even allowed me to pour oil over the heals of their feet, which were a bit dry, and do close encounter 'yoga' together, as I demonstrated the benefits of these exercises, and they listened, and trusted, and liked it all.
Obviously very symbolic of winning back another's trust, just not sure why it played out in soxual way, rather than us just sitting down at a table and talking.
I cannot control what subconscious mind conjures up...enough about that.
2. Also had similar dream about former female co-worker, near same age my sister is, but of different ethnicity.
Not sure why in today's set of dreams having all these heavy 'petting' encounters with women I knew from the past.
And had another dream about former Boss, and place I worked at and left over a year ago.
I mean what's up with all these delayed dream sequences?
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I have these emotionally action packed dreams, where interacting physically and emotionally with others, then I wake up, and life, real life, just seems so dull, dry, and empty in contrast.
Not sure what to do about that.
The only way real life, could mimic the type of dreams I have is if smoked or I guess now 'ate' weed, or some other hillusinatory type of narcotics.
(Which I can't do, do to random drug testing at my job, darn...LOL)
But ye, if ever won the lottery, or if live long enough to retire, than maybe I will take weed, and mushrooms, in order to live these dreams while actually awake.
I mean if retired, old, why not?
What's next, death?, rot?
The minute I get a job that doesn't drug test, maybe I 'will' relax my own personal standard on 'Just say no'
I've always been a 'just say no' type my whole life, now look at me.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2020 10:15:08 GMT -5
Quick dream notes
No particular order
1. White poodle (again), and while walking at night, with white poodle, in tall grassy meadow lit up by street lamps or lights, there were white dice everywhere and I kept picking up the white dice and putting them in containers
2. Guarding aircraft carrier at night with other top secret team mates, we were laying around ships perimenter just about even with flight deck, or tad below, lots of activity going on at the port, or military base
3. Trying to run in and out of haunted house inhabited by spirit witches, the trick was to run in go as deep as possible, and then run out without awakening the spirit witches, inside the house was dark, and we would follow one long haul that changed directions every 10 feet or so, place was carpeted with a dull green carpet, felt like being inside cheaply built modular home, but the hallways went on for hundreds of yards. (did this activity with former co-worker).
This is actually a re occurring dream, but this time managed to get in and out without stirring up the demonic witches, sometimes ceiling in the hall so low, had to stoop or crawl to move forward.
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And that's a quick summary of a few dreams I had that can remember right of hand.
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Post by X factor on Oct 1, 2020 15:16:55 GMT -5
To many dreams to go over that I've had over last few days, quick list form in case in future I want to go into detail
No particular order
1. Dreamed of being in living room with parents and sister, we were older, but didn't really look it. It was confession time I guess, and sister one year older than me confessed to drinking my Mothers beer, when younger, which caused Mother a lot of embarraccement at the time (I guess).
Punishment?...push ups, 14 push ups, and even though remember not really liking sister in dream, when saw them struggling with push ups I jumped in like a company commander and we did them together...it felt good to help my sister out in a bind, and I think I do yearn to do that in real life.
2. Saved some of my former classmates from a tough 'biker' type...
Actually, that's all for now, will retell the other dreams either here or elsewhere as time allows.
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Post by X factor on Oct 3, 2020 11:55:11 GMT -5
Last dream I remember having before I woke up was of two hood black dudes trying to not just beat up, but 'soxually assault' another guy.
They didn't just want to beat this guy up, but they kept trying to undress them so they could do like a prison 'raze' on them, I guess.
But guy kept struggling, and finally was able to run away, they followed, and the guy, victim, who started off as shorter black dude, turned into a white guy by the time dream was over.
And the white guy got away by hoping over peoples backyard fences until enough people came out to see what was going on.
Then I remember, in dream, reporters wondering why the police did not respond to this guys 911 call until 36 hours later.
Just one of many odd dreams, but the freshest one in mind when I woke up.
I did not feel sorry or bad for the black or white guy who were being chased down by two goons.
It felt more like watching a sport to me, while in dream.
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Post by X factor on Oct 10, 2020 8:47:31 GMT -5
Red vines licorice
For some reason, in one of my closing dreams, redvines licorice was the crave, and was associated with helping to either cure or prevent corona virus, or some other type illness.
As such the Government was about to actually mandate that everyone start eating red vine licorice, and I remember this going down inside of a Walmart Supercenter, as I, we, discussed this amongst ourselves and other shoppers.
And in dream I sorta had a girlfriend, a tall, tanned skinned, straight dark haired gal, tanned as in maybe native American mixed with white or some other combo, and she were glasses but was smart.
Everyone was buying up redvine licorice the way they made a run on Lysol spray and TP, and we were buying some of the last boxes, but many, including myself, were a bit defiant at the idea of being forced to eat this candy, and were discussing legal ways around it.
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I doubt the above dream will ever happen, and think maybe it had more to do with vaccines, and the concern that the Government could mandate people take vaccines, which I've heard some actually have a 3rd strand of DNA in them that then fuses to your DNA at molecular level thus you actually are 'changed' from molecular level in a slight way, and the purpose of this would be to possibly steralize people on a mass scale, or make people more vulnerable to mind control, or some other trait that makes it easier for Governments or large corporations to control.
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Post by X factor on Oct 10, 2020 8:52:50 GMT -5
Also had many dreams of my Mother last night, and even one of my deceased grandmother, who worked as a clerk in Walmart and was trying to help me decide what clothing item to buy...I kind of felt 'crowded' and rejected the help in a subtle way, but it upset them and they walked away with my Mother, as I was walking away my Grandmothers son, which would be my Uncle, who's also deceased, came walking over and I could sense this made my grandmother happy, cause she knew her son would give her attention.
Then mother came back over to me and asked in a sharp mean way 'Why were you like that with your grandmother'?...and I just said again 'Cause I felt crowded'.
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Post by X factor on Oct 21, 2020 20:43:32 GMT -5
Dreams can boost moral and confidence At least with me, I notice my dreams have the ability to boost my moral and confidence within the physical realm. In that when I dream, as we all know (at least those who study dreams) your subconscious mind can't tell the difference between dream emotions and awake emotions, to the mind and body emotions and reactions are '1', being scared in a dream releases the same hormones as being scared in real life. Feeling happy in a dream, releases the same hormones as being happy in real life, it's all the same, we're simply reacting to our environment. And I know with me anyways, in my dreams I'm constantly living out situations that I can't in real life, in my dreams I have friends, in my dreams I'm always talking to family, in my dreams I'm flying airplanes (something I use to always want to do), in my dreams my pets can talk, either that or we have mind communication. It's like my dreams put me where I want to be or where I should be in this world had things gone right. I'm never socially isolated in my dreams, and socialization is what makes us feel better, so in dreams if I'm around people who love and like me, and then wake up, the effect of that feeling of being loved carries over intot he real world cause again the mind doesn't know it was a dream...I mean I do, but the subconscious mind just racks it up as an experience...happy is happy, dream or no dream. Anyways just woke up, and feel a bit better do to dreams I had, but although I can still feel the happy effects, I can't remember the details or I'd share.
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