Alcohol...the Seductive trap...

Well I sure did it this time, last night, after being drunk, I tried marching through a marshy swamp to retrieve a kitten that a bunch of females were concerned about..I did not find the kitten, and turned around cause not even I was drunk enough to not be concerned about alligators and snakes at night (what was I thinking?)

Then came back, gave away some female shoes to neighbors, then after that tried cooking, then, then, and the big blunder was some how while pulling table closer to me, large TV screen came tumbling down and I guess spilled my beer or some other drink over the key board, so yep, you guessed it, had to go get another computer...wow and woh.

I mean I needed one anyways, but wish I had had time to store all my files and documents and pictures and other stuff...cause now they're gone forever, unless pay for a technition to retrieve them.

Then started calling different non emergency police departments to give them tips on how to solve crime (again, what the hell was I thinking???)...and then called them again early this morning as if didn't make enough of a fool out of self last night.

So yes, my drinking got the better of me last night...but I don't feel to bad about it cause it's just harmless fun one would have if in high school or college, harmless stupid fun I guess.

But did have to get a new computer, that cost money, and did get a new printer yesterday, which was unrelated to last night or my drinking, so now I do have new computer and a new printer which I've yet to hook up.

And let me tell you, who needs the FBI anymore when now your computer knows all about you?

I mean between our computers and cell phones, what more info do you need on someone?

And this new computer, I swear, has so many 'features' and stuff I doubt I'll ever use, and to me whenever they say 'collect data' for a better experience, ye sure..

But it's just the new world we live in I guess.

I'm just thankful I have the day off, cause if had to work today, I'd be a mess, and wouldn't of had time to get a new computer for days.

Again, I needed a new computer anyways, but not like this, cause left behind so many valuable programs on other computer and not sure I wrote down all the 'keys'...oh well.

So goes the life of someone who drinks...

Continued from above

I like just need to toss out old address book, yes, I still got one of those, with names and numbers in it from years ago, why would I toss it out?

Cause when drunk I call these numbers as if going to resurrect old relationships and it just never happens, instead I end up making a fool out of myself and saying, expressing things I would not if sober.

Like last night for instance, I actually called a County Sheriff office looking for a friend I once new long ago...I mean why would I do that?

Cause they wouldn't answer their phone, so I was drunk, so decided to 'pry'...and now I feel like such a fool, you just don't do stuff like that.

I mean who does that??

Who calls police departs just out of sheer loneliness just to chat?...who in their right mind does that?...oh ye, that would be me, when drunk, I do that...

I mean that's what some bratty 16 year old would do, or some jealous lady trying to track down their ex..

And of course they record everything, which makes me want to do it more, it's like public record blogging I guess, I do like the fact that hopefully my voice, my mood, concerns, will be saved forever in some public place...(odd way to get yourself published)

But that's me for you, just goofy as all can be when I get drunk...not all the time, but yesterday alcohol just hit me strong, and now I feel like a 'clud' to self.

I need to destroy those address books to save myself future embarracement.

Heck, I got a new phone, new computer, new printer, and so maybe now address book or books need to go as well.
I mean no one in those address books give a squat about me, so why do I bother calling them?

I just need to let go of that past, for real, they're older now, mature, and here I am still acting like some adolescent mild, but only when drunk it seems, but do any of us ever really grow up?

I just wish I had another day to 'sulk', instead of having to work tomorrow, work for sure though, will hurl me away from all this self sorrow stuff.

I feel like I'm just standing still in life as everyone else continues to move forward and just leave me behind.

I feel like I've just been left behind by life, society, and others.

Oh well, more things to do on the 'to do list'...right now I think I'll just lay back for a bit and listen to old 'w' men whine and cry on the radio about various things.

And then I call up the non emergency line at PD, and start lecturing them on how to be better crime fighters...I know what happened, it's not that I drank 'more', it what I drank that had me acting extra odd, 'Hurricae'...like ghetto beer, but that cheap looking ghetto beer will take you for a ride if not use to it, and boy did I go on a ride yesterday evening and into the night, I'm just glad I had sense enough to stay close to home and not venture out.

If I could spank myself right now I would.

Calling Police Departments all over nation and letting them know how much 'we' or 'I' appreciate them, or better yet how much we or I appreciate 'law and order'...

Stuff like this makes me want to drink



Got new printer, which like everything else is in short supply these days, I wanted non internet printer, but had limited selection so got what I got.

Get home, a week or so later, as in yesterday and today, finally get around to hooking it up, then, well, can't even use it without first 'registering an account'..(I won't name brand here).

If there is a hell, I'm sure hoping 'tech' types have their own section in it that's a bitter hotter than other peoples section.

Anyways, this fact of having to 'register' your name annoys the heck out of me, I mean there's no more privacy these days, and sadly you can't even print out a bill, or card or receipt or anything without 'tech' watching you, studying you, prying and being nosey, like a peeping tom...tech has normalized being a peeping tom.

Back in the day, if peeping toms were caught by neighborhood men, they'd get beat the F up, but now days big tech has normalized prying and spying on everyone.

That being said, so had a beer, to calm my nerves and move self forward in this process, but then in form, what do they want...your email, and phone number...F them....I mean think about that, what a evil sick way to 'mine' your information.

So now you have to give up your phone number and freagon email in order to register in order to use a printer you've already paid for.

I hope 'tech hell' is very hot, very very hot.

It's sick to me, and is why I have to have a beer or two to relax enough to go against every instinct in me to not be a sucker and give up email and number just to use a printer.

Bought already bought it, it's already hooked up, it does print very fast, and so just easier for me to go ahead and register than to return it...which would take hours and traffic and driving and other headaches.

I hate the tech world, I hate the mindset of the people in it....don't get me wrong I like tech, but I totally hate the sleazy underhandedness about those who work in it, anything to squeeze another dollar from you, anything to mine more info from you, anything they can strip from you and then sell to a 3rd party for marketing, all at the expense of our privacy and dignity.

This is why I have to drink at times, cause if didn't I doubt I'd do anything, I'd go homeless, again, and just go live in the mountains off the grid, cause my gut, everything in my body tells me where society is going is totally wrong and 'demonic'.

And I don't blame Satan for this, I blame man.

Darn it, never drink and then leave message on voice mail, especially if to leasing office.

Darn it, was mad and upset, and left 'upset message' for leasing office cause someone messed up my door mat....but now come Monday, when they return to office, I'll be in a totally different mood.

Drinking and voice messages for sure do not go together.