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Post by X factor on Jan 8, 2024 13:34:24 GMT -5
I feel like something bad is happening to me, in that it's like I've given up, which is affecting my behavior. Mainly drinking, which creates issues all within itself. It's like I just don't have hope anymore that things will get better (my version of better anyways)
Solution? I don't know, just stay busy, I suppose; I think only fate knows the solution, and only time will reveal what that is.
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Post by X factor on Jan 18, 2024 0:30:31 GMT -5
Totally in a physiological pit right now, hasn't been this bad in a long while. Working tomorrow will possibly snap me out of it for a while, only cause the duties of work can often be a nessisary distraction from personal percieved wohs.
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2024 20:35:16 GMT -5
Lately, I don't always feel so happyLately, I don't always feel so happy, it's like ugly reality is beginning to close in on me. Not sure what to do about it, the world is or can be viscious when you don't have resorces. I've gotten comfortable to just living, and being left alone, for the last decade or so, and no, do to the cost of living, well, who knows. Life just doesn't stop and stand still for anyone. I have so failed to get out and make new social contacts, friends, anything. And now I'm reaping that, big time...I basically have no one, other than a few text type of friends. But text friends are the types you never really hang around with. Oh well, no ones going to feel sorry for me, or care if I fall, get depressed, whatever, I'm pretty much already dead to the world. That being said, at least I'm still alive on here and posting goofy, moving, posts.
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Post by X factor on Feb 16, 2024 23:48:58 GMT -5
What do you do when sadness sets in?
A sense of just being overwhelmed, overpowered by bad fortune?
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Post by X factor on Apr 25, 2024 7:18:20 GMT -5
I don't feel as joyous or happy as I thought I would right now. Stress, I've unnecessarily stressed myself out by trying to get into film and production. I've unnecessarily chosen to stress myself out, at an older age, at that. Not a wise move on my part. That, and I must cut drinking out. Drinking and stress don't go good together...that's when your heart starts getting weak. Anyways, a few more minutes of rest, then the hectic day must begin.
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