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Post by X factor on Nov 1, 2024 14:45:48 GMT -5
If I were smart and responsible, I'd do the following in this order 1. Pay rent, just face the fact that my lease has been renewed half heartedly, that they did it automatically without consulting with me, nor have I reached out to them, the leasing office, cause wasn't sure I wanted to stay...so kept putting it off. Normally I'd just be kicked out, but do to them being desparate to keep tenants, they just assumed I wanted to stay. But yeah, that's the big thing I should do first to ease my tension. 2. Pay storage rent, I should get that out of the way next. 3. Pay internet bill Those are the big 3 things that I should knock off first if I was responsible and adult like, and would just face my fears and dreads instead of always running from them as if they'll go away if I just ignore them long enough. So maybe I'll just do that, face my fiscal fears...my money is my size and the less money I have, the smaller I feel.
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Post by X factor on Nov 15, 2024 12:03:14 GMT -5
Time to get up, as the world and other people, and the devil, and maybe even god are all waiting to smack me in the face and slowly destroy my dreams and ambitions. Time to get up and get beat up by life.
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Post by X factor on Nov 20, 2024 12:11:56 GMT -5
What is the devil? A real entity or just any force that opposes us, our will, our desires? Maybe both, either way I feel like evil or the devil has won, at least with me. I live now, it seems, just as a slave to always do stuff that's not optical for me, just going through the motions type of stuff, where you slowly die doing what you hate to do, being around those you don't connect with, and thus never prospering. I hate the devil, but there's nothing I can do about it, I've exhausted everything but nothing ever sways my way cause I'm surrounded by devils. Anyways, time to get up, start moving around, and fail at whatever it is I attempt to do.
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