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Post by X factor on Oct 30, 2016 19:57:42 GMT -5
Going to bed now, terrible day, very less than fulfilling weekend.
Just wasting time, not sure what I'm waiting for anymore...old age, sickness and death?
Most people are so very selfish
In my case the world has been very selfish to me.
I will have come and gone, and it will be as if I never was.
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Post by X factor on Oct 30, 2016 20:00:48 GMT -5
I heal when I sleep and dream, cause being awake offers no such medicine, just burden...
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Post by X factor on Nov 19, 2016 10:07:14 GMT -5
Going to create new twitter account, ended last one hours ago.
I don't like giving all my thoughts, intellectual, property away for free with so little in return.
I had like 17,000 posts or so, yet only 500 + followers, it's all rigged.
Yet some who only have 100 posts, have like 10,000 followers (pay to play).
It's all rigged.
So what I usually do is after a year of same account, I just end it, cause you put a lot of yourself out there, for others to steal, they'll steal your ideas, but will never give you credit for any of it.
The election is over, so I need to start 'afresh' anyways.
So later today will create new twitter account again.
But unlike most, my identity is very 'plural'...so constantly evolving, devolving, and more.
Sometimes artistic, other times political, other times militant, other times wimpy, other times, angry, other times full of humor, other times lonely, other times ambitious, other times not inspired, and on and on.
It's why no one can figure me out, cause I'm to broad, like the galaxy.
People want 'God' to be broad, but if they perceive you as being human, people want you to be small and predictable and fit into a nice neat package.
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Post by X factor on Nov 24, 2016 8:18:29 GMT -5
The New Years not here yet, but already decided to no longer invest in people or personalities, or anything, that has zero interest in my health and prosperity. True friends will yield things in your life, true job will allow growth, allow personal input. A healthy social setting will put you around those who are mentally well adjusted and rational. Good neighbors say 'hi', 'hello', check up on you now and then...I seem to have none of the above, it's like I'm in a dead pool of nothingness. Where people can know you for years, see what you need to be whole, and never help you achieve it. Instead they hide you, and only use you for their own personal interest. You can be single, and instead of them 'hooking you up', they hide you, as if jealous that you might have to much appeal and steal everyone around them. It's like being used. Tired of 'dead pan' people in my life who yield nothing but empty conversation, and use whatever you have, vehicle, technology, 'smarts' ect, for their gain, but never offer you anything in return, in fact when you're not needed by them, it's as if you don't even exist. They don't want to be bothered by you when they're busy, yet expect you to schedule your life around their needs. They watch to see if you achieve, but are never interested in helping you achieve. They'll watch you age and get old, and that's about it, just observe you, until they need something from you. They have families, but never occurs to them maybe you want one to. Just tired of having such in my life anymore, tired of attracting 'dead pan' types, which equates into a dead pool existence eventually.  |
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Post by X factor on Dec 13, 2016 20:33:06 GMT -5
More and more people in the media, be it TV or radio or even internet, are just ugly, say jarring insulting things just for effect
Why is it that everyone in the media has to use such ugly, polarizing words in order to get where they are?
I just get tired of it, the generalizations, the labeling, the partisan BS, name calling, it just seems all in the media are ugly, foul, on purpose, as if designed to constantly jar or jab at your sensibilities.
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Post by X factor on Jan 10, 2017 21:37:57 GMT -5
Tonight I'm tired, wore out, and done and really actually going to bed early.
Dreams await, where gravity defied, where can re connect with old classmates, family, friends, pets, and other odd strange beings.
Lately the most fulfilling part of my 24 hour cycle as been dreams, where money doesn't matter, and never hungry.
Good night.
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Post by X factor on Jan 16, 2017 20:18:39 GMT -5
Would you trade a year of your life for every million won in the lottery?Would you trade a year of your life for every million won in the lottery? In other words, if won 5 million, would you be willing to live for 5 years? if won 10 million, would you be willing for life to end after 10 years, and so forth? It's all so relative, I mean 10 million is a lot if broke, but there's already thousands of people who's wealth far exceeds that and certainly they wouldn't trade their life for dollars. But if poor, broke, never had anything, would it be worth trading years of life for every million won in lottery? The again, exactly how far would 5 million go these days? I'd might consider such a trade, but minimum amount would have to be 5 million. I think being allowed to live the best years of my life for 5 solid years might be better than living 30 more years faced with uncertainty and not being able to help those around me. I don't know, you decide, after all this is the 'Twylight Zone boards' and never ever forget that. 
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Post by X factor on Feb 7, 2017 21:48:57 GMT -5
Stray cats Stray cats sometimes annoy me, I mean you throw them food, and they sit there and sniff it, and then dine on it like it's a gourmet dinner, they take their time, while you're throwing out other stuff for them to eat before other animal gets it, yet stray cat sits their nibbling on it like it's a gourmet dinner. Stray dogs, on the other hand, basically just gobble, or swallow, whatever is thrown to them, like 'gulp', then it's gone as they like their lips.
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Post by X factor on Feb 7, 2017 22:05:22 GMT -5
To me, unless some ones calling to say you've won a million dollars, than why answer the phone. Oldie but goodie, posted way back in 2015, nothing has changed in regards to this thought. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 10, 2017 21:14:57 GMT -5
If I won
If I won $2000.00 in lottery I'd
1. Pay off credit card payments with balances under 300
2. Save the rest
If I won 10,000 in lottery I'd
1. Pay off all debt, accept auto loan.,and save the rest.
If I won 20,000
1. I'd pay off all debt, including auto loan
2. Save the rest
If I won 50,000
1. Pay off all debt
2. Save some, spend rest to go back to school and learn a new trade
If I won 100,000
1. All debt gone
2. would buy or put a lot of money down on land or home, save the rest.
If I won 200,000
1. All debt gone
2. buy home
3. Save the rest
If I won 500,000
1. All debt gone
2. would by nice home and land
3. would buy a boat, motorcycle, other small toys, and start own contracting business
If I won 1 million
1. All debt gone, hopefully would not create new ones
2. Land, small estate in country
3. would buy small second or even 3rd house or cabin
4. would invest some of the money
5. Would buy small, cheap, used airplane or used helicopter..
6. would give some away in the form of scholarships
7. would buy small business, or create one for residual income, would retire or only work for self
If won 10,000
1. All debt gone
2. would buy nice Estate in country, and 2-3 other small cabins or homes
3. would visit town grew up in, show off a bit in new sports car
4. would take pilot lessons as well as buy small used airplane or helicopter
5. would create own movie production studio, make movies
6. would buy radio time, create own radio show until could get sponsors.
Would retire and just generally try to live a humble life, and help a few others along the way.
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Post by X factor on Apr 21, 2017 20:05:57 GMT -5
Possessive jealous girlfriends, wives ect, over the years, and now, so deny their husbands, boyfriends, opportunities to get ahead in life.
Sometimes being in love is a trap.
Sometimes you can be in love with a monster.
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Post by X factor on May 7, 2017 10:48:45 GMT -5
Why do adults who produce 'hobbit shows', assume, produce show, characters in show, is if hobbits are Imbeciles?Why do adults who produce 'hobbit shows', assume, produce show, characters in show, as if hobbits are imbeciles?  To me, some of these images, borderline Satanic, when such term applied. When I was a hobbit, was never a imbecile or dumb or stupid and lacked the ability to comprehend things, why?, cause parents were always straight up with us. Sure we played, loved to imagine stuff, make up stuff, but understood it was 'play' and not reality. As such, now when I'm channel surfing, and come across stations where adults go out of their way to act like lunatics for their 'hobbit' viewing audience, I'm baffled by that...  I mean this 'western' idea that all hobbits are dorks and imbeciles, and can only learn and comprehend things if adult delivers it to them in goofy zany manner baffles me. Adults in the East, like Asia, middle East, and other areas, Easter Europe, Central Europe, South America and so forth, don't treat hobbits as if zany imbeciles when teaching them stuff, don't need muppets to teach anything. The native Americans didn't use odd muppets to teach their young the virtues of life. When I was a hobbit, I appreciated adults who where straight forward with me, not sure why in todays TV environment, adults have to slobber when counting to 10, or act insane trying to teach a lesson about math. I think most hobbits sit back and think... Ok, I can already count to 10, but if you, as an adult, want to act nutty trying to teach me math, knock yourself out'. Nough said
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Post by X factor on Jul 11, 2017 19:56:34 GMT -5
God vs the LotteryAs I age, I realize I have about as much chance with 'god' helping me realize dreams as I do chance of winning lottery. It's not Money, I, or others, who play lottery worship, rather it's 'freedom'. Let Pastors, who do nothing but read books and repeat 3000 year old sermons over and over again for the stupid, let them work out in hot sun, as body wears down. For the rest of us, grounded in 'reality', and pain, we realize body wears out, medical issues arise... I, we, play lottery, not cause we don't 'have faith in god', but rather cause we want our freedom, some hope. And a sliver of hope is better than none...  Yes, a sliver of hope is better than none at all. As you age, you begin to realize, if not apart of 'connected class', that to 'god' or 'fate' you're 'alley junk'...'back alley junk'... So play lottery, not cause love money, but rather cause want short period of alive life where can at least relax a bit, breathe, without being a labor slave. Life is short, healthy life is even shorter... Do what you must to get ahead, and stop allowing those with 'means' to tell you that you must suffer, work hard for pennies till health goes, or dead, to be 'right'. Do what you have to do to take care of self first...as long as doesn't negatively effect others, or another..
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Post by X factor on Aug 6, 2017 20:21:22 GMT -5
Sometimes you have to take a break from those who don't really care about you
Sometimes you have to take a break from those who don't really care about you, those who never prioritize you.
They'll take up a lot of 'your' time, mental energy, but you'll get zero in return, in that you're like the friend they keep in the closet, and only pull out when bored and absolutely have nothing else to do, or person to dialogue with.
Such people prevent you from actually moving on and meeting new folks, souls, that are as 'needy' for real friendship as 'you' are.
But these 'keep you in the closet' type distant friends never tell you to 'get lost', and that's the problem, they just watch, listen, as you confess all, tell all, make spectacle of self, but in the end it's all for nothing, to them just entertainment.
Sometimes you just gotta move on, and take a break from those who don't prioritize you, move on, in order to find those who do...
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Post by X factor on Aug 19, 2017 7:29:28 GMT -5
Nothing makes sense to me anymore
Nothing makes sense to me anymore from any stand point, not moral, social, ethically, nothing makes sense to me anymore accept 'Math'...hardcore Math, is the only thing that makes sense to me anymore, outside of math, nothing computes.
And the sad thing is, is I'm not even good at math (out of practice)
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