Had dream last night that met a Indian woman, lady, a bit more darker skinned than lady above, or maybe just different lighting.
In the dream it's as if we both agreed to just 'settle' for one another and enjoy physical companionship now and then in a recreational manner.
It's as if we were both lonely, yet knew there was no 'perfect' match for either of us, so figured enjoying or sharing each other physically could at least satisfy one need, and then who knows, maybe later more emotional attachment would follow.
(Going after faint memories of dream, I could be wrong with narration but trying to frame it to make some kind of sense, again could be way off in interpretation)
In dream we indeed were beginning to have rabbit food, and I remember feeling a bit happy that someone would give themselves to me, even if in that manner.
Then of course woke up...(darn)...and laid on couch awake in the dark, in half sleep, trying to figure out what dream was about or where it was leading, and what deeper meaning did it have in that I normally do not seek out women of Indian or Hindu culture.
Had many dreams, as usual, but one that stands out is one where some male dancer at a club preferred walking around on all fours, and tried making a trend out of walking on all fours, hands and feet or legs, instead of upright.
They were on the dance floor at club, dancing on all fours.
Stupid dream, not sure what it meant, it was just one of many strung along a full sequence of dreams, but only one to come to surface right now.
In second house remember growing up in, attic converted to room type of room, I guess.
Dark, Mother sleeping in bed across from self.
Air was thick with 'evil' or 'disturbing spirits'.
Suddenly, in the dark, Mother blurted out 'I eat people'.
I lay still, could feel 'evil' in the air, like bad spirits, that were either drawn to Mother or they putting out.
I lay still, in the dark, then, and this is where dream began feeling more like 'sleep paralyst' (you know, where you can't tell if dreaming or not)
Started getting handled by the most dark, sinister spirit or spirits, tried flipping legs up over head, I put my hands in front of face, hands started moving so fast became a blur (obviously demons or something evil or sinister mocking my attempts to shield self from evil odor)
Remember asking 'Jesus' over and over again to help me out...nothing, nada, zero, as if Jesus were just a name, may as well asked 'Snoopy' the dog for help.
Odd disturbing dream, Mother was gone, possessed by dark spirits, just not there anymore, talking about 'I eat people'.
Not sure what to make of dream.
It was one of those dreams so real, that even when just awakened, still think scene is as was when asleep, still felt like in old room I grew up in, still felt other bed over there, and Mother still in it.
Time to dream now, where nothing makes chronicle sense, images mix match, a character you think you know in dream has different body, makes sense in dream, but when wake up logical mind can't make sense of it.
No gravity, no hunger, no need to be employed in dreams, dreams are just where it seems subconscious mind works out complex inter personal issues.
For me it's the most dynamic part of 24 hour cycle, in dreams can fly jets, go back and do things wish I had done, talk to people, lovers, I wish I could still, but can't.
In dreams, parents still there, old house, old school, old classmates, and work out dynamics couldn't in real life.
The brain is weird, can conjure up old people, moments, you long thought were forgotten history, and make you work through issues you thought were long gone.
Old pets to, seems dreams even conjure up old pets, but in dreams they're more full, symbolic.
But when awaken, again, not of it makes sense when brain is thinking logically.
1. Dog, puppy I use to own, have in me energy field, it was dark, pup licking on me and all in dream, dark, in bed, yet pup spoke and said 'Look, it's ____ (forget name), but it scared me, I looked over and it was a pile of balloons, but could tell whatever puppy saw was real, and image faded when I looked at it, can't call this a complete nightmare...just a disturbing dream.
had other dreams about former puppy I use to own...but not enough details to write about
Scary dream about getting lost in a housing project in the hood
Scary disturbing dream about getting lost, on foot, in a housing project in the hood.
As was walking in (was with another person) a bunch of 'B' males sitting outside of unit, begin commenting on us, on me, they were mocking us, could hear them saying
'you know them fools lost, outta run down there and rush they azzes'
A big hardened alpha male hood type was heard saying this.
You could tell they were prison hardened, and had the fear of the other types around him, so if did decide to 'rush us', there was nothing that could be down...it was a bad feeling.
Got separated from other guy (who was younger, white, and fem looking, at least to them), and begin heading out, and they kept watching, as I didn't want to seem shaken, or that I could hear them, but I could, and felt like pride had been crushed, felt like a coward actually.
Then later wanted to go back and find a few of them one on one, when separated from their pack, and deal with them...but never did, instead ended up in some outside strip mall looking festival at some Karate display where guy tried kicking glass bottle out of my hands to demonstrate how flexible they were, but I held glass bottle to close to wall, so when they kicked the glass bottle, cut foot on nail that was sticking out.
You could tell it hurt, but they tried not showing it.
And no, being asleep isn't the same as being 'dead', big difference, being asleep is being alive, only in different realm, a painless realm, a realm where you're not hungry, or need money and can defy physics, time and physical boundaries.
But when awaken held captive by them all.
When awaken reminded of how small you really are, powerless.
Dreams are an escape from that, and don't cost nothing, no spam in dreams, no commercial breaks, no add banners in your dream.