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Post by X factor on Mar 5, 2021 2:06:49 GMT -5
The thing about food or 'ingredient' allergies is most of us eat so much during a 24 hour cycle, what body could be reacting to can be complicated to pin point, cause it may not be the 'food item' per say, but an ingredient in it, or some 'flavoring', or to much sugar in fruit or 'other'.
So like a 'body detective', best to write down every and all things consumed in a 48 hour period, whether home cooked or store bought, drinks and all, milk, ect, write it all down and observe how 'you' feel after eating each item, although sometimes something you ate 3 hours earlier may not effect you until your eating something else and you may think it's the 'something else' your eating that's making you fill ill, when it could be the item you ate 3 hours earlier.
But I do know this, most body aches of any kind begin and end with what we eat/consume...solve that problem and much as far as health, will be solved.
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Post by X factor on Mar 5, 2021 13:04:11 GMT -5
You never know who's going to like you You never know who's going to like you, as in at work, I sometimes work around, encounter, this muscular well built 'B' guy who's also very smart and has near supervisory status...they could be a model, the kind of well mentally and physical fit 'brotha', the media never talks about, unless an athlete of course. Well me and this guy just get along for some reason, they're the cool type, the type that if you saw at a club would just assume they had like celebrity type status or was a bodyguard or someone important on the 'A' list....but for some reason we get along, they actually like me as a person, they enjoy my wit, and they enjoy our conversations. And I think this is why I notice the stronger someone is on the outside, as in if fit, muscular, know karate ect, the less afraid of me they are....does that make sense? In other words a thin person who's unsure of self, may also like me, but be to afraid to admit it, or afraid they might lose control ect.. And no, I don't mean 'like' as in romantic, I mean like as in 'Hey, you're cool, I wouldn't mind hanging out with you sometime away from work environment' type of like, like high school friendship type of like. But males in particular, I guess once they get girlfriends or get to certain age, feel it's 'gay' to become to attached to another male, unless done so in family setting, as in two husbands and two wives going out to dinner. But I notice the tougher the male is on the outside, that insecurity goes away, and they just like me just because I'm a decent fun interesting person full of conversation. It has to do with insecurity I guess. More on this later, getting ready for work.  Most everything I do is an experiment because I love studying human behavior, writing down reactions and all, and seeing just how hard wired most people are, thus how 'animal' we are, easily programmed by society or this and that. I study humans, even 'you', as if I'm a alien.
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Post by X factor on Mar 12, 2021 22:02:52 GMT -5
Not sure how to feel right now.
Wanted today to be 'big' but really wasn't, not at all.
Best part of day was 'Lamb meat' that I ate, everything else a bust.
And just got done watching a sad ending type of movie.
I feel empty right now actually.
No love, no hug.
What is that Pastor?
Right now I'd take a hug from Bigfoot...I don't care.
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Post by X factor on Mar 12, 2021 22:07:42 GMT -5
Sometimes I think being a big dreamer in this world is nothing more than a curse.
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Post by X factor on Mar 15, 2021 10:46:11 GMT -5
About to 'gift' two fellas I've never met, a $500.00 add spot
What's wrong with me?
About to 'gift' to fellas I've never met a $500.00 add spot for the radio...I'm talking iheart type radio....the real deal.
And sure, $500.00 isn't very much at all for radio add spots, will probably get them around 10 spots, but none the less their names, their 'brand' will get out there.
They're sportscasters, collegiate sports casters and already have their own radio show, I'm just doing this to boost their exposure and cause they've been pretty nice up to now.
But still, $500.00...wow, that's coming straight out of my own pocket, a personal gift, and is the most unselfish thing I've done probably ever, as far as gifting others and getting nothing in return.
I just wish someone or others would have helped me when I was younger, but no one did, not like that, is why made so many poor decisions during prime years, cause no one helped me ever.
So maybe in a way I find peace by helping someone else, cause I was never helped.
Not that they really need my help, after all they're in college or a University, so obviously if they can afford to attend a University or College, I'm sure they're not that poor and broke, I'm sure their families have some level of wealth.
I'm simply trying to 'boost' them along a bit, I guess that's apart of being alive.
And since don't have own family, this, I don't know, I guess does fulfill something inside of me, the brotherly or even parental instincts to just want to help others, and be a part of something other than self.
About to buy this add spot, this will probably be continued in the sports section going forward or my even move this section to the sports section here in a bit.
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Post by X factor on Mar 15, 2021 11:30:03 GMT -5
Continued from above....
I just went ahead and paid the add spot, they'll be able to run around ten 30 second promos...I just paid it, promised I would so did, I mean nothing else worse than pumping up another persons expectation and then letting them down...if I say I'm going to do something, and can, than I must follow through...that's just me.
How do I feel after just spending 500 dollars on others?
Not sure yet, it's a unselfish act I've never really done before, ever, I've never spent that much on anyone, not even my girlfriend, when had one oh so long ago, so this is new emotional territory for me.
Do I expect to be 'blessed' or 'rewarded' by 'god' or 'fate'?...no
The pattern of my life is usually when I'm nice to others, worse things happen to me...
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Post by X factor on Mar 23, 2021 1:45:03 GMT -5
One thing I realize as I get older is you can never stop being 'you' in order to make others feel comfortable.
Cause I realize, as I get older it's not 'you' who has the problem or issues (assuming it's just about normal dynamic personality type stuff).
If being happy and jolly and enthusiastic intimidates some, than oh well.
If you're a guy, and flirty, playful, ect, and other guys or gals taken aback by that, than it's not really 'you' who has an issue, for you already know your bounderies ahead of time, it's them that don't know theirs.
If being happy and jolly around others makes them feel...let me put that another way.
As open as America claims to be, it's still a very homophobic place, individuals that is, but that's for a reason, people are trained to fear the fact that they might be gay...trained to fear that fact, even though they're not, they're trained to fear that fact that they could be.
So if you connect with another guy, make them laugh, are engaging ect, and they actually initially enjoy your company or conversation, they get 'scared', nervous and start thinking this...
'Gee, I had a really great time with Edward, they made me feel relaxed and layed back, oh heck what if they're gay?'
But what they're really saying is 'what if I'm the one who is gay?'
What really people fear is what they might be, not what you 'are'...read that again about 20 times.
What people really fear is what they might be, and not so much what 'you are'.
If your personality triggers something inside of them, they get nervous.
And they figure, well because I'm a guy and like this guy, maybe I'm gay, and so they panic, and instead will go lust after some casual female just to prove to themselves they're not gay.
It's kind of silly when you think about it, but it's how many have been conditioned to think about same sox relationships once above a certain age.
All that being said, I realize now you can never stop being 'you', regardless of how it makes others feel on the inside.
And sooner or later you'll simply find those are mature enough, balanced enough on the inside to accept you 'as is'..and then wonderful things occur, as far as opportunities and doors being opened for you socially.
But for sure small people will keep you small, and large people will help you to grow in all manners of life.
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Post by X factor on Mar 28, 2021 19:57:01 GMT -5
Met my female neighbor today, they're very 'fat' like obese fat, I'd need viagra to whatever.
Like having cake with jabba the hut or something...ugg...why me??
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Post by X factor on Mar 28, 2021 20:01:14 GMT -5
Met my female neighbor today, they're very 'fat' like obese fat, I'd need viagra to whatever. Like having cake with jabba the hut or something...ugg...why me?? Maybe you need to expand your ways and learn to date fat women..am I out of line?? |
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Post by X factor on Mar 28, 2021 20:06:54 GMT -5
Met my female neighbor today, they're very 'fat' like obese fat, I'd need viagra to whatever. Like having cake with jabba the hut or something...ugg...why me?? Maybe you need to expand your ways and learn to date fat women..am I out of line?? Small pint, stop sneaking around, I'm a creature of 'hell'...and maybe your right...maybe, just maybe..love isn't about size..  |
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2021 19:35:59 GMT -5
Just got new phone, and deleting old phones memory, think old phone had a virus...no telling what it was sending out...fresh start.
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2021 19:38:50 GMT -5
To me, most criminals and slimy types go into 'tech' now, sure they're not robbing you on the streets, but they're victimizing you, us, I, in other sneaky under handed ways, and many are from like India the Country, people who would bleed you fiscally dry and not even shed a tear...cold hearted tech fks who work for google, FB, Twitter ect and more.
These people have no souls or concious.
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2021 19:44:37 GMT -5
Got new smart phone, next step is to get new computer, but that's more complex, for who wants to or enjoys trying to transfer all paid for software?...very not fun...not a fun task at all.
Maybe should start uploading stuff to 'the cloud' like others do, so can simply download saved files, data, to new device...
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2021 19:49:07 GMT -5
Wiped old phone totally clean, as if dead, as if when a human dies, and has no soul or memory, and now will be reincarnated in other device...
Screw the past!!!
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2021 19:56:42 GMT -5
Wiping a phone is kind of like dying and being reborn..yes, no? Wiping your cell phone or smart phone or computer clean is kind of like dying and then being reborn into a new body, that new body would be new device...which parallels the whole resurection thing that the bible teaches. You die, but then promised new body.. Same with computer or cell phone, you kill it, reset it to factory, all info gone, but then resurrect it, the old info, the info you want, into a new body or computer.  It's alive, it's alive!!! Do you really think Jesus is coming back? Look at the totality of humanity, all ethnic groups, societies, the Soviet Union, Roman Empire, the Greek era, America, Spain, Mexico, Germany, all the billions, trillions of souls that have lived and died, do you really think the Jewish 'god' is managing everyones eternal destiny? Just asking....the Mayan Indians, Hawiians, Africans, Quakers, Gator fans and more. Just asking.
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