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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:21:40 GMT -5
The reason why society, and this younger generation is so violent, is cause they weren't raised up with enough play. Play allows for that 'middle ground', when we play, we learn it's OK to lose, and that just because we lose, doesn't mean the world ends. People who did not play while growing up are the types that get offended over the smallest things, and on the streets that equates into shootings, lots and lots of shootings, cause the people doing the shooting, when younger, never 'played' much, never had that older brother to pin them to the ground and then tickle them into laughter. That's what was fun about my childhood is there's was lots of play, we played around a lot, tickled on another, learned to laugh. And there was nothing sual about it, and people who don't understand that are sick to me and have destroyed many lives by making things so gd serious all the time. Is why you have so many people walking around so rigid and uptight these days cause it's either romantic affection or nothing. And sorry, but there are many other layers of affection that have nothing to do with romance. Like hugging or hugs, or wrestling or play boxing, tackle football, and on and on, guys need that, even when grown, guys just need that, or what they use to call 'rough housing'. And it has nothing to do with romance, yet you have grown folks, alone, isolated for years that can't even so much as get a friendly pat on the back, cause could be 'offensive'. Prude people have kind of created a living hell for many. |
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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:26:13 GMT -5
The reason why society, and this younger generation is so violent, is cause they weren't raised up with enough play. Play allows for that 'middle ground', when we play, we learn it's OK to lose, and that just because we lose, doesn't mean the world ends. People who did not play while growing up are the types that get offended over the smallest things, and on the streets that equates into shootings, lots and lots of shootings, cause the people doing the shooting, when younger, never 'played' much, never had that older brother to pin them to the ground and then tickle them into laughter. That's what was fun about my childhood is there's was lots of play, we played around a lot, tickled on another, learned to laugh. And there was nothing sual about it, and people who don't understand that are sick to me and have destroyed many lives by making things so gd serious all the time. Is why you have so many people walking around so rigid and uptight these days cause it's either romantic affection or nothing. And sorry, but there are many other layers of affection that have nothing to do with romance. Like hugging or hugs, or wrestling or play boxing, tackle football, and on and on, guys need that, even when grown, guys just need that, or what they use to call 'rough housing'. And it has nothing to do with romance, yet you have grown folks, alone, isolated for years that can't even so much as get a friendly pat on the back, cause could be 'offensive'. Prude people have kind of created a living hell for many. When I was in the Navy, you should of seen the rough housing that went on on those ships, guys would be smacking other guys in the butt and all, just for kicks, and it was fun and felt good 'in context', it was 'play'. Yet smack a female on the butt now, and she has a 10 year emotional breakdown and seeks counciling for life. What kind of saucy weak kneed people is this society putting out these days? |
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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:28:25 GMT -5
If someone smacked me in the butt, I would not be offended at all, male or female, I would not care, as lonely as I am, I'd welcome some rough housing playful fun.
When alone, I guess you just view things differently.
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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:30:44 GMT -5
Scared fearful people have just ruined society for everyone, and cause many to have to live the most lonely, isolated lives imagined do to 'fear'.
Many don't even know how to laugh anymore.
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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:42:15 GMT -5
I don't want to be apart of this society anymore, you have violence at the street level, and lunacy at the Governmental level.
Crooks, thieves and bandits running the streets, and lunatics running the Government, where is the safe place anymore?
And social rules, and now social distancing makes it so you can't have fun anymore with others, where does this end?
It's what happens when lunatics at the top, write rules for others, both male and female lunatics.
Crack pots elected into office, of both genders, who then write rules for others to follow.
(yet behind the scenes they don't)
Just regular sane people who like to laugh and play, really have no place to escape to now.
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Post by X factor on Nov 17, 2020 5:47:56 GMT -5
I don't want to be apart of this society anymore, you have violence at the street level, and lunacy at the Governmental level. Crooks, thieves and bandits running the streets, and lunatics running the Government, where is the safe place anymore? And social rules, and now social distancing makes it so you can't have fun anymore with others, where does this end? It's what happens when lunatics at the top, write rules for others, both male and female lunatics. Crack pots elected into office, of both genders, who then write rules for others to follow. (yet behind the scenes they don't) Just regular sane people who like to laugh and play, really have no place to escape to now. Now you basically have to 'escape' within own self and use 'theater' or 'theatrics' as a theraputic form of escape, I suppose. |
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Post by X factor on Jan 22, 2021 14:02:43 GMT -5
A bit 'blue' or just 'down', even though I've saved more money than I have almost ever
Just came from bank, and wow, I've saved more money than have in years, I should be happy if money alone made one happy.
Don't misunderstand me at all, I'm working class poor, so saved money to me is not what it is to a wealthy person.
Saving 10, 20, 30 thousand to a working poor type, great, but nothing to a wealthy type.
They'd spend that on one night out on the town, or some fund raiser event.
Honestly, to me, if one has less than $100,000 to their name, in todays world, than they're basically broke.
So there's a lot of broke people in America and the world, but most just don't dwell on it.
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What would make me happy right now or lift my spirits?
I don't know....purpose...purpose.
Is why will be volunteering my time here soon, just passed local PD background check, and as usual came out squeaky clean.
It's why I know 'God' resides inside of basically no one, cause if he or it did, no one would ever be fearful of me, without provocation that is.
Now time to count my money...ye right...I wish.
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Post by X factor on Jan 22, 2021 14:16:43 GMT -5
One reason my life is so dog gall boring, is cause I'm so dog gall safe, I don't invite trouble into my life, not even for romantic purposes.
All it takes is one unvetted hot tempered ex lover to totally destroy your emotional state and cause you mass embarrassment and heartache.
People are the same, they get you to trust them, you confide in them share 'deep' things with them, they take mental notes, then when break up occurs, they use everything that you told them about yourself to disgrace you, or try to.
And either you put up with it, or you get so angry that you do something stupid, then end up a jail, and now life really is ruined for real.
But in a way I think my paranoid mind works against me, cause I don't initially trust anyone who pretends to like me, since so many in the past have skated over me.
So when someone shows interest in me, particularly online, I automatically think it's a scam.
In real life, not so much.
Seems no single beautiful woman is ever really single, like have a gang of rotten men they work for...'Go find us a sucker, we'll do the rest'.
Anyways, going to try to do something constructive today, I doubt I will though
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Post by X factor on Jan 28, 2021 0:06:18 GMT -5
Things feel 'flat' right now
I feel flat right now, emotionally flat, maybe cause I'm on a long break, not 'off' but on a long break, so at end of long break have to finish up shift, and so can't really get into anything, or just don't want to, but that aside, things still just feel flat now.
People seem 'flat', neighbors seem flat, average people use to just be 'fun', you could shoot the breeze with anyone, now so many seem 'reserved', uptight and paranoid.
Maybe it's just my location, but even this location wasn't always like that, now it's like everyone is scared and reserved...people don't talk to each other on the street, as the older generations influence fades, the younger, computer bred generation, they just don't know how to socialize in person anymore.
When I first moved here people were married, married couples tend to be more 'friendly', out going, they check on you...
Now just single urban females, who are either lovers or roommates, or other groups of older women, and they're all just so reserved and quiet...I think a good man will give a woman confidence...none of these women around here have 'good men' in their lives.
It's like being a male is a 'sin' to them, but they sure do love raising 'boys' on their own...single parenthood type stuff.
I don't know, I just don't like how things feel as of late.
It's almost like it's just to quiet, no cheer, anything, maybe covid has something to do with that.
I do know I need a plan, cause I don't want to live around people or a community like this for very much longer.
Plans take gobs of money though, my only plan is I'd like to move, but what if I move and it's the exact same way?
I feel like the 'light' is going out of this nation, censorship, things occurring by our Government that a few years ago just seemed so un American.
Schools in San Francisco and other areas removing the names of George Washington...you you hobbitding me??. the founder of this nation is no longer deemed 'a good man', by those now in charge?.
This is just getting freaky man...not sure if this is the best time to be alive...just not sure anymore...best era that is.
I think from 1965-2010, were the best years of America, if of the working class.
Now all our politicians under the influence of foreign nations who seem to want to turn America into China, were free expression not allowed anymore and where people forced to do things, 'or else'...then add the vaccines to that, and 55 people have died from them, but of course since the press is controlled by Corporations, of course they're not going to share that.
Our news agencies are no longer free to just go out there and find stories to report on..how sad...
Things just feel flat right now, very flat.
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Post by X factor on Jan 28, 2021 12:03:57 GMT -5
No laughter, no joy, no 'play' is a recipy for depression
No laughter, no joy, no 'play' is a recipy for depression, regardless of age.
But heard story in Las Vegas how they had to re-open up schools cause like 15 students committed suicide do to the isolation they face now...15...wow.
But the same applies to adults, no laughter, no joy no 'play' is a recipy for depression.
Some lived like this long before C virus scurge, but now others are learning what it is to live in isolation...but at least most are isolated 'with family' or isolated 'with friends', and not just totally isolated alone.
But everyone has their threshold of what they can bare or take.
And then throw dating into the mix, how has covid changed the whole dating dynamic?
It's as if demons have settled upon the world (but some, logically could ask 'when hasn't the world ever been dark or influenced by wicked decision makers?)
And I guess if honest and look beyond own personal 'world', the latter would be true.
But it's as if now these 'demons' are encroaching in on the 'free world' now...where decision makers now even in the 'free world' have come under these dark forces of suppression and control.
The Constitution, rule of law was the protector against that for so long, but now more and more it's becoming a piece of paper from the past, as people with money and power and influence seem to be able to influence law makers and others more so than paper documents signed centuries ago.
I'm not sure what the cure is other than to simply not listen to the 'news' anymore which seem to love pouring even more depressing, dark, negative news on society.
I had a dream last night that 'the plane was crashing', but in dream I didn't want to be like everyone else and go down with the plane, so at last minute I jumped out of the plane and survived.
I think there was a lot of symbolism to that dream.
I'm not trying to go down with the ship, it's just that survival instinct in not just myself, but in certain others as well.
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Post by X factor on Feb 19, 2021 9:26:38 GMT -5
This may sound odd, but sometimes when 'depressed', and say you actually do start feeling good, physically good again, that feeling of feeling good can actually send you back into depression in that you may feel like your feeling good is in vain, while feeling good about self, life and body on a sinking ship.
Imagine suddenly feeling good and happy, maybe you stop drinking, start working out again, abandon bad destructive habits, but all the while on the Titanic which is sinking, then you start thinking 'well what's the point of suddenly feeling good again, when in 5 minutes the whole ship I'm on will be underwater'?
Is how a depressed person might analyze a situation.
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Post by X factor on Feb 19, 2021 9:32:49 GMT -5
This may sound odd, but sometimes when 'depressed', and say you actually do start feeling good, physically good again, that feeling of feeling good can actually send you back into depression in that you may feel like your feeling good is in vain, while feeling good about self, life and body on a sinking ship. Imagine suddenly feeling good and happy, maybe you stop drinking, start working out again, abandon bad destructive habits, but all the while on the Titanic which is sinking, then you start thinking 'well what's the point of suddenly feeling good again, when in 5 minutes the whole ship I'm on will be underwater'? Is how a depressed person might analyze a situation. I think religion is suppose to counter balance that 'Ahh, the ship is going to sink anyways', feeling some may get, cause religion gives person on sinking ship the added suggestion that even when ship sinks, a 'God' will come and save you. But it's that notion of a 'god' saving you, us, them, whomever, in the afterlife is what leads to many ugly attitudes and even behaviors or beliefs towards others while alive. But that's for a whole other post in a different section I suppose. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 19, 2021 9:39:16 GMT -5
Continued from above...
ye, kind like 'Well this god will save me, and if you want them to save you to, you'd better do this, be like this, and do that, or else the god that's going to save me, won't save you, and if you're not 'saved' by the god I know is going to save me, well then, you're messed up'.
Is the type of attitude the notion of a saving god seems to lead to in some.
It almost spawns a certain ugly attitude in the one who thinks they're going to be saved, once dead, but not 'you'.
Yet there's zero proof any one's 'saved' after their body dies.
ghosts?
Ghosts could just be other energy life forms that are alive like 'us', just messing with 'us', and or could be our own minds messing with us, and or even extension of our own energy field.
In other words like a film projector, ghosts could simply be our minds projecting images, thoughts, sounds, originating in our own minds.
Who really knows.
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Post by X factor on Feb 19, 2021 9:46:16 GMT -5
Ye, or kind of like jumping out of a airplane with no parachute, and then suddenly feeling good about self and life 15 seconds before impact.
Is kind of how a depressed person may think and reason.
In that a depressed person may reason that whether they feel good about self or not, still going to impact the ground, regardless.
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Post by X factor on Feb 19, 2021 9:49:14 GMT -5
Or like would one rather die while drunk and don't even care, or would one rather die when totally sober, and with a straight logical mind?
I think I'd rather die when drunk and passed out, while not caring, or even while laughing, than to die with a straight mind and totally fearful of event.
Is how a depressed person may reason things.
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